We may now move on to some further cases that will provide ample evidence of certain features of the core experience that have so far only been alluded to in passing or have been neglected altogether.
We begin these new cases with the account of a sixty-four-year-old man whom I'll call Harold. Since Harold is retired and has a mobile home, he travels quite a bit and once when he was in the Northeast, he was kind enough to drive to the university so that I could interview him. I'll quote, however, from a written version of his NDE that he later sent to me.
In April, 1977, while raking leaves in front of the his house, Harold suffered a heart attack. He describes the unfolding of his core experience as follows:
A brilliant white-yellow warm pillar of light confronted me. I was now in a light golden cellular embodiment and the greatest feeling of warmth and love and tenderness became part of me. My consciousness or soul was at the foot or base. When I tried to look up (not exactly so, but the closest words I can use) I saw the sweet smile and love of my father at the time when I was a young child and he held me and loved me. I felt this love permeating my being. (I had never any conscious remembrance of this nor thought of my father for years.)
Instantly my entire life was laid bare and open to this wonderful presence, "GOD." I felt inside my being his forgiveness for the things in my life I was ashamed of, as though they were not of great importance. I was asked - but there were no words; it was a straight mental instantaneous communication - "What had I done to benefit or advance the human race?" At the same time all my life was presented instantly in front of me and I was shown or made to understand what counted. I am not going into any further but, believe me, what I had counted in life as unimportant was my salvation and what I thought was important was nil.
We see here many of the now familiar elements of the core experience - the light, the love, the sense of total acceptance and forgiveness, and so on - but the life-review phenomenon is of especial interest to us here. In this case, that review was presented in the context of the question, in effect, "What have you done with your life?" And as Harold himself observes, what he thought mattered, didn't, and what he held to be important turned out to be insignificant. We will see in some of the cases to follow that Harold's experience in this respect was not unique.
Next I present the case of another good friend, whom I'll call Hank. Another researcher, John Audette, who had first interviewed Hank, introduced me to him. Hank and I first met in August 1979 at the American Psychological Association convention in New York. Norma was with me on that trip and we both took an instant shine to Hank. Since that time we've visited one another's home on several occasions (Hank lives in Virginia) and have had many conversations centering on his NDE and the aftereffects. On one occasion I met Hank late one evening at a Baltimore hotel prior to a television engagement we both had the next day, and I taped his experience in full. The following excerpt is taken from that conversation.
In November 1975, when he was just nineteen years old, Hank was badly injured in an automobile accident. He suffered numerous physical injuries and it was thought for some time that he would not survive them.
In the first part of his NDE, he found himself in something like a "very large room" in which he became aware of other "beings." At one point,
...from the forward left-hand corner of the room, another being entered. This being was of an even brighter aura - glow - than we were. His glow was almost like reaching out, so to speak; it just came out and engulfed you. It filled every corner of the room... Even though the brightness was intense you could still make out something of the features, that kind of thing. The brightness did not hurt your eyes... It had a kind of golden-type white - mostly white, I would say - and I could make out a form of him... The feeling was so intense, it was almost as if I could have been completely engulfed by it, and the light also provided a warmth and love. I had the warmth and love toward this person so intense, total trust, not like a love I've had for anything or anybody. It is so hard to describe 'cause it's hard to realize a total surrendering-type love, a total love that kind of immerses you. The kind that no matter what he would have told me, I'd have done...
This part of the core experience we now know well, but it is what Hank reported afterward that makes his words of special value here. Hank's conversation rambles a bit in what follows, but his meaning is clear and instructive.
... He [then] asked me, "Do you know where you are?" ... I said, "Yes." ... And he said, "What is your decision?" When he said that ... it was like I knew everything that was stored in my brain. Everything I'd ever known from the beginning of my life I immediately knew about. And also what was kind of scary was that I knew everybody else in the room knew I knew and that there was no hiding anything - the good times, the bad times, everything... I had a total complete knowledge of everything that had ever happened in my life - even little minute things that I had forgotten ... just everything, which gave me a better understanding of everything at the moment. Everything was so clear.
... I realized that there are things that every person is sent to earth to realize and to learn. For instance, to share more love, to be more loving toward one another. To discover that the most important thing is human relationships and love and not materialistic things. And to realize that every single thing that you do in your life is recorded and that even though you pass it by not thinking at the time, it always comes up later. For instance, you may be ... at a stoplight and you're in a hurry and the lady in front of you, when the light turns green, doesn't take off, [she] doesn't notice the light, and you get upset and start honking your horn and telling them to hurry up. Those are the little kind of things that are recorded that you don't realize at the time are really important. One of the things that I discovered that is very important is patience toward other human beings and realizing that you yourself may be in that situation sometime.
If you return to another early account - that of the sixty-four-year-old woman from Seattle on pages 55-56 - you're again find a brief allusion in the beginning of her narrative to the process that Hank describes in detail. Recall that she said simply,
"I was aware ... of my past life. It was like it was being recorded..." And certainly what Hank experienced not only provides more information on that aspect of the core NDE but obviously jibes quite closely with Harold's statement that we've just considered.