I don’t get the deja vu feeling very often anymore, although I used to get it quite often.
Whenever I do get the sensation or the experience now, I too remember the “glitch in the matrix” concept, and find it a bit unsettling.
However, I try to remember the story Laura tells about nearly being abducted by insectoid creatures. When she asked the C’s about it, they essentially said that those creatures were a version of Laura.
Maybe someone can find the passages I refer to… I will see if I can dig them up when I have more time to devote.
The point I’m aiming at is this: it will only inspire fear and paranoia if we assume that deja vu is “them” changing the timeline to suit their needs. Yes, we know it is going on constantly, but it’s a bit of a stretch to assume “they” are launching a personal attack as often as we have unsettling experiences.
Maybe it is a more productive approach to ask, “What am I doing to meddle with my own timeline right now?”
I see I misremembered. The specific questions posed to the C’s were in the transcript from Dec 9, 1994, and initially it was someone else’s insect experience under examination.
December 9, 1994
Frank and Laura
Q: (L) Hello.
A: Hello.
Q: (L) And who do we have with us this evening?
A: {Name lost}
Q: (L) And where are you from?
A: Cassiopaea.
Q: (L) Now, tell me the name of the beings D__ M__ experienced as preying Mantises in her hypnosis session?
A: Her essence.
Q: (L) But, in that reality don't they have a name?
A: Too complex to answer adequately in this medium.
Q: (L) Well, you said that the beings that V__ encountered were Minturians, aren't they the same?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is there a difference between essence beings and incarnate beings?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So we have a distinct difference. Okay, who were the ant/fly beings she described?
A: Her essence too.
Q: (L) And what were those snakey, slug-like beings that she saw?
A: Same.
Q: (L) Are you saying that all of this stuff is who she is? All of these horrible creatures and these..
A: In some of the alternate realities.
Q: (L) Do I have creatures like that that are my essence?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) My essence is something that horrible and dark and icky?
A: Subjective.
Q: (L) Well, weren't those horrible icky beings eating little children? Weren't those real human children?
A: How do you think you are viewed by deer, for example?
Q: (L) Well, I can immediately see that. I saw that already. I mean, cows and chickens would have to view us that way. I mean, it's pretty gross.
A: Roaches, too.
Q: (L) Is that why the night before D__'s session, I dreamed of ants that I could have stepped on and smashed, and for some reason I decided I did not want to take the life of even a single ant?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was that dream preparing me for what I was going to experience in that session?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, what do we do about these essence parts of ourselves? I mean, I don't like it that there may be something of the predator in me. I would like to not have it, or get rid or it, or transform it, or whatever.
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) Well, am I going to have to remember myself doing things like that in order to come to terms with it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is that going to happen to me, that I am going to have memories like that surfacing?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, I can't even cope with it in someone else, how am I going to deal with it in myself?
A: You will.
Q: (L) Is this something we are all going to have to do?
A: All eligible.