T.C. said:
Oh well... Can't say I am that dissappointed. The battle goes on..
T.C. said:
As to your assessment of Les, the impression you gave me through your complete and total self-confidence, led me to believe you were lost in projection and that you were really just describing yourself.
I might be wrong, but here was my reasoning.
Les is clearly talented. If we are to be honest, this is the truth.
The problem with some talented people, is that after some time no matter what talent they possess, it starts eating away at them. They become maybe arrogant, sure of themselves, blind, etc. So right now that is what he is. He then looks at himself and I am sure he has acknowledged this, then he has a decision to make, to backtrack or to proceed. So why would he backtrack, surely that is the biggest form of self-doubt for such a person? To come out and say drug use is wrong, what he gets when he is under the influence isnt real, just illusions, or that he didnt conduct himself properly when he went to see Laura. He can say all this, make a huge leap and try to turn a corner, but why should he??? It so happens that things have played out that way, for 1 he thinks drug use enables him to reach a 'real' level, this is where deception takes on the image of something real and the victim is lost, then he could use whatever self-observation faculties he has left to him to, backtrack thus causing him some ego-suffering. Why does he want to put himself through that? He is brilliant, he has years of excellent work as many readers are saying. All those years have built an image and impression of invisibility, now he finds himself here and you know what, from his point of view, the problem is everyone else, NOT him.
OSIT
For more information I refer you to this
http://www.sott.net/articles/show/226549-Do-Narcissists-Know-They-Are-Narcissists-
Les isnt blind for the most part. He is well aware what he is doing and I think he LOVES it. Now I dont really know him, I am just using the tools available, like this article for example, to see where patterns fit and what that might mean.
Unsurprisingly, they found that narcissists think they are hot stuff. Those scoring high in narcissism tended to rate themselves as more intelligent, physically attractive, likeable, and funny than others. Interestingly, they also rated themselves as having higher levels of negative aspects of narcissism, such as being power-oriented, impulsive, arrogant, and prone to exaggerate their abilities! Therefore, narcissists are aware they are narcissists.
There was also a strong positive correlation between narcissism and having a reputation for narcissism: narcissists were definitely perceived as narcissists! While other people didn't think the narcissists were nearly as hot as the narcissists thought they were, the narcissists were well aware of their reputation! When asked how others perceive them on the positive traits, their results were closer to how they were actually perceived than their own self-perceptions of the very same traits.
These results suggest that narcissists do indeed have self-awareness of themselves and know their reputation. This begs the question: how can narcissists maintain their inflated self-image even though they know full well how they are perceived by others? The researchers suggest a few intriguing possibilities.
Perhaps narcissists assume that others are just failing to realize how bitchin' they really are. They may think that people are just "too dim to recognize their brilliance". Another possibility is that narcissists may think critics are just "jealous of them". Narcissists may take negative feedback and think to themselves: those haters are just jealous!