I'm just proposing this, having thought of it last week, wondering if this isn't an infection at all? Could it be something that has been dormant in your system for a long time and, what with all the work you have been doing on your self, that, whatever it is, has emerged to be dealt with?
I’ll see what the doctor says. The scan’s the next step in the process for me, now. I’ll get that done and see what comes of it.
To your point, any ailment we might suffer from can probably tell us something about ourselves. The affirmation that Mari quoted resonates with certain things I’ve been exploring in myself: “It is safe to be a man”.
It links in with stress and anxiety I’ve had to work on over the last year, as well as certain dynamics at work. I had a pretty traumatic experience in my early teens - I basically insulted the wrong guy. That’s made me adverse to any sort of conflict or hostility for the rest of my life.
But a couple of weeks ago at work, a guy who was having a bad day exploded at me for something completely unreasonable. There has been tension between us before, but he went the whole hog this time.
I just calmly stood my ground and reasoned with him in a way that made him look like an idiot (it wasn’t me who made him look like an idiot, it was him. I just gave the facts of the matter).
Anyway, I was both proud of myself for not letting him dominate me and standing my ground, and actually amazed at how calm and composed I stayed during the interaction, considering that I’ve been suffering from stress and anxiety over the last year. This happened a week or so before Mari’s quote, and a few weeks after this testicular problem began.
So I’m continuing to keep this affirmation in mind, and I’m exploring what it might mean for me, in all areas of my life and my being.