I had my first session with a Peter Levine therapist today (Somatic Experiencing). It was really interesting.
First, we discussed my childhood a little. I explained to her that I didn't remember the first years of my life, but that I had dreams, although I wasn't sure whether the information was correct. The therapist explained that it doesn't matter whether the information is precise, what matters are the feelings and sensations that accompany the information and how you deal with them.
I told her that I had had a terrible dream one night and that I had woken up with my body aching all over. That's when I found out that I must do this on a regular basis. I sometimes wake up just in time before I start gritting my teeth. And at times (but not always) my whole body aches during the day. The last time was a few weeks ago, the night after our Cat had died and when my body went into lock-down, that is how it felt. She called it the harness of the body, which is the worst stage, if I recall it correctly.
Then we did all kinds of exercises together. We started loosening the feet, ankles, then the knees and hips. Then the wrists, elbows and shoulders, the jaws, the head and the neck. Every time she would ask how it felt, which is an important part of the SE sessions. If you become aware of the sensations and what you feel in your body, only then the signal will be able to reach the brain, the short-term memory, according to the therapist.
It was really interesting, because when she asked me to relax and become aware of my body I started wiggling my toes automatically, because I couldn't trust the process. When we continued with the exercises I could feel my left leg starting to feel cooler and more free, as if there was a small stream flowing, which was a nice feeling, because normally I am pretty tense. But the tension then went upwards and my neck started aching quite badly, because the other parts were letting go of the tension. Miraculous how the body works, it is truly amazing how my own body still wants to protect me.
We did one exercise with the neck, just looking around and observe and see whether the environment we find ourselves in is safe. So, e.g. when you are on the train you look around you and check whether you are safe. And then afterwards look and see whether something has changed, whether colours have become deeper or whether you see now something that you hadn't noticed before.
I wrote down some exercises that she wants me to do once or twice a day, but she told me not to overdo it.
beetlemaniac said:
Yesterday I tried using the method he outlined in the video combined with methods outlined in the book. First, I tried to do the clenching fist exercise, clenching my fist lightly at first, then moving in and out of the clench very slowly. I think I felt something, but I couldn't really be sure. Then I tried the jaw clench in the same way. Felt something there too, but mildly. My facial muscles started trembling as I did it. Soon, major trembling was occurring, and my face contorted into a grimace. The various facial muscles were still trembling, alternatingly. Then later, to my surprise, the facial muscles started contorting into a smile! The facial muscles were still trembling, and it looked as though the face was relearning how to smile. There was not much feeling when all of this happened, only mild if any. But the whole process, especially the smile, felt totally alien to my "self". It was very much akin to discovery of something new and strange, or at least I took the attitude of curiosity to let the process move through as it may.
Great work, beetlemaniac. :)
The therapist told me that our facial muscles are directly linked to the brain stem. She said that 65% of the Dutch clench their jaws. I assume that it is the same for all other Western countries. The back of my neck often hurts, so these exercises with the jaw and face can help with that.