I have tried for the last couple of years only to find I'm using up the ones I didn't take to compensate for late refills. I'm in very poor health since my wife passed away several years ago (4-2009) ...
I can eat only soft foods and drink six Boost per day along with vitamins and minerals. My problem is not able to make the soft foods required since my health/disability has made it impossible to do regularly. I was able to go through the withdraws but the pain wouldn't allow me to continue. I've read where pain can be so severe where it becomes psychopathic which scares the heck out of me because I'm not that.
If there was anything I could do to get off, I'd do it. Like I said the pain has gotten so bad to where I can't sleep at night, especially when it rains. I also have a handicapped child I support and know the other family members can't help since it's hard for them not being able to find work.
I use to take Excedrin everyday because of constant headaches which turned into migrant headaches until the recall and couldn't find one to replace Excedrin.
I ordered Vitamin C in power form last November and been doing it since, which stopped my headaches. It's cost is $70 per pound an last my son and I just under two months. If there was something like that to rid the pain I suffer I'd do it.
I have prayed and cried over my situation, which the crying doesn't help, but sure makes me realize I need to do something and fast in order to get my mind back.
I've read the books Laura mentioned. But it's the pain I can't deal with.
Are some folks stuck with this situation until our next life?
I purchase my sons food at good restaurants everyday but know they should be homemade!
To be honest, my family on both sides think I'm a nut job for the things I say and read. I've purchased 90% of Laura's book and continue purchasing the Dot Connector, which I lay around my home praying someone will pick them up and read what others say, but with no one wanting anything to do with what I say, think, or read. What's amazing is that my son wants to know the things I read.
Yes, I've read the Wave along with the Adventure Series along with exploring our history of what others have said. I've even purchased the books mentioned in both of Laura's great Series.
My problem is recalling everything I've read, which is difficult because of the pain medications. I found myself wanting my mind more than the pain pills. I know the one place to go is here, where there is others that think the way I do. At first I didn't think I belonged since I hadn't read a lot of the material.
I have learned a lot about myself through reading G.'s material along with Gnosis Volumes.
I wonder at times when Jesus returns, he'll find me and cure my situation with pain. I've also started eating the soft foods or, I should say, drinking them. I can't sit/stand for long since the pain affects me to where anger rises up, which bothers me a lot. I continually watch myself or, observe self to change self within.
I know I'm addicted, but I also know I can go through withdraw but it's pain I can't deal with. Also, the psychiatrist said I had a low threshold to pain. I tend to believe he was correct.
Can someone help with this and, where do I go to post since I'm new? Aren't we to write something up about ourselves prior to joining the forum? I'm so thankful for this forum. I use to say God bless you's but now, I just say Thank You Sincerely! And that's from someone that knows he needs help from others.
Oh yea, I forgot to mention I'm not good at all with computers.
