Before I leave my country Japan...
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I made it! I am in Canada right now.
I slept last night in a pitch black room. (fabric worked hard to make it room like that. I was still struggling to make it my room dark back home.)
This morning we made detox shake. I did the whole set of EE program.
After I had some organic lemon juice and gluten free cookies. I felt so happy again.
Now I have faith in my bright future.
So I have to make a decision what to do next. It has to be quick but carefully.
By careful consideration, I think leaving my job is not a good move.
... now I need my job back.
The reason is that my parents are still hoping for me to keep my job deeply.
Especially for my father, who has helped me and paid my tuition and expenses for everything in my entire life. I got this job and he was so proud of what I did.
I love my father so I cannot quit it just like that. (even though it could be a good reason to resign.)
My mother still makes me confused by giving me a contradicted statement. She told me that everything started stabilizing in Tokyo. She told me to tell foreigners that Japan is safe.
"People don't know about it because they are not inside of Japan. There is no need to panic and make big deals about it as international news say.
So don't worry...."
After all this, I cannot go back where I was.
I definitely made my boss and coworkers angry because I told them for leaving to Canada in a last minute
My boss asked me if I could stay two more days, he could give me a week off from Tuesday. (the reason was that there weren't enough people working on Monday.)
but I refused...It was mechanical decision based on fear. I think back, I shouldn't have reacted that way. I also should have told fabric and everyone about the incident before I left.
I just wanted to leave from danger...but it wasn't a wise move.
But I have no regret coming here.
My boss told me to write him a resignation letter before I leave because what I was doing was as irresponsible as a business worker; there was no way to help me from the situation.
He told me to write it and send it to him, so he can decide if he is going to use it by the end of the month. Well, I clearly told him that I didn't want to leave my job but I also accepted to write it as he suggested at the moment.
Before I was leaving to the airport, I told my father about it. He suggested me not to write a resignation letter. So I still haven’t written one yet.
This morning, I talked to my parents. They said that my boss called to my parents and told them about the whole situation. My father told him like this, "Aya is not leaving the job. I told her not to write the resignation letter to you. She has left the country for only 2 reasons. There was an earthquake threat and nuclear power threat that made her stressed out, so she couldn’t work. How she left the work was the wrong way, but also how you are treating her is power harassment."
my boss went silent...
Anyway, I still have possibility to get my job back.
My company is merging with another company from this April. I have options to decide which company to work for. I signed up for Metropolitan Company in January but there is way to change it to other company if it’s not too late.
The companies are in Hokkaido, Metropolitan(Tokyo), Middle area(Naogya),West Japan(Osaka/Kyoto), Further West & Shikoku Island, and Kyushu.
I want to go back to Tokyo. But if it’s still risky, I should consider working at a different place in inside of Japan. I am going to talk to the office once I decide where to go.
I read back Guardian's post..." there are worse things than dying....MUCH worse. I think surviving while your loved ones perish is one of them."
I felt so sick and panicked because I was thinking so much about the worst. The worst is now I realized is what Guardian said.
I am going to make a list of options and pick the one that is the most beneficial as you suggested.
Nowhere is safe. I am going to keep my mind open.
Some people want to be saved but it's not the time just yet. Maybe they will ask for help in the future.. Going to back to Japan also helps me to feel better, because there are chances of seeing everyone often and I can help them more if I stay there.
Right now, my cousin, uncle and aunt are still staying 50km away from the plant. Also my grandmother and uncle are probably staying even closer 40-50km away from it. They are probably asking for help. There are no trains and roads to get there. They don’t have gas to get out from the place. It’s very dangerous to find them and bring them to a safe place, too.
There is no reason for me to keep staying safe in Canada. What I can do Now is to go back and help my family & friends while I am helping myself...safe.
I am going to order DMSO and some other things to heal from radiation.
Even if the whole thing gets little bit worse this week.....
I think I made up my mind…
I slept last night in a pitch black room. (fabric worked hard to make it room like that. I was still struggling to make it my room dark back home.)
This morning we made detox shake. I did the whole set of EE program.
After I had some organic lemon juice and gluten free cookies. I felt so happy again.
Now I have faith in my bright future.
So I have to make a decision what to do next. It has to be quick but carefully.
By careful consideration, I think leaving my job is not a good move.
... now I need my job back.
The reason is that my parents are still hoping for me to keep my job deeply.
Especially for my father, who has helped me and paid my tuition and expenses for everything in my entire life. I got this job and he was so proud of what I did.
I love my father so I cannot quit it just like that. (even though it could be a good reason to resign.)
My mother still makes me confused by giving me a contradicted statement. She told me that everything started stabilizing in Tokyo. She told me to tell foreigners that Japan is safe.
"People don't know about it because they are not inside of Japan. There is no need to panic and make big deals about it as international news say.
So don't worry...."
After all this, I cannot go back where I was.
I definitely made my boss and coworkers angry because I told them for leaving to Canada in a last minute
My boss asked me if I could stay two more days, he could give me a week off from Tuesday. (the reason was that there weren't enough people working on Monday.)
but I refused...It was mechanical decision based on fear. I think back, I shouldn't have reacted that way. I also should have told fabric and everyone about the incident before I left.
I just wanted to leave from danger...but it wasn't a wise move.
But I have no regret coming here.
My boss told me to write him a resignation letter before I leave because what I was doing was as irresponsible as a business worker; there was no way to help me from the situation.
He told me to write it and send it to him, so he can decide if he is going to use it by the end of the month. Well, I clearly told him that I didn't want to leave my job but I also accepted to write it as he suggested at the moment.
Before I was leaving to the airport, I told my father about it. He suggested me not to write a resignation letter. So I still haven’t written one yet.
This morning, I talked to my parents. They said that my boss called to my parents and told them about the whole situation. My father told him like this, "Aya is not leaving the job. I told her not to write the resignation letter to you. She has left the country for only 2 reasons. There was an earthquake threat and nuclear power threat that made her stressed out, so she couldn’t work. How she left the work was the wrong way, but also how you are treating her is power harassment."
my boss went silent...
Anyway, I still have possibility to get my job back.
My company is merging with another company from this April. I have options to decide which company to work for. I signed up for Metropolitan Company in January but there is way to change it to other company if it’s not too late.
The companies are in Hokkaido, Metropolitan(Tokyo), Middle area(Naogya),West Japan(Osaka/Kyoto), Further West & Shikoku Island, and Kyushu.
I want to go back to Tokyo. But if it’s still risky, I should consider working at a different place in inside of Japan. I am going to talk to the office once I decide where to go.
Guardian said:
I read back Guardian's post..." there are worse things than dying....MUCH worse. I think surviving while your loved ones perish is one of them."
I felt so sick and panicked because I was thinking so much about the worst. The worst is now I realized is what Guardian said.
I am going to make a list of options and pick the one that is the most beneficial as you suggested.
Nowhere is safe. I am going to keep my mind open.
Ailén said:
Some people want to be saved but it's not the time just yet. Maybe they will ask for help in the future.. Going to back to Japan also helps me to feel better, because there are chances of seeing everyone often and I can help them more if I stay there.
Right now, my cousin, uncle and aunt are still staying 50km away from the plant. Also my grandmother and uncle are probably staying even closer 40-50km away from it. They are probably asking for help. There are no trains and roads to get there. They don’t have gas to get out from the place. It’s very dangerous to find them and bring them to a safe place, too.
There is no reason for me to keep staying safe in Canada. What I can do Now is to go back and help my family & friends while I am helping myself...safe.
I am going to order DMSO and some other things to heal from radiation.
Even if the whole thing gets little bit worse this week.....
I think I made up my mind…
Lan8r
Jedi Master
Aya,
I am so glad to hear that you are safe. That you are able to rest and be cared for by Fabric for a while. I know that I don't post much and you may be wondering 'who is this person?', but I just want you to know that I have been reading this thread and my heart has gone out to you these past days. Your choice to leave for Canada shows great Courage, and your desire to return to be of help to your family and loved ones shows great empathy and compassion.
You are now in a place to recover. I can only imagine what you must be going through emotionally after such a devastating tragedy. It is hard for me to even see the news without feeling despair, but I am thousands of miles away and can not Really know, or Truly understand the depth of the trauma, no matter how much I think I can. I can only try to put myself in your place, and try to understand what you are feeling.
It seems that the Universe has guided you to where you are now. And I am sure that the Universe will guide you to wherever you need to be. Take this time to heal yourself, to recover from the emotional shock, then ask the Universe how you could be of most beneift. I have no doubt that you will be guided.
You are a very courageous woman.
You are in my thougths, and my prayers,
Laurie
I am so glad to hear that you are safe. That you are able to rest and be cared for by Fabric for a while. I know that I don't post much and you may be wondering 'who is this person?', but I just want you to know that I have been reading this thread and my heart has gone out to you these past days. Your choice to leave for Canada shows great Courage, and your desire to return to be of help to your family and loved ones shows great empathy and compassion.
You are now in a place to recover. I can only imagine what you must be going through emotionally after such a devastating tragedy. It is hard for me to even see the news without feeling despair, but I am thousands of miles away and can not Really know, or Truly understand the depth of the trauma, no matter how much I think I can. I can only try to put myself in your place, and try to understand what you are feeling.
It seems that the Universe has guided you to where you are now. And I am sure that the Universe will guide you to wherever you need to be. Take this time to heal yourself, to recover from the emotional shock, then ask the Universe how you could be of most beneift. I have no doubt that you will be guided.
You are a very courageous woman.
You are in my thougths, and my prayers,
Laurie
I'm glad you are feeling better! Understandably, you want to return to be with your friends and family and save your job too. Just be very careful in Tokyo and try to minimize your time there. Although it seems like they are getting things slowly under control, I'm sure a LOT more radiation has leaked out than they are claiming (I mean, jeez, just looking at the photos half the plant is demolished and completely exposed to the outside world). So be sure to keep some hard copies of the radiation therapies on hand and stock up on supplements etc, etc...
I think your plan to try to get relocated while still working with your company is a good one. I know you still want to try and remain in Japan, but when speaking with your company, let them know you are also willing to relocate outside of Japan so you have more options.
It's great that your dad stood up for you and I think that when you get back you might want to see a doctor or a therapist and talk to them about your stress and near nervous breakdown the day you left. It will be very hard for them to fire you if you have some backing, and being stressed out because of constant aftershocks and nuclear crisis' is a valid reason. On top of that, they should have offered you the option as soon as that happened and not when it was just convenient for your boss.
I know you want to try and get back as soon as possible, but it might be a good a idea to use your time here as best as possible, and try to have as much planned before returning so that you can have a smooth transition...
Personally, I'd love for you to stay here! lol, but you need to do what you need to do.... so go get'em!
I think your plan to try to get relocated while still working with your company is a good one. I know you still want to try and remain in Japan, but when speaking with your company, let them know you are also willing to relocate outside of Japan so you have more options.
It's great that your dad stood up for you and I think that when you get back you might want to see a doctor or a therapist and talk to them about your stress and near nervous breakdown the day you left. It will be very hard for them to fire you if you have some backing, and being stressed out because of constant aftershocks and nuclear crisis' is a valid reason. On top of that, they should have offered you the option as soon as that happened and not when it was just convenient for your boss.
I know you want to try and get back as soon as possible, but it might be a good a idea to use your time here as best as possible, and try to have as much planned before returning so that you can have a smooth transition...
Personally, I'd love for you to stay here! lol, but you need to do what you need to do.... so go get'em!
The_Seeker
Padawan Learner
There is a youtuber, that I rather fancy. His name is Dutchsinse I believe. If you contact him, he has some data on the actual radiation situation. Not sure if its legit or not, but as I said, I like some of what he is saying. I wish you the best in this horrible situation, and my personal advice is to get out, and get out now.
The_Seeker
The_Seeker
I talked to the office to ask about my job just now.
They said that if I come back by the end of this month, I can get my job back.
But it is not possible to put me somewhere else to work.
Tokyo is still not stable and I don't feel safe going back to work where I was.
And I don't feel comfortable working with the people that I gave my troubles.
I hope they can still relocate me somewhere else in Japan. I am going to fight for it.
I still need certainty that leaving Tokyo is the right thing to do.
If you were in my situation what would you do?
They said that if I come back by the end of this month, I can get my job back.
But it is not possible to put me somewhere else to work.
Tokyo is still not stable and I don't feel safe going back to work where I was.
And I don't feel comfortable working with the people that I gave my troubles.
I hope they can still relocate me somewhere else in Japan. I am going to fight for it.
I still need certainty that leaving Tokyo is the right thing to do.
If you were in my situation what would you do?
Kaigen
The Living Force
Hello Aya, I'm living here in Kyushu, and here people are very friendly.
Since 3 years I fell very safety here, my family from Tokyo arived yesterday.
They are staing during the spring vacations. They are living in Setagaya and
this is 250 km from Fukushima. They don't think to stay here longer, but I
suggested to stay because I heard about radiation in water. I know it is difficult
To talk about radiation without knowledge about it. Here is the radiation table
for better understanding.
Also I don't really know what your work is but in our Company we are always looking for
good English speakers specially now because many foreigner are living Japan.
If the power plant in Saga (about 100 km from my house) were in trouble, I will
probably living to Tokyo.
I wish you the best. Take care!
Since 3 years I fell very safety here, my family from Tokyo arived yesterday.
They are staing during the spring vacations. They are living in Setagaya and
this is 250 km from Fukushima. They don't think to stay here longer, but I
suggested to stay because I heard about radiation in water. I know it is difficult
To talk about radiation without knowledge about it. Here is the radiation table
for better understanding.
Also I don't really know what your work is but in our Company we are always looking for
good English speakers specially now because many foreigner are living Japan.
If the power plant in Saga (about 100 km from my house) were in trouble, I will
probably living to Tokyo.
I wish you the best. Take care!
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