As I began to Love Myself (Charlie Chaplin)
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luke wilson
The Living Force
loreta said:
Maybe it is because we spend so much time worrying. It is rare that we spend our time rooted in the Now and such times are far apart and dont last long when they do occur. OSIT.
We worry about the future, the past, what we want, what we dont want, what we dont have etc.
Why is this? Why is it so hard just to live moment by moment without letting worries invade our space? Dangers and risks lie everywhere but does that mean we have to live in constant worry with just a few moments of rest and peace thrown in there?
What would life be without any worry whatsoever about ourself and our position in the world or our immediate surroundings? I think the Cs said if that happened, the person would instantaneously become STO and disappear. In short that frequancy is not inkeeping with our current paradigm which is STS.
Think about it, everything we do in the Now, or alot of things we do in the Now, is somehow rooted to our worry of the future or the past. We rarely do anything in the Now just for the Now. An example, Resting which some might argue is connected to the Now can be done with the view to be ready for a future exertion or due to a past exertion that has led us into needing to rest. The forces that have led you to needing that REST are rarely rooted in the Now eventhough it might seem that way whilst we are resting. Infact it might be reasonable to say we rarely live in the Now, despite how paradoxical that might seem. This inturn might be rooted to why it is hard to love oneself.
luke wilson
The Living Force
In light of this, I propose a hypothesis about everything we have to do to become STO or evolve.
We already live in worry before we come to the Work. It's the mechanical way of life. Ok, we start to take control, we start to work on ourselves in the hope of achieving the impossible. Ok, clue no.1. The impossible - nobody tells you this, but it really is the impossible. It is impossible because we carry countless assumptions that arent really rooted in objective reality. Classic example, our idea of time.
You work, work beyond belief. Days go by, no real change. You accumulate knowledge, days go by, still no discernible change in our being despite being able to maneuver in our reality better and in a more healthy way.
One day comes, when all this work with no discernible change in our state of being, makes you angry and you realise, all this was designed to make you surrender your worry about the future, the past and all that. You dont just realise that, you realise the futility of all that down to your bones(this realisation permeates your whole being to the point of fusion where you become inseparable from it) and in that moment you start living in the NOW and throw the past and the future out the window. To others it might appear like, you gave up, or threw in the towel. But to the universe, you've learnt to love yourself and at that moment you achieve the impossible which in an ironic turn of events, wasnt so impossible after all.
That is my new working hypothesis.
In this sense, as I began to love myself, I got closer and closer to freedom, until one day, I was out the door and into a new world.
We already live in worry before we come to the Work. It's the mechanical way of life. Ok, we start to take control, we start to work on ourselves in the hope of achieving the impossible. Ok, clue no.1. The impossible - nobody tells you this, but it really is the impossible. It is impossible because we carry countless assumptions that arent really rooted in objective reality. Classic example, our idea of time.
You work, work beyond belief. Days go by, no real change. You accumulate knowledge, days go by, still no discernible change in our being despite being able to maneuver in our reality better and in a more healthy way.
One day comes, when all this work with no discernible change in our state of being, makes you angry and you realise, all this was designed to make you surrender your worry about the future, the past and all that. You dont just realise that, you realise the futility of all that down to your bones(this realisation permeates your whole being to the point of fusion where you become inseparable from it) and in that moment you start living in the NOW and throw the past and the future out the window. To others it might appear like, you gave up, or threw in the towel. But to the universe, you've learnt to love yourself and at that moment you achieve the impossible which in an ironic turn of events, wasnt so impossible after all.
That is my new working hypothesis.
In this sense, as I began to love myself, I got closer and closer to freedom, until one day, I was out the door and into a new world.
luke wilson said:
Luke, I think you are right. When I am capable of living the Now, I feel in peace. It is rare. The most part of the day I have an idea of me that it is not so good: I am not a good wife, a good person, a good human being. When I read, I think about humanity, I make mindfulness meditation, I am, point. It is very difficult to be present all the time, in the Now, for me I mean. I have to work this presence. I have a lot of work to do, in fact.
Thanks for your reflexion.
Great, beautiful words indeed! For me, the most fantastic thing is that those thoughts were inspired by her struggle and direct experience inspired by her thoughts - if this makes sense... I mean, it's not that hard to write insightful thoughts, it is living them that makes a whole lot of difference.
Though not so poetic as the beautiful lines, but I thought the cartoon by Nina Paley I came across a few days ago could fit in here. It illustrates one of the many obstacles that make loving yourself so hard...:
"When I loved myself enough I no longer needed things or people to make me feel safe."
Thanks for sharing!
Though not so poetic as the beautiful lines, but I thought the cartoon by Nina Paley I came across a few days ago could fit in here. It illustrates one of the many obstacles that make loving yourself so hard...:
"When I loved myself enough I no longer needed things or people to make me feel safe."
Thanks for sharing!
SolarMother
Dagobah Resident
luke wilson
This is a great thread! Thank you for your insights, Luke! Good reminder...
This is a great thread! Thank you for your insights, Luke! Good reminder...
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Bar Kochba
Guest
I realize that I dont know if I love myself. I know I love my children unconditionally, but I also know I do not feel this way towards myself. I dont hate myself or anything like that. I do my best to take care of my machine. But do I love myself? I honestly dont know. This is troubling!
obyvatel
The Living Force
To love the self, one perhaps needs to know the self. If love is light, then the shining of that light would illuminate the darkness of ignorance and falsehood revealing the self. And this self knowledge is perhaps what distinguishes between writing insightful thoughts and living them as PoB wrote.
From POTS
Cleanse my heart
That I may KNOW and LOVE
The holiness of true Existence.
From POTS
Cleanse my heart
That I may KNOW and LOVE
The holiness of true Existence.
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Bar Kochba
Guest
Right on. What I know of my machine, I dont care for at all. I know that my emotional center is lacking, and I have been a rotton selfish person in the past and I struggling enormously with developing said emotional center. So, as I dont know my true self, I gather that time and more work will tell.
