Bladder Cancer

[anart]

The following may help, or not, from a metaphysical perspective. Just in case it is cancer.

Cancer – Deep hurt. Longstanding resentment. Deep secret or grief eating away at the self. Carrying hatreds. “What’s the use?”

Hi Angela, what Trevizent didn't include in his post was Hay's take on bladder issues which is:

Bladder Problems Anxiety. Holding on to old ideas. Fear of letting go. Being
pissed off.

Considering what you wrote here I'm wondering if there might be some link, and some anger (being pissed off). Or, perhaps some other issue since drug abuse almost never happens 'by itself', so your brother may have manifested his 'being pissed off' in one way while you ended up with cancer.

Just some food for thought, since I think that if you can get a glimpse of the possible emotional issues behind your physical issues, you just might find the key to making things better, much as Belibaste has. I'm not saying it will be easy, but it might be worth a try.

 

[Angchop]

Hello Anart, thanks for your post.

Considering what you wrote here I'm wondering if there might be some link, and some anger (being pissed off). Or, perhaps some other issue since drug abuse almost never happens 'by itself', so your brother may have manifested his 'being pissed off' in one way while you ended up with cancer.

This is a good point. My brother began his drug use soon after our father died. He died 9 years after our mother died and we were both still very young, I was 18 he was 15.
I remember being extremely pissed off when this happened, because I didn't think it was fair for my dad to be "taken" from me after my mom was already gone. I somehow felt betrayed by God, or my idea of god at the time. So, my brother's idea of how to deal with it was drugs, and mine was to not look back and forge onward. I closed off a part of myself so I would never be hurt again. It is hard for me to write this now. I am fighting back the tears. Is this how a person deals with these emotions? Talks about them? It has been helping me. Along with the EE.

Monday night after the full EE program, and I got done listening to POTS, the tears began to flow. Everytime I thought that I was done, more would come flying out of me. I had thoughts of my father, my mother, my brother, my ex husband, and a whole host of others. It literally felt like I was throwing up emotions. It was definately cleansing.
I know it isn't going to be easy, but I want to give it all my effort. I want to live. Today I met with the oncologist and politely declined chemotherapy! My surgeon had me go see him before I could get my surgery so that I was well informed of all my choices ahead of time. I don't know why anyone would do it after hearing all the side effects-loss of hearing, hair, tingling in fingers and toes, nausea--hmm sounds like poison to me!

 

[Ollie]

Hello Anart, thanks for your post.

Considering what you wrote here I'm wondering if there might be some link, and some anger (being pissed off). Or, perhaps some other issue since drug abuse almost never happens 'by itself', so your brother may have manifested his 'being pissed off' in one way while you ended up with cancer.

This is a good point. My brother began his drug use soon after our father died. He died 9 years after our mother died and we were both still very young, I was 18 he was 15.
I remember being extremely pissed off when this happened, because I didn't think it was fair for my dad to be "taken" from me after my mom was already gone. I somehow felt betrayed by God, or my idea of god at the time. So, my brother's idea of how to deal with it was drugs, and mine was to not look back and forge onward. I closed off a part of myself so I would never be hurt again. It is hard for me to write this now. I am fighting back the tears. Is this how a person deals with these emotions? Talks about them? It has been helping me. Along with the EE.

Monday night after the full EE program, and I got done listening to POTS, the tears began to flow. Everytime I thought that I was done, more would come flying out of me. I had thoughts of my father, my mother, my brother, my ex husband, and a whole host of others. It literally felt like I was throwing up emotions. It was definately cleansing.
I know it isn't going to be easy, but I want to give it all my effort. I want to live. Today I met with the oncologist and politely declined chemotherapy! My surgeon had me go see him before I could get my surgery so that I was well informed of all my choices ahead of time. I don't know why anyone would do it after hearing all the side effects-loss of hearing, hair, tingling in fingers and toes, nausea--hmm sounds like poison to me!

The words that stood out for me in your post were extremely pissed off. This seems to hit the nail on the head as to where you are residing in your-self now.

From what I've learned, since being on the forum, is that dealing with emotions is to talk about them.

I'm glad that you've decided against the chemotherapy.

 

[anart]

It is hard for me to write this now. I am fighting back the tears. Is this how a person deals with these emotions? Talks about them? It has been helping me. Along with the EE.

As painful as it is to think about and feel, this IS how one deals with emotions and begins to drain that ocean of tears and pain inside, to cleanse the heart.

Monday night after the full EE program, and I got done listening to POTS, the tears began to flow. Everytime I thought that I was done, more would come flying out of me. I had thoughts of my father, my mother, my brother, my ex husband, and a whole host of others. It literally felt like I was throwing up emotions. It was definately cleansing.

This is good, very good. I think you're on to something here! As you allow yourself to feel the anger and pain, you'll also learn to forgive yourself for feeling so angry and that forgiveness of the self is another release.

I know it isn't going to be easy, but I want to give it all my effort. I want to live. Today I met with the oncologist and politely declined chemotherapy! My surgeon had me go see him before I could get my surgery so that I was well informed of all my choices ahead of time. I don't know why anyone would do it after hearing all the side effects-loss of hearing, hair, tingling in fingers and toes, nausea--hmm sounds like poison to me!

Keep getting to the root of things and I think you'll find you make enormous progress - especially when combined with the diet changes and EE for stress. I'm pulling for you.

 

[Nienna]

It is hard for me to write this now. I am fighting back the tears. Is this how a person deals with these emotions? Talks about them? It has been helping me. Along with the EE.

As painful as it is to think about and feel, this IS how one deals with emotions and begins to drain that ocean of tears and pain inside, to cleanse the heart.

Monday night after the full EE program, and I got done listening to POTS, the tears began to flow. Everytime I thought that I was done, more would come flying out of me. I had thoughts of my father, my mother, my brother, my ex husband, and a whole host of others. It literally felt like I was throwing up emotions. It was definately cleansing.

This is good, very good. I think you're on to something here! As you allow yourself to feel the anger and pain, you'll also learn to forgive yourself for feeling so angry and that forgiveness of the self is another release.

I know it isn't going to be easy, but I want to give it all my effort. I want to live. Today I met with the oncologist and politely declined chemotherapy! My surgeon had me go see him before I could get my surgery so that I was well informed of all my choices ahead of time. I don't know why anyone would do it after hearing all the side effects-loss of hearing, hair, tingling in fingers and toes, nausea--hmm sounds like poison to me!

Keep getting to the root of things and I think you'll find you make enormous progress - especially when combined with the diet changes and EE for stress. I'm pulling for you.

Angela, what anart has written above is so important. Especially the bolded part. And as you continue with the EE, these emotions may come to the surface at any time. When they do, feel them, look at them and then let them go. You will feel so much lighter after each emotional release, as you have already experienced.

I would also like to suggest that you read Deep Therapy in the Fast Lane. This little online book was written by Restin Wells and tells about her experiences with handling her buried anger. It is a remarkable little book. It may help you in your releasing of repressed emotions, especially the anger that has built up for years and years.

You seem to be well on the way to healing. Onwards and Upwards!

 

[Angchop]

I'm pulling for you

Thank you Anart, this means alot.

I would also like to suggest that you read Deep Therapy in the Fast Lane. This little online book was written by Restin Wells and tells about her experiences with handling her buried anger. It is a remarkable little book. It may help you in your releasing of repressed emotions, especially the anger that has built up for years and years

Thank you for this suggestion. I started reading it today at work (hee hee) and I am already up to chapter four. It is a great read so far!

From what I've learned, since being on the forum, is that dealing with emotions is to talk about them.

This is what I am finding out. It has already helped me immensely. I now have a journal that I am going to write in daily, and a list of books I am reading. So, I will keep everyone posted here on my progress. I am so happy this forum is here.
Thank You

Angela

 

[Angchop]

Alana I just wanted to thank you for recommending the book by Dr. Bernie Siegel. I am 3/4 of the way through it and it is a great read! It has helped change my attitude around about what I am going through. I have also ordered another one of his books so I look forward to reading it also. Thanks again :)

Oxajil-I just received the Narcissistic Family in the mail and I am looking forward to reading it. I have a journal that I have been taking notes in when I am reading, and I also have a journal that I write in daily concerning my thoughts.

Have a great day everyone,

Angela

 

[Alana]

Alana I just wanted to thank you for recommending the book by Dr. Bernie Siegel. I am 3/4 of the way through it and it is a great read! It has helped change my attitude around about what I am going through. I have also ordered another one of his books so I look forward to reading it also. Thanks again :)

After reading everything you shared with us Angela, and having read that book myself, i think i qualify to say that you fit the profile of the exceptional patient yourself ;) As anart says, it might not be easy feeling all those emotions, but you already are on it. It must be what Ocean meant when he sang, "When the going gets tough, the tough get going" ;)

And we are here with you.

 

[Angchop]

Just wanted to post a quick update....it's been a year and one month since my bladder cancer surgery, and today I had my one year check up. My blood work and my chest xray came back perfect. No sign of cancer.....yippee!!! I definitely owe my good health to all the wisdom I have learned on this forum. The paleo diet is doing me wonders, I feel amazing and grateful to still be here. Thanks to everyone here for your support and knowlege.

 

[anart]

Fantastic news!

 

[SolarMother]

Angela, congratulations!
I am late to this thread, and I am glad you posted this update so that I could notice the thread and your story and all the excellent advice and care you were given.
I am very happy for you and I feel like I have travelled with you, learned and shared with you through your ordeal.
Through you, I am more grateful to be alive.

 

[Oxajil]

Very good to hear!

 

[aragorn]

I'm very happy for you, great news! :)

 

[eleusis]

Absolutely wonderful! :) Much continued good health Angela.

 

[SeekinTruth]

That's really great news to hear, Angela! Thanks for the update. :)