Amazing Grace By LKJ
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You're right: up to Chapter 20 "Minks and Turkey Basters then.
Also want to add my thanks for making Amazing Grace available online. I did managed to get hold of a copy years ago and did read it almost in one go. Scanned through the online chapters and the photos are great. Thanks Laura!
I was thinking the same the first time I read it.
Gertrudes said:
I was thinking the same the first time I read it.
EmeraldHope
The Living Force
Laura,
I cannot begin to tell you how very much I have enjoyed reading this. Thank you so much for posting this on the web. So very many things resonate with me, especially the parts regarding your grandfather.
I have a question, that I am in hopes that you or someone here can answer concerning that, or perhaps point me in a direction to explore that I have not yet.
I just like you knew the last time that I saw my grandfather alive that it was the last time. That was on a Saturday. On the following Monday, at around lunchtime, I was overwhelmed with a sense that he was gone. I called his house and got no answer on the phone. Within an hour my aunt called me to tell me that he had passed . I had called right about the time my uncle was walking outside to tell other family members that he had just gone and so no one was inside to hear the phone.
Now, the crux of my question lies in the following. Several times after this, my grandfather came to me in a dream state that was not like one of my normal dreams. If I had to desribe it in a way that makes sense, I would say that these dreams felt quasi- physical and seemed very real.
The first one, was not long after his death and I was contemplating suicide. I met him in what was like a doctors office waiting room, but he spoke to me from behind what would look like the receptionist window . He told me I could not come any further, and he could not come out to where I was . He called me by the name he called me when I was little, and told me it was not my time to go anywhere and I had a lot left that I had to do. He told me that he was fine and to tell my Nana that he was fine.
The big one though, was when he came to me and told me not to be alarmed, but that I had to look for a new car, that mine wasnt safe, and I had to do it rather quickly. At the time, I was driving a little Mercury Topaz 4 cylinder. That Saturday, I started car shopping. On Sunday, i finally settled for a larger Dodge Intrepid. Within two weeks, I was in a car crash that would have killed me and my passenger had we been in the mercury. The crash took off the whole back end of my Intrepid. We were unscathed, although very sore and shaken up.
Now these events were so real to me that I would have always sworn up and down that that is what happened. Even typing this to tell you all brings tears to my eyes- just as these events always have. Not in a bad sense mind you, but because the connection is so real and so strong. But after reading so much, I have to wonder did my psyche just present these things to me in the form of my grandfather? Was it a part of myself that knew the crash was coming? How to know?
I cannot begin to tell you how very much I have enjoyed reading this. Thank you so much for posting this on the web. So very many things resonate with me, especially the parts regarding your grandfather.
I have a question, that I am in hopes that you or someone here can answer concerning that, or perhaps point me in a direction to explore that I have not yet.
I just like you knew the last time that I saw my grandfather alive that it was the last time. That was on a Saturday. On the following Monday, at around lunchtime, I was overwhelmed with a sense that he was gone. I called his house and got no answer on the phone. Within an hour my aunt called me to tell me that he had passed . I had called right about the time my uncle was walking outside to tell other family members that he had just gone and so no one was inside to hear the phone.
Now, the crux of my question lies in the following. Several times after this, my grandfather came to me in a dream state that was not like one of my normal dreams. If I had to desribe it in a way that makes sense, I would say that these dreams felt quasi- physical and seemed very real.
The first one, was not long after his death and I was contemplating suicide. I met him in what was like a doctors office waiting room, but he spoke to me from behind what would look like the receptionist window . He told me I could not come any further, and he could not come out to where I was . He called me by the name he called me when I was little, and told me it was not my time to go anywhere and I had a lot left that I had to do. He told me that he was fine and to tell my Nana that he was fine.
The big one though, was when he came to me and told me not to be alarmed, but that I had to look for a new car, that mine wasnt safe, and I had to do it rather quickly. At the time, I was driving a little Mercury Topaz 4 cylinder. That Saturday, I started car shopping. On Sunday, i finally settled for a larger Dodge Intrepid. Within two weeks, I was in a car crash that would have killed me and my passenger had we been in the mercury. The crash took off the whole back end of my Intrepid. We were unscathed, although very sore and shaken up.
Now these events were so real to me that I would have always sworn up and down that that is what happened. Even typing this to tell you all brings tears to my eyes- just as these events always have. Not in a bad sense mind you, but because the connection is so real and so strong. But after reading so much, I have to wonder did my psyche just present these things to me in the form of my grandfather? Was it a part of myself that knew the crash was coming? How to know?
EmeraldHope said:
Or, was it part of yourself in communication with your grandfather? Like you say, hard to tell, but it does help us to know that our loved ones who have passed over are only a thought away.
For years, I bought cards for my grandparents for the occasions when I had bought them when they were alive. I would write in them what I wanted to say to them, have a good cry, and then put them away in a box. It really does help, over time, and I think it makes the communication stronger by the intentional acts of getting the cards, writing in them, etc.
Thanks a lot, Laura, for making Amazing Grace availbale again and for sharing your story in there - I had always wanted to read it. As others have mentioned, it really does put things into perspective.
I found a typo in chapter 17:
Fwiw, maybe it would be a good idea to put it into print again?
I found a typo in chapter 17:
Fwiw, maybe it would be a good idea to put it into print again?
When I read this online at the old Cassiopaea site it blew me away. I still have my original 1st Edition copy of the book, signed by the author. Time to pull it out for a revisit. If I am not mistaken this was the first of Laura's work ever published in book form. It is a classic. It is good to see it made available again. People just coming to the work here and the Cass sessions, for the first time, will gain some important insight into how and why this all came about.
Enaid said:
Well Ive just the first 4 cap, I had to re-read even I understand better English now than a year ago, there are words complicated for me, but only in those caps I can imagine all the situations that Laura and Tom had to live, their mother remembered my mother so there were moments that I had flashback in my head ,(I'm reading the drama of the gifted child too) remembering some of my situations when I was little girl.
What comes to my mind is : Laura Thanks!!!! really thanks!!! I've learnt a lot with the information that I found the forum although I need to work in several things in my life I admire so much Laura with this situations and the good mother that you are, working a lot for your kids and try to teach them how is the world, its incredible so smart woman indeed...
I got a couple more chapters up. I need to get some photos out of storage and scan and insert them. There are a number of long spells when there just weren't any photographs made, but I have a few at other odd points. I think that seeing actual images of some of my world can help people to know that I'm not kidding when I describe the stuff I went through before the Cs came...
Laura, what you went through with all the betrayals in your life. A perfect example of hyper-empathy, believing the best in people and getting a kick in the teeth almost every time.
You could still be wallowing in self-pity and bitterness, but instead you learned from your suffering. I greatly admire this quality in you. (Not that it's important, but I think you were/are a lot prettier than you knew/know, if you'll pardon me for saying so. Just had to say it.)
You could still be wallowing in self-pity and bitterness, but instead you learned from your suffering. I greatly admire this quality in you. (Not that it's important, but I think you were/are a lot prettier than you knew/know, if you'll pardon me for saying so. Just had to say it.)
Laura,
I just wanted to express my heartfelt gratitude for you sharing your life story (up to chapter 24). As I choose not to have an internet connection at home, I downloaded all the chapters and read them on my laptop in almost one sitting. Your profound sense of integrity and humour, despite all you suffered, shone very brightly for me. Thank you so much. The strength and warmth you exude in your writing, I felt personally in your presence at the Barcelona conference recently and very briefly on La Ramblas the following day :) (with Ark and some other lovely folk).
Could someone please direct me to the relevant thread that discusses encountering a 'face at the window' scenario. I am becoming more aware of something that happened in my childhood (aged 4 -7?), which I have only a fleeting memory of. Namely, feeling petrified when a 'shapeless' black shape came towards me one night from the corner of my bedroom, where my toys and board games were stacked, including a typical childrens magic set - which I believe may be relevant. I just ducked beneath the blankets until I feel asleep and was scared of the dark for some time after. Incidentally, it was around this time I can recall looking down at my own sleeping form and flying with my friends, which I naturally attributed to dreaming.
The reason I believe the magic set was relevant was because it validated to me (intuitively anyway) a recent 'feeling' of being 'energetically / psychically tagged' after watching the film Avatar (for the second time). I felt suddenly so, so vunerable - I was almost afraid to sleep despite my usual protection methods. Sure enough, weeks later, just before going on holiday, at my Aunties house, in a strange bedroom, I forgot my protection routine and immediately after falling asleep - I was awake in the same room - but instead of curtains drawn closed at night-time, it was daylight with a 6 foot lizard at the window. Again I felt paralyzed with fear, But kept saying "I am protected" over and over (I have had some experience with what seemed high density forces - probably, namely Higher Self / me in the future). It disappeared after a while, and was replaced by a doorway to what looked like a study - though I could see the light from a reading lamp the desk was around the corner. I felt it would be safe to walk into the 'room' and confront the being / or Higher Self I felt was there, but I was still really scared by the previous experience.
I have shamanic leanings, but with two beloved young daughters and a strong sense of self preservation (being on the menu at McLizzies is not on my agenda!) I don't intend to pursue any path without sufficient preperation (Knowledge protects, ignorance endangers!). I appreciate I still have alot to read, learn and reflect on and I am becoming more disciplined in EE breathing and paleo diet - very slowly but surely!
Therefore, I ask:
1) By crossing some type of 'awareness frequency' threshold, could 4D STS have engineered such technology, to 'tag' potential STO candidates?
2) If one can create an 'alternate reality' or visit a 'past or future life' - what STO purpose would there be in changing anything? My past life in India, where I saw my family and village burned down, because I had certain 'knowledge' has led to such feelings of anger / frustration in this 'present' in carnation (I used to try and save others) - so I have learned alot about letting go and forgiveness. In that 'time' I learned alot also, and taught from a cave before a natural, beautiful 'death' - so if I could (go back in 'time') and change or prevent such tragedy, I would have interfered with my free will at that 'time'. Similarly changing anything in a 'future' life - is there any STO reason why? Hope this makes sense! (Graham Hancocks fictional book, Entangled, deals with this subject and is a good read)
3) Would undergoing hypnosis to go back to my childhood encounter be useful?
Anyway, any advice would be appreciated. Apologies if I ought to have posted this info elsewhere! I have recently received the whole wave series (8 books?) and so, so much is resonating with me as I avidly read the first book, as High Strangness did!
Thanks again Laura :)
I just wanted to express my heartfelt gratitude for you sharing your life story (up to chapter 24). As I choose not to have an internet connection at home, I downloaded all the chapters and read them on my laptop in almost one sitting. Your profound sense of integrity and humour, despite all you suffered, shone very brightly for me. Thank you so much. The strength and warmth you exude in your writing, I felt personally in your presence at the Barcelona conference recently and very briefly on La Ramblas the following day :) (with Ark and some other lovely folk).
Could someone please direct me to the relevant thread that discusses encountering a 'face at the window' scenario. I am becoming more aware of something that happened in my childhood (aged 4 -7?), which I have only a fleeting memory of. Namely, feeling petrified when a 'shapeless' black shape came towards me one night from the corner of my bedroom, where my toys and board games were stacked, including a typical childrens magic set - which I believe may be relevant. I just ducked beneath the blankets until I feel asleep and was scared of the dark for some time after. Incidentally, it was around this time I can recall looking down at my own sleeping form and flying with my friends, which I naturally attributed to dreaming.
The reason I believe the magic set was relevant was because it validated to me (intuitively anyway) a recent 'feeling' of being 'energetically / psychically tagged' after watching the film Avatar (for the second time). I felt suddenly so, so vunerable - I was almost afraid to sleep despite my usual protection methods. Sure enough, weeks later, just before going on holiday, at my Aunties house, in a strange bedroom, I forgot my protection routine and immediately after falling asleep - I was awake in the same room - but instead of curtains drawn closed at night-time, it was daylight with a 6 foot lizard at the window. Again I felt paralyzed with fear, But kept saying "I am protected" over and over (I have had some experience with what seemed high density forces - probably, namely Higher Self / me in the future). It disappeared after a while, and was replaced by a doorway to what looked like a study - though I could see the light from a reading lamp the desk was around the corner. I felt it would be safe to walk into the 'room' and confront the being / or Higher Self I felt was there, but I was still really scared by the previous experience.
I have shamanic leanings, but with two beloved young daughters and a strong sense of self preservation (being on the menu at McLizzies is not on my agenda!) I don't intend to pursue any path without sufficient preperation (Knowledge protects, ignorance endangers!). I appreciate I still have alot to read, learn and reflect on and I am becoming more disciplined in EE breathing and paleo diet - very slowly but surely!
Therefore, I ask:
1) By crossing some type of 'awareness frequency' threshold, could 4D STS have engineered such technology, to 'tag' potential STO candidates?
2) If one can create an 'alternate reality' or visit a 'past or future life' - what STO purpose would there be in changing anything? My past life in India, where I saw my family and village burned down, because I had certain 'knowledge' has led to such feelings of anger / frustration in this 'present' in carnation (I used to try and save others) - so I have learned alot about letting go and forgiveness. In that 'time' I learned alot also, and taught from a cave before a natural, beautiful 'death' - so if I could (go back in 'time') and change or prevent such tragedy, I would have interfered with my free will at that 'time'. Similarly changing anything in a 'future' life - is there any STO reason why? Hope this makes sense! (Graham Hancocks fictional book, Entangled, deals with this subject and is a good read)
3) Would undergoing hypnosis to go back to my childhood encounter be useful?
Anyway, any advice would be appreciated. Apologies if I ought to have posted this info elsewhere! I have recently received the whole wave series (8 books?) and so, so much is resonating with me as I avidly read the first book, as High Strangness did!
Thanks again Laura :)
dreamrider said:
Dreamrider, my advice will be to keep reading the Wave series, and all your questions above will be answered in due time, in a clear and comprehensive way. For most of us, reading the Wave changed the way we view ourselves and reality to a great extent too. It's going to be very interesting and fun, so enjoy the reading :)
mazaritanoor
A Disturbance in the Force
Hi everyone & Laura,
Just want to say thanks for putting "Amazing Grace" online and sharing your life experiences...I do not think I'd ever come across an individual such as Laura.....once again thanks and being not quite an articulate forum posters as those here....I just had to express my appreciation and gratitude to all and you.
Aida
Just want to say thanks for putting "Amazing Grace" online and sharing your life experiences...I do not think I'd ever come across an individual such as Laura.....once again thanks and being not quite an articulate forum posters as those here....I just had to express my appreciation and gratitude to all and you.
Aida
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