Dekel
I can only imagine how difficult it is for you to find information you can trust, or even find the time and space to think things through objectively and gather knowledge. Your current circumstances are incredibly challenging!!!!!! and I find it amazing you have managed to maintain your equilibrium so well... I can only try to imagine how phenomenally exhausted and traumatised you are on so many levels, and all around you.
Many people in Gaza would be sharing information, passing on things they have heard or seen which I guess can get very distorted as the info passes from one person to the next, I am sure it must be hard to know what is true, partly true or just propaganda that is being intentionally spread to influence or frighten you all, mess even more with your heads. Also, given the horrific situation for all in Palestine and limited power/resources/access to internet, I guess due to power issues you would be limited with your ability to be online for extended periods to try to seek authentic information that you can verify yourself or via sources you can trust (ie: this forum and the many people contributing posts here). You are dealing with so much in between just trying to
survive, ensure you have access to food, water and resources to help you and your family - and your wider community - who you are clearly also doing your best to help.
My heart and prayers go out to you, to everyone who is suffering,
as do the hearts and prayers of so many souls all over the world. What I am seeing you all being subjected to every single day is just so incredibly shocking, so heart wrenching, emotions rise up in me that I truly struggle to find words for: definitely
intense rage, abject disgust, profound shock at the EVIL I see being perpetuated in Palestine (and all over the planet), but also an aching grief and deep sorrow for my fellow human beings and their 2D companions that at times is incredibly overwhelming. We, all over the world, are only
witnessing what is happening in Palestine, we are not present experiencing the shock and trauma and inhumane conditions you are suffering directly - and at the same time, I know we are only seeing tiny
fragments of what is really going on, I know we truly don't comprehend how horrific it is (unless one has actually lived through war). I do hope some of the posts here give you greater awareness that people collectively GENUINELY do care, are paying attention, speaking out, crying out,
screaming out - and millions, are standing in solidarity with you all - and one another, daily. Many people are coming up with creative pathways to take action and have some kind of empowering influence on the narrative and actions regarding this toxic, unspeakably disgusting situation you are all enduring - and have been enduring for generations. The dark agenda and its henchmen are being illuminated, recognised and revealed as the dark entities they are more and more... and people are waking up, getting very ANGRY... Righteous Anger is definitely rising powerfully.
As suggested by others, I respectfully encourage you to consider that it might help you to start your own thread and share - or post on the one created by Joe 'How are you feeling?' You can share and ask for feedback, for clarification about issues/subjects you are unsure of, use it as an opportunity to discuss what you personally are thinking / feeling / seeing / experiencing / hearing from others you have contact with, you can gain knowledge about aspects of the 'Work'. There are so many incredible people here with such a powerful knowledge base who have been working so hard on themselves for years who are willing to support you - you only need ask.
If you feel it is too draining/painful to share and exchange energy here, you just don't feel up to it, or if it isn't feasible because of your situation - issues with power+internet - that kind of thing, I completely understand... no pressure, but if you do have the opportunity to share and feel open to giving it a go, there might be some really helpful offerings from others who have a great deal of knowledge and objectivity. The C's so often have spoken about networking...
I thought this was interesting about our opinions:
And on 'tuning in', increasing awareness...
Last word from Laura
Dekel please know, by sharing the above quotes I am not saying your thinking is 'wrong': I am saying that by sharing a little here directly/networking/discussing issues, others might have greater insight and a clearer understanding about how you are feeling, how you see things; particularly if you are able to expand on your thoughts a bit more. I think people may be misunderstanding some of the things you are saying, but also you may possibly be misunderstanding some of them too. Written communication can be fraught with misinterpretation or appear loaded with 'charge'... sometimes we can be a bit sensitive, (understandable when someone is very stressed) sometimes others are not always sensitive enough (they too can be stressed), we are all humans being human but generally most people here are pretty wonderful and there are many people who genuinely care.
If you do share, you may be offered some really helpful info/threads/links that support you through the times ahead in ways that could build on what you have already learned here; perhaps there are some 'gemstones' you have missed here that others could shine a light on, if you feel open / willing to ask. If nothing else, it might just be good to offload what you are feeling, it must be exhausting trying to hold it together and be strong for everyone around you.
No pressure ok? Do what feels right for you. We are here for you no matter what.
Prayers of Light-Love
and hugs filled with warmth, strength, reassurance and unwavering Faith.
And remember: