luke wilson said:
I don't know what's coming ahead Keyhole... But I do know the world has been ending for a very long time...
I only speak from my personal experience here...
1. Looking at the state of the worlds economy, I see no good reason to just walk into £50'000 worth of debt. No amount of mainstream education or pieces of paper saying "degree" are worth that.
The above is an excuse. It's something you are telling yourself to justify quitting. To essentially make you feel good about quitting or less bad about it. Something about people... they always need a reason to do something. Don't always believe the reasons you are telling yourself... some of them are not true.
Luke, I think you are projecting here. Perhaps if
you chose against going to university, you might perceive this as making excuses and quitting for yourself. But how can you be sure that this is the applies to me? And if I didn't even begin the degree... what exactly am I quitting here? I'm choosing to engage in life. Not to run away from it.
luke wilson said:
2.For the year I have been studying hard to get onto uni course, and the amount of energy I spend day in day out simply doesn't seem worth it. My hearts not in it any more
So you found you actually have to do some hard work? The route wasn't a walk in the park. You had to apply yourself.. so you give up for greener pastures?
Again, you are making the assumption that I have given up because I think it will be easier to take another route.
And like Carl said, the university life could probably be described as "fairly easy" : You get your loan and your get your grant given to you on a plate. You essentially live for free until you have to pay it back. With my grades I would be given a £2000 annual scholarship ontop of a £1500 annual bursary ontop of a £7000 maintenance loan/grant allong with £1000 from my parents (they insist). That's an annual annual £11'500 wage. THIS is the easy route my friend. The idea of going out in the big bad world having to work a job that I probably don't enjoy and fend for myself is actually what I have been fighting with.
luke wilson said:
Plan B : Go full time at work. Buy a car. Prepare for hard times to come. Learn practical skills that can be put to use outside of an institutionalised setting and can benefit myself and others in times of upheaval.
What's your work? Look 10 years down the line... where are you? Have you given yourself, your future family, your future kids, your partner the best possible chance by making the correct choices now? look at it this way... the world descends into chaos whilst you were busy studying to be a neuroscientist... ok, you don't have the necessary skills you think you need to survive the turmoil... simple. Study neuroscience and learn the skills on the side. On the other hand, the world doesn't descend into the chaos you have pictured in your mind... you have now finished your studies and are starting out as a psychologist or neuroscientist... on the side you spent time building practical skills.... WHAT HAVE YOU LOST? The only way NOT to lose is to DO BOTH! You ditch your degree, you are betting on the world descending into what you have in your brain... That is a BIG bet to make.
But Luke, how can any of us be sure what will happen in the next 10 years? This is black and white thinking. And I am wondering, is this what YOUR parents told you? You are also making the assumption that I am making this decision out of fear of what is to come in the future. Have you considered that maybe I just don't want to rely on loans and grants for the next seven years? Its really not as black and white as : If you get a degree - you get a job.
Honestly asking myself the question : Do I really want a career in academia? I have come to the honest conclusion that no, I do not.
The only thing I could picture myself doing was lecturing. And even
that is because of my programmes to lecture and talk at people and the ego-boost I get when people listen to me speak.
luke wilson said:
All in all, if you are going to quit, I think you should be honest about it. Your words read to me like you are quitting because you found out it wasn't as easy or as glamorous as you thought. That it involved actual dedication and commitment. What were you expecting when you signed up for a degree in neuroscience or psychology?
I say don't quit just yet... think this through.
I appreciate your consideration Luke, but I think you have misinterpreted where I am coming from with this. This decision is not based on fear, but based on knowledge that I am beginning to gain of myself. Trying to see things objectively : The world may collapse, It may not collapse. Either way, I need to find my own strengths and weaknesses. I think I'm quite good with my hands, I also think I can see things from a more practical perspective. Therefore I should be able to put this to use. And what happens if I don't go this year? Does this mean that I can never apply again in the future if I did choose to? Like Lilyalic said, most of this stuff can be learnt from books. I have an interest in Neuroscience - The Polyvagal theory, Archaeology of Mind, In an Unspoken Voice, Brain Changer - These are all books that help me apply neuroscience to my own life and my own development. That is all I truly wanted from this... To be able to apply my knowledge and understanding to help me become a better person. I can research topics, post articles for SOTT and maybe even eventually write articles for SOTT. IMO this is an effective way to serve others, and a career incorporating neuroscience isn't the "be all and end all".
luc said:
Just some thoughts - may I ask you if you had difficulties taking decisions in the past? As in: starting something with enthusiasm, then suddenly loosing interest, constantly thinking about "other options" etc.?
If I examine my behaviour, it actually seems to be the opposite way round luc. If I begin something with enthusiasm, I usually become one-track minded and do all that I can to complete the task - even to my own detriment. This happens even with novel things such as cooking, or making those recipe videos for the forum. I become too identified, lose myself in what I am doing and end up putting myself under unnecessary amounts of stress. It becomes like a fixation. I have got some serious issues with narcissism and perfectionism which I think stem back to my relationship with my father. He was very much the same in that respect. It wasn't easy to come to this decision, and I was sitting on the fence for a while. I think I was lying to myself the whole time about actually wanting to study. I went travelling immediately after finishing school and then worked, so I think I felt like I was missing out on something. I couldn't have learnt that didn't want to study if I hadn't of started this year. That was what my post was essentially saying - a thank you to all those who have helped me learn this lesson.