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Jedi
I am being attacked, and it is really very serious. I am being harassed externally and being attacked internally, I believe that perhaps some 4D technology is being applied to me. When I first came here I was making rapid progress, and came to the point when I could feel some kind of a higher connection, I was full of energy, my mind was clear and felt very blissful for about a month. Also at that time I received 1 Reiki initiation.
Then the external harassment started. I will write about external first, and internal secondly, but they go hand by hand, the internal started later, when the managed to scare me, I suppose, and by doing this got access to me. So one day I was disconnected from all Cass websites, including this forum. In order to enter here, I needed to use proxy connection VPN. I found out that the my internet operator firm was a part of an American company. At that time I had no job and no money, I could not change the operator because I would need to pay a lot for breaking an agreement, so I needed to use proxy. After some time I changed the operator, and since then I have an access to these pages. But my internet stopped working properly many times a day, sometimes it stopped altogether. I kept calling technical help, they did not see any problem, but even changed my modem, and it did not help. I did not want wi-fi connection and I have only cable connection for two computer, mine and my son’s. And one time, when I was talking to technician, he told me he can see 3 objects connected, while I have only 2 computers. He could not explain it. After that, whenever I talked to any technician, I asked how many objects they could see and it was always 3. One day, when my cable was disconnected I noticed, in ‘internet connections” section on my PC, that there was additional connection installed and it was working, it was showing passing of the data, it was showing I am connected to internet while my cable was disconnected. I removed this connection from my PC and since then I can use my internet.
Another example: I received few phone calls from private (means unknown, you do not see the number calling) caller. When I answered I could hear some kind of metallic sounds. I decided to not answer this kind of phones. Soon after I was taking to a friend and sharing some information I got here ( I know few people I share my knowledge with, they ask for it). While I was telling her something important my mobile phoned, as if just in the right moment, I even thought it was THEM, it sounded ominous, but I checked and it was my friend, so I answered the phone. And again I could hear theses metallic sounds. Then it called second time (from the same friend) and the same happened. Later I asked the friend if she called me, she said: no. So next time when I was talking to the same friend I turned my phone off. It was about 11 o’clock at night and this time she received a phone call. She was surprised, because it was from a guy, who once repaired her computer, she did not really know him. She answered the phone and said hallo few times and disconnected. We did not talk about it, I did not want to scare her, but she must have sensed something because she immediately called her daughter and asked her if she had closed the doors and windows. These are just a few examples, there is much more.
I was scared at the beginning, now I got used to it and I am not scared any longer, maybe just a bit. Much worse part is the internal. As I said at the beginning I got really scared, because I considered myself to be nothing much, just a beginner here, just reading and working on myself, and then it appeared to me that somebody knows about me and does not like what I do and tries to scare me off. And the at the 18 of January (so it’s been a long time) the first attack came. I woke up and my whole body was a kind of vibrating. I could feel something moving in one place below my jaw, it is not possible to explain the feeling, there were as if strong currents flowing through my body, extremely unpleasant sensation. I was totally shocked and scared. And to make it short, it continues like this till now, sometimes it becomes milder, sometimes it is very strong. I did not know what was happening, I went to my friend who is a Reiki Master for Reiki healing session and I also asked her to give me a second initiation. At that time I thought it was a demon or something and I asked her if she could help me to get rid of it. She gave me Reiki and told me I have a very harmonious energy, no blocks at all, that she had never met such a person before. And she could not feel any attachment. As I persisted, that there is something in me, she told me she could only give me initiation after I find an exorcist, who would free me of it first. I went then to another Reiki Masters for 2 Reiki sessions (the ones that gave me 1-st initiation, they are a couple and work together), hoping that this something would go away after such a treatment, but they also told me I have a very clean and harmonious energy, and they did not sense anything (I did not tell them about supposed demon).
So I started looking for help, for somebody (exorcist) to clean me. I also tried very hard to do it myself, to get rid of it, it did not work. I guess in the meantime I really got some attachments. I paid money 3 times, they said they found something and relived it, but nothing changed. And what is going on is that all the time, once it started, I can feel as if something is moving in my face, most strongly on two sides of my nose and also in other places in my head, like under the right ear. And the wicked vibrations keep flowing in my body.
I did not surrender, I knew that if I surrender, I am finished. I kept fighting with it. I tried to do the whole EE program every day (sometimes I did not manage). I kept working on my programs very hard, believing that if I manage to get rid of them and stay calm, the device would stop working (as I suspected it could be a device, just was not sure). I made a big progress. I used to be very shy and scared of people, and I am not any more. I got a good job, which requires me to contact many people and deal with them, and I am doing well, for the first time in my life I have money. But I had to do all this with these wicked energy stirring within me, and with time my energy was going down, often I could not force myself to get out of bed and get to work. Finally my brain/mind refused to work, I could not remember things, calling the same person 3 times. Again I went to an exorcist (very recommended) who told me I had one evil entity and a strong course was on me, he said he is surprised I was working so hard, it should have knocked me down, I do not know if it is true or not. He said he freed me of these and I could really feel a big relieve and rise of energy, but the original sensation did not disappear. I went to the Reiki friend again, told her I was freed of attachments and asked her for few healing sessions and Reiki initiation again. She agreed. She gave Reiki and she was soo surprised. She was totally exhausted after it. She said she had given me enormous amount of energy, that I had a huge holes (breaches) in my head, especially under my eyes. She was sorry she did not give me an initiation when I came the first time, and she agreed to give it to me this time, after few healing sessions. After first session I felt beautiful, soo much better, it was such a relief, even though the evil vibrations persisted inside me, they were much weaker, and I was much stronger.
Two day later she was supposed to give me Reiki at the distance. Then she called me and said that the Reiki energy started flowing and after few minutes it stopped, she did not understand, what happened. So we agreed another personal meeting, but the day before it, she called me and said she had to cancel it, since she became very ill, had high temperature. So we agreed I would come for Reiki initiation on Sunday, without healing sessions first. I was supposed to get it in 2 parts. I went for the first meeting and received the first part of the initiation (she gave me two symbols), again I felt enormous difference in my energy and started to get hope of getting rid of the problem. And again she felt exhausted afterwards and I felt ashamed of myself and sorry for giving her so much trouble. I paid her money and we agreed to meet again after a week for the second part.
Few days later she called me, she said she will not give me the second part of the initiation, that she and her family was attacked, that she is afraid she will end up in the asylum, that if was to her only, she would face anything, but not to her family. She did not want to tell me, what exactly happened, but she said she wants to give me my money back and fast. I agreed and went to her place to get the money and I wanted to talk to her, but she did not want me in her place, she waited for me in the street. We only talked a little bit, she did not want me to explain anything (and if she wanted to, I would not know what to tell her). I asked her if attacks go on and she said they stopped because she promised she would not give Reiki to anybody anymore, and that she does not want to talk about it, that she is in such a pain and fear. I can’t even start explaining how I feel about it now. How would I ever expect anything like this happen?
All this happened about 3 weeks ago. I need to add, that I know one man who is interested in the knowledge of this forum, we used to meet regularly in the beginning (when I felt wonderful) and talked about it, then we separated and now we started to meet regularly again. It is a very complicated relationship, it would take another post to explain this, enough to say I have reasons to believe he is somebody like my partner to work with. And the obstacles for us to come together were big, both external (like stopping the phone connection every 3 seconds) and mental (mostly on his part). He has a connection with a strong energy source and I know how it sounds. He used to use this connection in the STS mode, being a healer with an enormous ego (he just worked as an STS agent to lead people astray, although he believed he was helping them and leading to God).
He now dropped it all and came back to work with me. He became my personal network. Before I did not want him to use his energy on me (well, I did in the beginning, but then I decided not to), because I could see him heavily asleep so I expected his energy was coming from the STS source. Now after 2 years of us talking (with a break), it looks like his attitude changed and he is sincerely ready and willing to work, according to what I see. I know it is not an argument, but I always felt him as somebody to work with. Besides, my condition was so bad, I felt I had nothing to lose, so I asked him to help me. He can feel energies in somebody’s body, connects with his source of energy and it flows simultaneously through both of us. He calls it current. So we met and he let the current flow through me, it helped me a lot, he said the current unclogged me and my energy started to flow again. For sure it stabilized me, I slept calmly through the night and woke up much better. And at night the day we met, he also was attacked at his place. He did not tell me exactly what happened, but he told me about something/somebody trying to materialize in front of him.
Now I remember the first time I met him after the break, was soon after the first part of the initiation, because when I met him next time, he told me about the attack, and I told him about an attack on my Reiki friend. Then we met again and I felt much better again. I cannot be sure what source he is connected to, but it helps me a lot, so that is my choice. I must add, that the strange vibrations never stops, when I say I feel better it means I feel energized and calm, but the sensation (movement in my face and vibrations in my body) always lasts with different intensity. We made a team, I share my knowledge and understanding with him (whatever I possess) and he helps me with my energies. So after we met twice, I felt quite well as for myself, and was regaining strength and gaining hope. One day (actually it was 2 days ago) I felt quite normal and was happy with it, and I was going by tram to my friend, whom I give English lessons. All of the sudden I felt sick, like I wanted to vomit, and felt very bad inside. Still I went to this friend, everything was going bad, coffee machine went broken, internet did not work properly, my friend became so sleepy, she could not keep her head straight. After this I was supposed meet this friend I work with, when I got there I was half dead, my mind did not work again, I did not really remember what I was supposed to tell him. This time unclogging me took him very long time, it was much harder then previous 2 times. He said I was hit very strongly, my energy was like moved, relocated, I do not know if it is true. Eventually my energy started flowing again. It was yesterday.
Today I got up feeling as if a train run over me. I felt I cannot cope anymore. For many hours I was unable to do anything at all. I do not know why I wrote it here, because what can you do about it, but when I sat down to give myself Reiki, I felt a strong urge to write this post. And I even feel much better now. I always wanted to share my problems with you, but before the attack on the Reiki friend, I thought I had nothing convincing to tell you so that you could believe me that it is not just demons and me imagining things, I was afraid you would just ask me, what my diet is. :D
Still where else could I share it if not here and I am glad I did it, maybe you can find some advice or explanation for me. I am sorry it is such a long post.
Then the external harassment started. I will write about external first, and internal secondly, but they go hand by hand, the internal started later, when the managed to scare me, I suppose, and by doing this got access to me. So one day I was disconnected from all Cass websites, including this forum. In order to enter here, I needed to use proxy connection VPN. I found out that the my internet operator firm was a part of an American company. At that time I had no job and no money, I could not change the operator because I would need to pay a lot for breaking an agreement, so I needed to use proxy. After some time I changed the operator, and since then I have an access to these pages. But my internet stopped working properly many times a day, sometimes it stopped altogether. I kept calling technical help, they did not see any problem, but even changed my modem, and it did not help. I did not want wi-fi connection and I have only cable connection for two computer, mine and my son’s. And one time, when I was talking to technician, he told me he can see 3 objects connected, while I have only 2 computers. He could not explain it. After that, whenever I talked to any technician, I asked how many objects they could see and it was always 3. One day, when my cable was disconnected I noticed, in ‘internet connections” section on my PC, that there was additional connection installed and it was working, it was showing passing of the data, it was showing I am connected to internet while my cable was disconnected. I removed this connection from my PC and since then I can use my internet.
Another example: I received few phone calls from private (means unknown, you do not see the number calling) caller. When I answered I could hear some kind of metallic sounds. I decided to not answer this kind of phones. Soon after I was taking to a friend and sharing some information I got here ( I know few people I share my knowledge with, they ask for it). While I was telling her something important my mobile phoned, as if just in the right moment, I even thought it was THEM, it sounded ominous, but I checked and it was my friend, so I answered the phone. And again I could hear theses metallic sounds. Then it called second time (from the same friend) and the same happened. Later I asked the friend if she called me, she said: no. So next time when I was talking to the same friend I turned my phone off. It was about 11 o’clock at night and this time she received a phone call. She was surprised, because it was from a guy, who once repaired her computer, she did not really know him. She answered the phone and said hallo few times and disconnected. We did not talk about it, I did not want to scare her, but she must have sensed something because she immediately called her daughter and asked her if she had closed the doors and windows. These are just a few examples, there is much more.
I was scared at the beginning, now I got used to it and I am not scared any longer, maybe just a bit. Much worse part is the internal. As I said at the beginning I got really scared, because I considered myself to be nothing much, just a beginner here, just reading and working on myself, and then it appeared to me that somebody knows about me and does not like what I do and tries to scare me off. And the at the 18 of January (so it’s been a long time) the first attack came. I woke up and my whole body was a kind of vibrating. I could feel something moving in one place below my jaw, it is not possible to explain the feeling, there were as if strong currents flowing through my body, extremely unpleasant sensation. I was totally shocked and scared. And to make it short, it continues like this till now, sometimes it becomes milder, sometimes it is very strong. I did not know what was happening, I went to my friend who is a Reiki Master for Reiki healing session and I also asked her to give me a second initiation. At that time I thought it was a demon or something and I asked her if she could help me to get rid of it. She gave me Reiki and told me I have a very harmonious energy, no blocks at all, that she had never met such a person before. And she could not feel any attachment. As I persisted, that there is something in me, she told me she could only give me initiation after I find an exorcist, who would free me of it first. I went then to another Reiki Masters for 2 Reiki sessions (the ones that gave me 1-st initiation, they are a couple and work together), hoping that this something would go away after such a treatment, but they also told me I have a very clean and harmonious energy, and they did not sense anything (I did not tell them about supposed demon).
So I started looking for help, for somebody (exorcist) to clean me. I also tried very hard to do it myself, to get rid of it, it did not work. I guess in the meantime I really got some attachments. I paid money 3 times, they said they found something and relived it, but nothing changed. And what is going on is that all the time, once it started, I can feel as if something is moving in my face, most strongly on two sides of my nose and also in other places in my head, like under the right ear. And the wicked vibrations keep flowing in my body.
I did not surrender, I knew that if I surrender, I am finished. I kept fighting with it. I tried to do the whole EE program every day (sometimes I did not manage). I kept working on my programs very hard, believing that if I manage to get rid of them and stay calm, the device would stop working (as I suspected it could be a device, just was not sure). I made a big progress. I used to be very shy and scared of people, and I am not any more. I got a good job, which requires me to contact many people and deal with them, and I am doing well, for the first time in my life I have money. But I had to do all this with these wicked energy stirring within me, and with time my energy was going down, often I could not force myself to get out of bed and get to work. Finally my brain/mind refused to work, I could not remember things, calling the same person 3 times. Again I went to an exorcist (very recommended) who told me I had one evil entity and a strong course was on me, he said he is surprised I was working so hard, it should have knocked me down, I do not know if it is true or not. He said he freed me of these and I could really feel a big relieve and rise of energy, but the original sensation did not disappear. I went to the Reiki friend again, told her I was freed of attachments and asked her for few healing sessions and Reiki initiation again. She agreed. She gave Reiki and she was soo surprised. She was totally exhausted after it. She said she had given me enormous amount of energy, that I had a huge holes (breaches) in my head, especially under my eyes. She was sorry she did not give me an initiation when I came the first time, and she agreed to give it to me this time, after few healing sessions. After first session I felt beautiful, soo much better, it was such a relief, even though the evil vibrations persisted inside me, they were much weaker, and I was much stronger.
Two day later she was supposed to give me Reiki at the distance. Then she called me and said that the Reiki energy started flowing and after few minutes it stopped, she did not understand, what happened. So we agreed another personal meeting, but the day before it, she called me and said she had to cancel it, since she became very ill, had high temperature. So we agreed I would come for Reiki initiation on Sunday, without healing sessions first. I was supposed to get it in 2 parts. I went for the first meeting and received the first part of the initiation (she gave me two symbols), again I felt enormous difference in my energy and started to get hope of getting rid of the problem. And again she felt exhausted afterwards and I felt ashamed of myself and sorry for giving her so much trouble. I paid her money and we agreed to meet again after a week for the second part.
Few days later she called me, she said she will not give me the second part of the initiation, that she and her family was attacked, that she is afraid she will end up in the asylum, that if was to her only, she would face anything, but not to her family. She did not want to tell me, what exactly happened, but she said she wants to give me my money back and fast. I agreed and went to her place to get the money and I wanted to talk to her, but she did not want me in her place, she waited for me in the street. We only talked a little bit, she did not want me to explain anything (and if she wanted to, I would not know what to tell her). I asked her if attacks go on and she said they stopped because she promised she would not give Reiki to anybody anymore, and that she does not want to talk about it, that she is in such a pain and fear. I can’t even start explaining how I feel about it now. How would I ever expect anything like this happen?
All this happened about 3 weeks ago. I need to add, that I know one man who is interested in the knowledge of this forum, we used to meet regularly in the beginning (when I felt wonderful) and talked about it, then we separated and now we started to meet regularly again. It is a very complicated relationship, it would take another post to explain this, enough to say I have reasons to believe he is somebody like my partner to work with. And the obstacles for us to come together were big, both external (like stopping the phone connection every 3 seconds) and mental (mostly on his part). He has a connection with a strong energy source and I know how it sounds. He used to use this connection in the STS mode, being a healer with an enormous ego (he just worked as an STS agent to lead people astray, although he believed he was helping them and leading to God).
He now dropped it all and came back to work with me. He became my personal network. Before I did not want him to use his energy on me (well, I did in the beginning, but then I decided not to), because I could see him heavily asleep so I expected his energy was coming from the STS source. Now after 2 years of us talking (with a break), it looks like his attitude changed and he is sincerely ready and willing to work, according to what I see. I know it is not an argument, but I always felt him as somebody to work with. Besides, my condition was so bad, I felt I had nothing to lose, so I asked him to help me. He can feel energies in somebody’s body, connects with his source of energy and it flows simultaneously through both of us. He calls it current. So we met and he let the current flow through me, it helped me a lot, he said the current unclogged me and my energy started to flow again. For sure it stabilized me, I slept calmly through the night and woke up much better. And at night the day we met, he also was attacked at his place. He did not tell me exactly what happened, but he told me about something/somebody trying to materialize in front of him.
Now I remember the first time I met him after the break, was soon after the first part of the initiation, because when I met him next time, he told me about the attack, and I told him about an attack on my Reiki friend. Then we met again and I felt much better again. I cannot be sure what source he is connected to, but it helps me a lot, so that is my choice. I must add, that the strange vibrations never stops, when I say I feel better it means I feel energized and calm, but the sensation (movement in my face and vibrations in my body) always lasts with different intensity. We made a team, I share my knowledge and understanding with him (whatever I possess) and he helps me with my energies. So after we met twice, I felt quite well as for myself, and was regaining strength and gaining hope. One day (actually it was 2 days ago) I felt quite normal and was happy with it, and I was going by tram to my friend, whom I give English lessons. All of the sudden I felt sick, like I wanted to vomit, and felt very bad inside. Still I went to this friend, everything was going bad, coffee machine went broken, internet did not work properly, my friend became so sleepy, she could not keep her head straight. After this I was supposed meet this friend I work with, when I got there I was half dead, my mind did not work again, I did not really remember what I was supposed to tell him. This time unclogging me took him very long time, it was much harder then previous 2 times. He said I was hit very strongly, my energy was like moved, relocated, I do not know if it is true. Eventually my energy started flowing again. It was yesterday.
Today I got up feeling as if a train run over me. I felt I cannot cope anymore. For many hours I was unable to do anything at all. I do not know why I wrote it here, because what can you do about it, but when I sat down to give myself Reiki, I felt a strong urge to write this post. And I even feel much better now. I always wanted to share my problems with you, but before the attack on the Reiki friend, I thought I had nothing convincing to tell you so that you could believe me that it is not just demons and me imagining things, I was afraid you would just ask me, what my diet is. :D
Still where else could I share it if not here and I am glad I did it, maybe you can find some advice or explanation for me. I am sorry it is such a long post.
As Edith Fiore writes in "The Unquiet Dead", exhaustion is something that brings one's spiritual defenses down. Therefore, if she is right, it is probably best to give yourself plenty of time to recover, and with self-compassion of course! After all, you've essentially just come down with a pretty bad case of the spiritual flu. Take your daily dose of knowledge, get plenty of rest, and keep an eye on the bigger picture of your life and the world. As my stepdad told me once "stop spinning your wheels and rest". 
