Infiniteness said:
After thinking for a while, I’ve decided not to take the opportunity, I tried looking at the situation in every angle I could. The first main reason why I decided this was not for me, was that this whole situation felt like an attack. The second reason was that it was just my mechanical mechanisms at work, for the most part. Then third being that it would take a lot of my energy and time away from working on myself. After making this decision it feels like Ive lost a big opportunity or chance in my life, I believe that this is also my predator at work again. Time was also something that I considered while making this decision, time is running out fast and I need to give it my all, in order to make the most progress I can with helping myself and others. So now I need to get refocused on the destination that I intend to reach, home. Thanks for reading.
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That bolded part of your post, Infiniteness, is what I am agreeing with.
Whenever you have a thought similar to that, such as, I'm really missing out on ______________, or, gee, I wish I could be like every one else and _______________, as yourself just what it is you are missing/wishing for. To be like the rest of the sleeping masses? For this is what you predator/programs are trying to drag you back to, going to sleep.
This is just how it looks to me, especially when I hear the old predator saying, "Gee, I could be doing ____________ like "they" are and enjoying myself."

I can't think of anything more exciting than learning about myself, helping those who are truly asking and learning about what is really going on on this BBM. To me, this is quite the adventure!
And being alone is just a concept of the predator. We are not, in actuality alone. For one thing, we have this forum, and I think by participating on this forum, we are connecting in ways that we haven't discovered yet. This collinearity is something that is becoming far more intimate than anything that I could have with someone not in this group. The chemicals and hormones that make us "want" to be with someone that is not going in the same direction we are, to me, are very dangerous to what we are trying to accomplish with ourselves. But that's just me. Also, any hour of the day/night, there will be someone here. Not tangible and face to face, I know, but I don't think it is necessary at this stage of the game. What we are trying to do at this point in time is to clean our machine from these negative thought loops and programs that are keeping us prisoner here. That takes time to do and if we are distracted by someone who wants all of our attention and time, when will we be able to do this?
This is just my take on it at this time. :)