Amazing Grace By LKJ

[StrangeCaptain]

Wow! Just can't express what an amazing read this is... It touches the mind and the heart. Here's a gem that got me laughing out loud (paraphrasing):

"Some things aren't worth doing well."

And an exact quote I just read:

She thought I was hopelessly old-fashioned if not downright prudish. People my age looked on sexual relations as natural and uncomplicated. They thought women were entitled to orgasms, “the more, the better”. For good health a person ought to have proper portions of the major food groups every day, a daily bowel movement, and, most definitely, regular orgasms. If you can’t be with the one you love, then love the one you’re with. In this case, love meant sex.

I simply did not feel the urge to have sex for the sake of having sex. For me, sex was far and away more significant than “satisfying” a bodily urge to maintain good “physical balance” or “sexual hygienic homeostasis”. Unfortunately, I couldn’t explain why. I had no counter-arguments to stand up to the mechanistic view of the human being. Maybe I was just not “normal”.

I have really felt like a round peg in a square hole all my life on this issue and trying to be modern, and consequently going against my innermost inclinations and reflexes, has got me into some pretty unpleasant situations from time to time. A couple of years ago I decided to be my prudish, old-fashioned self thinking that if it turned out to be some aspect of the false personality then I certainly was not going to get over it by pretending such attitudes did not exist within me. Considering I live in France, I am probably even more out of place than I would be back in the States.

Oh well... Come hell or high water (southeastern U.S. expression that I have heard my mom use many times and use now quite consciously in celebration of the setting of Amazing Grace), I am honoring those principles that have been begging me my whole life to be heard.

I also like the above quote because, no, I can not yet try to explain my leanings to the modern, mechanistic mindset that essentially treats sex as a solely physical phenomenon such as hunger for food. From what I have read of the discussions of polyvagal theory (and I won't be able to read the book for some time), it seems there could be a scientific explanation there of how some people may have some hard-wiring that unites the libido and the need for bonding just as profoundly as the two seem to be separated for some of these modern people. But for now... I do not even really care about explaining myself or justifying myself to others. I want to listen to these long-ignored, quiet but resounding, instincts that have been asking me to live a certain way.

One thing I suspect... For those of us who have these less modern, less mechanistic ideas about sex, I think it can be damaging in a lot of ways to try to fit ourselves into the modern mechanistic mold.

Maybe, these inclinations will turn out to be just a few more of the thousand I's clamoring for their turn in the driver's seat, but I find it interesting that most trouble I have gotten myself (and then others) into has been a result of ignoring these inclinations.

 

[Laura]

One thing I suspect... For those of us who have these less modern, less mechanistic ideas about sex, I think it can be damaging in a lot of ways to try to fit ourselves into the modern mechanistic mold.

Maybe, these inclinations will turn out to be just a few more of the thousand I's clamoring for their turn in the driver's seat, but I find it interesting that most trouble I have gotten myself (and then others) into has been a result of ignoring these inclinations.

That's a big 10-4 there, good buddy!

 

[Voyageur]

Very cool . This is great Laura for folks to be able to read this wonderful book. It was the first book bought and read and retrospectively it allowed, at least in my mind, for the flow of things in the following books to evolve from the initial context, the beginning.

 

[Laura]

Very cool . This is great Laura for folks to be able to read this wonderful book. It was the first book bought and read and retrospectively it allowed, at least in my mind, for the flow of things in the following books to evolve from the initial context, the beginning.

Yes, now I think about it, people ought to read Grace before anything else because it gives the total context. People just think they can sit down and start channeling and get something useful. They don't understand all the stuff you really need to go through in a search for answers before you have EARNED it. There is no free lunch in the Universe, and if you think there is, you ARE lunch.

 

[EGVG]

Very cool . This is great Laura for folks to be able to read this wonderful book. It was the first book bought and read and retrospectively it allowed, at least in my mind, for the flow of things in the following books to evolve from the initial context, the beginning.

Yes, now I think about it, people ought to read Grace before anything else because it gives the total context. People just think they can sit down and start channeling and get something useful. They don't understand all the stuff you really need to go through in a search for answers before you have EARNED it. There is no free lunch in the Universe, and if you think there is, you ARE lunch.

I've been lunch for long enough, thanks so much for sharing AG with us, It has made me understand the context of your work a lot better!

 

[cholas]

Yes indeed, extremely cool. An incredible [true] story. Once started, I just couldn't put it down(luckily having the day off).

Very much agree that AG could be considered primer for the other series. It sure puts things vividly into context. The idea of 'earning it' sums up well L's life experiences.

Thank you Laura for sharing this.

 

[Laura]

There's about 14 or 15 chapters left to go... I'll try to get them up next week. Then I'll put a photo album together to go with it. And then... well, I'm thinking about continuing the story and kind of running parallel to the Wave and Adventures.

 

[Cosmos]

reading the live story of someone else the suffering,the mistakes, the learned lessons is so much more helpfull to me then to read hypothetical written things in books .
somehow I can identify things in me more clearly that way.

 

[shellycheval]

Thank you Laura for making your story available again--it speaks to me on many levels. Your revelation of your process to get where you are today is inspirational, instructional, and intimidating for me. While I have had my share of trauma, as have most of the rest of us here, I have been blessed with relatively good health for most of my life and I have been alone--with only my self to care for. I greatly admire you and a very few other people I have known, who have the courage and conviction you have shown to do almost impossible tasks to protect your children, and though your great empathy to help others, all which ultimately led to helping yourself as well.

When I look back at the few times in my life where I was brave enough to stand up for myself, it came down to two choices--things continuing on the way they were which was insufferable, or me taking some action that I was completely terrorized to take. It really felt like no choice at all. Too many times in my past I stayed in "freeze" mode and suffered (all is lessons) more from inaction than taking a risk to defend myself.

Amazing Grace is an inspiration. It helps make the craziness in life "real" on an emotional as well as intellectual level, and it is a call to action to the rest of us--if you can learn and change for the better while going through what you did, then those of us who are not in such dire circumstances can find some courage to change too.

Thanks again for your time and the work it takes to produce your story. I love the pictures. They help me "see" you, and I can also relate as I was a child of the same era, and during your trials in the early 70s I was living in Safety Harbor, so I can picture clearly the many places you describe--Tarpon Springs, Ybor city, Clearwater bridge etc.

Out of curiosity I looked for a used copy of the book version and found one available for $500 and some dollars! But, what we are getting here is priceless! :)
shellycheval

 

[Miss.K]

And then... well, I'm thinking about continuing the story and kind of running parallel to the Wave and Adventures.

wow! that would be sooo cool,

for some of us who are not so ...hmm shall we say "found of textbooks" , the emotional connection to the more storytelling form, facilitates learning

 

[Aliana]

Laura, I am so glad you have put the book online with pictures. I was fortunate to have gotten a copy before it went out of print and I remember that I could not put it down – talk about a page turner! It is one of the most inspiring life stories I have ever read.

I think it is so important for us to understand all the things you went through in your journey. Without knowing what you have been through, people could assume that you just arrived here in this incarnation as a fully formed amazing human being – and that those of us with lesser abilities could not ever hope to obtain the life knowledge and understandings you have. Because you have had the courage to share your story, it gives not only hope but inspiration for all of us to work harder.

I am looking forward to reading it again and seeing all the pictures which were not in the book – they make everything so much more real.

Thank you so much for sharing this incredible journey - again!

 

[Ollie]

Laura, I am so glad you have put the book online ... I could not put it down – talk about a page turner! It is one of the most inspiring life stories I have ever read.

I think it is so important for us to understand all the things you went through in your journey. Without knowing what you have been through, people could assume that you just arrived here in this incarnation as a fully formed amazing human being – and that those of us with lesser abilities could not ever hope to obtain the life knowledge and understandings you have. Because you have had the courage to share your story, it gives not only hope but inspiration for all of us to work harder.

Thank you so much for sharing this incredible journey - again!

I'll second that, something useful keeps on turning up for me at the moment. I read Chapter 33 yesterday, and the following, paraphrased, really helped - and a productive evening was had doing this exercise, with a couple of powerful lessons to learn emerging:

'Examine your thinking and attitudes; compare them to the symbols of reality; then isolate and identify the lessons pointing the way towards change.'

'It is not what we think that creates our reality, but what we ignored consciously and what our subconscious mind is observing and attempting to bring to our attention - ie, what observation is my subconscious mind making that my conscious mind is refusing to acknowledge?'

Thank you again, it is so much easier to see how to do things, especially when there is a real life example shown.

 

[istina]

Just want to say thank you so much Laura for making this book available online

Any book that interests me, just gripped me, somehow intake in itself and then seemed that I live through / in it. Until now I believed that I would not be able to read any book written in English as it is read in my native language. Besides, I do not like to read books online, I usually print it out and read comfortably reclining on the bed.
But once I started reading Amazing Grace, the first (maybe) twenty chapters I read almost breathless, almost without any language barriers, as if I just absorbed, assimilated the contents! I used every free moment just to get back at it! Although I may have not understood every word, somehow it was really not necessary. As I watched the movie or even be "in" that movie.
Like many others, the story about the family planet brought me back too to painful memories of the past and made me cry.

Everything is told so simple but powerful and with sincere words, sometimes almost with brutal honesty, of one such an ordinary woman with in so many un-ordinary shamanic experiences, initiated with so much pain and suffering. So well-told story of the original shamanistic journey of a woman who shows that to become/be a shaman, does not mean to go to India or the Amazon jungle. It is quite enough these jungles around us and within us.

And now I understand much better the following:
“Q: ... (BRH) Is there any way I can
contact you guys directly? A: Well, D***, only if you present yourself into the
presence of these 3rd densities here. Remember, their
request was hard earned, and one of them has been
channeling throughout this incarnation, much to his
detriment. Those neighborhood kids usually do not respond
favorably to psychic awareness, now do they? Another one
here has literally turned the world upside down in search
of the greatest truths for all of humanity, much to her
potential peril. And the third one here had to endure
almost unimaginable hardships and tests of stamina in
order to realize his destined path of bringing your 3rd
density realm to the brink of 4th density transitional
adjustment. So, the path is open to you. Wanna follow?!?”

As you said before, this book should really be read before all the recommended (even before the Wave), and especially for those who have aspirations for "channeling".

And once again, thank you Laura for honesty and courage and strength that you have gone through all this pain and suffering, and share all this with the world.

 

[SeekinTruth]

I'm REALLY enjoying reading Amazing Grace for the first time!

I also read the whole St. Petersburg Times article by Tom French last night. For a mainstream newspaper article, it's really good. Readers of mainstream media must have been knocked out by the fascinating story of Laura's life and adventures.

Both the book and the article are VERY touching and have had a huge affect on me. Unfortunately I never had a chance to read Amazing Grace before, but I'm thoroughly enjoying reading it now. Can't wait for the next installment. And I also agree that it should be read before any other work by Laura. Thanks a million again for putting it back online.

Oh, and I can wait for the continuation if and when Laura decides to undertake it!

 

[Laura]

Oh, and I can wait for the continuation if and when Laura decides to undertake it!

I think I should continue it because the reader who has traveled through all that pain and suffering (and I skipped a LOT of details) really deserves to get to the part where it's all made clear and one learns that knowledge really does protect and there IS a light at the end of the tunnel, and Love IS everlasting... and it was all worth it.

Well, it's not over until it's over, but the happiness I have experienced in my life with Ark more than makes up for all that went before, and if it was to end tomorrow, it would still be more than I ever thought I deserved.