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Wow! There's a lot of complexity in this thread.
These types started popping up left and right through the new age movement, and out of the psychedelic drug culture. The following story is not exaggerated. About fifteen years ago, a friend of mine and myself would have meditation sessions with others. Most of these started off as normal college buddies and degenerated into the above type.
There were usually two categories, the "earthly" type (falling into traditional types of black magic, dark shamanism etc) and the "cosmic" type (channeling ET's and strange cosmic entities). Both these types had a Lovecraftian flavour to them expressing a common theme of "gates" opening and some kind of takeover.
At some point my friend and I held a session with a character named "Alan". My friend was into three dimensional sound and had set up a system, where he would play a slow rhythm on the stereo, since he was more shamanically oriented. I would get into a state by focusing on my sense of "I", and then removing all concepts so that what was left was a sense of presence.
Alan (who in everyday life was a nice guy loved by all as it were), get up holding a particular crystal, which he never let go, and started doing a strange Tai Chi type of dance. All three of us would get impressions and share them in this meditative state, which connected us to deeper layers of our individual predispositions.
At some point we got into a common visionary experience that we were describing to each other in a spontaneous dialogue, regarding a prehistoric tribe where Alan was born as a kind of genius who discovered and promoted new weaponry to send that tribe to attack others and start waves of conquest. From there (as my friend and I were observers at this point), Alan took the temporal thread through the ages, always appearing as some genius pushing societies into warfare through the promise of power with new weaponry.
In this meditative state you can basically feel someone's energy field pretty strongly, and my friend and I were feeling that Alan was trying to pressure us into affirming his "superiority", so we anchored ourselves (without really talking about it, and through a kind of synchronistic feeling sense) and stood our ground.
Now Alan had told us that in a previous meditation he had a vision of a vast space full of pillars, and on these pillars were faces of people. He tried to beat around the bush about why he was doing this, but essentially he said he could reach out and put his hand over a face and control the whole pillar. He only had this experience when meditating with my friend and myself, and kept trying to guide the meditation back to this experience. He also told us he extends his third eye like a snake and tries to enter the heads of other people (which is partly what we were feeling in this session).
Anyway, my friend who was shamanically oriented mentioned about the original prehistoric persona and started telling a story of incarnations of myself and him thwarting the weapon-maker right at the onset. Alan got up agitated and started doing his strange Tai Chi movements which became all the more insect-like along with the strange angles to which he was rotating his head.
In the dim lights both of us saw Alan turn into a praying mantis. At the time of these sessions the only thing we took in chemical terms was 5mg melatonin each (interestingly, you mention it in some threads). When this "transformation" happened he started talking with the same voice, but it was modulated really strangely, like a kind of ventriloquism that made it gravelly and seem to come from outside of his head.
He said something about interfering, and then he looked at me and said: "who are you?", "we do not recognize your presence in the plan", and other such vagueness, while he was speaking in the first person plural.
So I just told him that whatever he thought he was doing it was over. He looked at me and groaned (still with a faint praying mantis outline in the dimness), and at that moment a really bright light shone in the room and sirens started going off. This apparently broke the session and we turned on the lights in the room and looked outside. It turns out the police were making somekind of raid accross the street and shining lights into the windows of surrounding apatments (why I do not know), but the "coincidence" was surely strange.
Alan was just one case of individuals (usually in their 20's) who were triggered in the 1990's into these kinds of identity manifestations. All of them had this quality of "feeding" on others, seeming normal in their day to day lives and having an anit-christ complex related to these arthropod and invertebrate life-form templates on some kind of archtypal scale.
The spectrum of psycho-strangeness is certainly complex! I did not see the podcasts, but I read a few things about them, and it certainly sounds similar.
If the presences resonant with the more primal gene pools are 4D STS, they may be like the "higher selves" or direct evolutionary future selves (without the development and change of terrestrial evolution) of the more primitive forms. Kind of like the "spirit" of the predatory insect, leech, scorpion or what have you trying to dominate life in 3D.
What strikes me about Mel is that being positive and believing she creates her own reality, she should feel secure in that (at least in principle). Instead, she is threatened by the beliefs of others. In other words she tends to act like a fundamentalist who is driven to make others believe as they do. In her case she actually believes that we cannot have a good world unless we all fly to Care Bear heaven with fluffy pillows and pastel pajamas. There is a difference between addressing an issue head on, and reinforcing it through fatalism and denial. In asserting Laura as a fatalist, she actually reveals that she (Mel) is the perpetrator of denial.
It is like a circle where life flows, and a pump to keep the flow going. When the pump is at the STO end, life flows and all selves are serviced, including the personal self. When the pump is at STS the flow stops because, as Quantum-Reality mentioned, the principle of Unity or rather Continuity (as far as differentiated selves are concerned) is not preserved. STS, on the other hand, rather promotes discontinuity, and has even distorted the understanding of STO in many people (especially OP's who cannot even relate to the concept except in very limited terms) into self denial and often martyrdom. It is also true that psychopaths of all types are driven to distort one's conception of STO, making one feel guilty for not rejecting Grace and falling into abject suffering to prove "goodness".
Balanced STO affirms continuity so that one can receive Grace and be "blessed". The one thing individualized psychopaths seem to have in common is the promotion of selfishness as an esoteric ideal, claiming they are simply more sincere than STO "hypocrites". This rationalization is easily accepted by the OP, especially one under STS-induced psychic stresses. The OP, in my view, is another breed altogether and can only be confused with STO/STS distinctions. The phrase "throwing pearls before swine", comes to mind here.
I remember the book and movies of H G Well's "The Island of Dr. Moreau", where animals were engineered toward humanity, and the good doctor tried to force civilization, religion and laws upon them, whereupon it all backfired and the mutants reverted to an animal state. OP's are not animals, of course, but to try to pump them full of higher truths and the deeper meanings of the relationship between STS and STO is futile and leads to degeneration into STS imbalance.
OP's need their structured societies and rituals, but when these are "polluted" with attempts to imbibe meanings with which they are not compatible disaster always results. Much of this is instigated by STS puppets who are individualized, and act as primary agents of psychopathic infection, which OP's cannot resist.
Once again, it seems karmic responsibility falls on those with individualized souls whether allied with STS or STO. I wonder how rare individualized STS psychopaths are, or if they are simply much more clever at concealing themselves than the OP versions.
Those who I perceived to be more individualized versions of STS extremism indeed seemed to view themselves as "channels", priests/priestesses and/or avatars of some kind of 4D STS influence.
And it is consistent with my observations that OP's try to convert Adamics to their ways, presumably "for their own good", but really because they the ensouled individuality is alien and abnormal to them.
I guess there may be different types of OP's (depending on the size and genetic association of the corresponding soul pool), just as Adamics are unique individuals. Perhaps then the spectrum or Bell curve is not continuous at all at the OP level, with the widest gap between OP's and Adamics at the peak of the Gaussian. The Adamic portion of the graph would seem continuous because the individual "points" have a continuous distribution, which each point at its unique position.
I am beginning to believe that at least for starters we would need a graph for the healthy OP/Adamic distribution, and another graph for psychopathological effects, since all aspects of the healthy graph would have their own psychopathological potential properties.
In the workplace, and formerly in school, I recognized the cold psychopath and the OP. However, in esoteric exploratitons with others (and in my own extended family environment) the above type as well as the Chimeric type were the predominant contacts, and where I did sense emotion.Laura said:Now, the distinction Mouravieff has made is that this second type DOES have the emotional center which the psychopathic type does not have. And that means that such a type is quite different - and maybe even scarier - than the garden variety psychopath.
These types started popping up left and right through the new age movement, and out of the psychedelic drug culture. The following story is not exaggerated. About fifteen years ago, a friend of mine and myself would have meditation sessions with others. Most of these started off as normal college buddies and degenerated into the above type.
There were usually two categories, the "earthly" type (falling into traditional types of black magic, dark shamanism etc) and the "cosmic" type (channeling ET's and strange cosmic entities). Both these types had a Lovecraftian flavour to them expressing a common theme of "gates" opening and some kind of takeover.
At some point my friend and I held a session with a character named "Alan". My friend was into three dimensional sound and had set up a system, where he would play a slow rhythm on the stereo, since he was more shamanically oriented. I would get into a state by focusing on my sense of "I", and then removing all concepts so that what was left was a sense of presence.
Alan (who in everyday life was a nice guy loved by all as it were), get up holding a particular crystal, which he never let go, and started doing a strange Tai Chi type of dance. All three of us would get impressions and share them in this meditative state, which connected us to deeper layers of our individual predispositions.
At some point we got into a common visionary experience that we were describing to each other in a spontaneous dialogue, regarding a prehistoric tribe where Alan was born as a kind of genius who discovered and promoted new weaponry to send that tribe to attack others and start waves of conquest. From there (as my friend and I were observers at this point), Alan took the temporal thread through the ages, always appearing as some genius pushing societies into warfare through the promise of power with new weaponry.
In this meditative state you can basically feel someone's energy field pretty strongly, and my friend and I were feeling that Alan was trying to pressure us into affirming his "superiority", so we anchored ourselves (without really talking about it, and through a kind of synchronistic feeling sense) and stood our ground.
Now Alan had told us that in a previous meditation he had a vision of a vast space full of pillars, and on these pillars were faces of people. He tried to beat around the bush about why he was doing this, but essentially he said he could reach out and put his hand over a face and control the whole pillar. He only had this experience when meditating with my friend and myself, and kept trying to guide the meditation back to this experience. He also told us he extends his third eye like a snake and tries to enter the heads of other people (which is partly what we were feeling in this session).
Anyway, my friend who was shamanically oriented mentioned about the original prehistoric persona and started telling a story of incarnations of myself and him thwarting the weapon-maker right at the onset. Alan got up agitated and started doing his strange Tai Chi movements which became all the more insect-like along with the strange angles to which he was rotating his head.
In the dim lights both of us saw Alan turn into a praying mantis. At the time of these sessions the only thing we took in chemical terms was 5mg melatonin each (interestingly, you mention it in some threads). When this "transformation" happened he started talking with the same voice, but it was modulated really strangely, like a kind of ventriloquism that made it gravelly and seem to come from outside of his head.
He said something about interfering, and then he looked at me and said: "who are you?", "we do not recognize your presence in the plan", and other such vagueness, while he was speaking in the first person plural.
So I just told him that whatever he thought he was doing it was over. He looked at me and groaned (still with a faint praying mantis outline in the dimness), and at that moment a really bright light shone in the room and sirens started going off. This apparently broke the session and we turned on the lights in the room and looked outside. It turns out the police were making somekind of raid accross the street and shining lights into the windows of surrounding apatments (why I do not know), but the "coincidence" was surely strange.
Alan was just one case of individuals (usually in their 20's) who were triggered in the 1990's into these kinds of identity manifestations. All of them had this quality of "feeding" on others, seeming normal in their day to day lives and having an anit-christ complex related to these arthropod and invertebrate life-form templates on some kind of archtypal scale.
The spectrum of psycho-strangeness is certainly complex! I did not see the podcasts, but I read a few things about them, and it certainly sounds similar.
I was referring to the similarity certain "demonic" manifestations as well as extraterrestial ones have with the more primitive forms of 2D. It seems they resonate with the DNA pools of these primitive species as they superimpose on the human matrix. I am suggesting that if you take the tree of classic evolution such a presence resonant with a primal gene pool would be incompatible with the consciousness of a gene pool higher up the tree, like a square peg trying to be forced in a round hole.anart said:I definitely grok what you're saying overall, and there is much there to work with, it's just that the flow of thought seemed to 'snag' for me at this evolutionary comment.
If the presences resonant with the more primal gene pools are 4D STS, they may be like the "higher selves" or direct evolutionary future selves (without the development and change of terrestrial evolution) of the more primitive forms. Kind of like the "spirit" of the predatory insect, leech, scorpion or what have you trying to dominate life in 3D.
And this assertion that the present sucks is just what many "positive thinkers" claim is just what they have overcome. I guess another way of saying the above is that what the subconscious is getting from this attitude is that its very nature is being rejected/denied. Such extended denial leads to inner fragmentation and eventual loss of the ability to participate in what is going on around you.Laura said:If we think "I am going to concentrate on the positive so that the future will be better, the subconscious will read: "the NOW is terrible" and the subconscious will help that person to create situations that fulfill that reality. Because, of course, when you say "I must focus on the positive," what you are telling your subconscious (which is also observing) is that the present sucks.
What strikes me about Mel is that being positive and believing she creates her own reality, she should feel secure in that (at least in principle). Instead, she is threatened by the beliefs of others. In other words she tends to act like a fundamentalist who is driven to make others believe as they do. In her case she actually believes that we cannot have a good world unless we all fly to Care Bear heaven with fluffy pillows and pastel pajamas. There is a difference between addressing an issue head on, and reinforcing it through fatalism and denial. In asserting Laura as a fatalist, she actually reveals that she (Mel) is the perpetrator of denial.
The way I understand this is that absolute service to others would end up negating the self, that STO supplies the balance in the path, but it needs STS to define it. Another way of saying this is that learning to give is also dependent on learning to receive. Ultimately, STO and STS grow into each other like yang and yin in the Tai Chi symbol of Taoism. STS provides an extreme and polarized example for learning to recieve because its polarization turns it into "learning to take".Nov. 12 said:Q: (L) Okay, the ones in the quorum are those who are focused on service to others and they, in their pathway of service to others begin to understand that some service to self is service to others.
A: Close.
Q: (L) And the whole idea is to blend both pathways no matter which direction you come to it from?
A: Service to others provides the perfect balance of those two realities; service to self is the diametrical opposite closing the grand cycle in perfect balance.
Q: (L) So it is necessary to have a pathway of service to self in order for the pathway of service to others to exist?
A: Yes.
It is like a circle where life flows, and a pump to keep the flow going. When the pump is at the STO end, life flows and all selves are serviced, including the personal self. When the pump is at STS the flow stops because, as Quantum-Reality mentioned, the principle of Unity or rather Continuity (as far as differentiated selves are concerned) is not preserved. STS, on the other hand, rather promotes discontinuity, and has even distorted the understanding of STO in many people (especially OP's who cannot even relate to the concept except in very limited terms) into self denial and often martyrdom. It is also true that psychopaths of all types are driven to distort one's conception of STO, making one feel guilty for not rejecting Grace and falling into abject suffering to prove "goodness".
Balanced STO affirms continuity so that one can receive Grace and be "blessed". The one thing individualized psychopaths seem to have in common is the promotion of selfishness as an esoteric ideal, claiming they are simply more sincere than STO "hypocrites". This rationalization is easily accepted by the OP, especially one under STS-induced psychic stresses. The OP, in my view, is another breed altogether and can only be confused with STO/STS distinctions. The phrase "throwing pearls before swine", comes to mind here.
I remember the book and movies of H G Well's "The Island of Dr. Moreau", where animals were engineered toward humanity, and the good doctor tried to force civilization, religion and laws upon them, whereupon it all backfired and the mutants reverted to an animal state. OP's are not animals, of course, but to try to pump them full of higher truths and the deeper meanings of the relationship between STS and STO is futile and leads to degeneration into STS imbalance.
OP's need their structured societies and rituals, but when these are "polluted" with attempts to imbibe meanings with which they are not compatible disaster always results. Much of this is instigated by STS puppets who are individualized, and act as primary agents of psychopathic infection, which OP's cannot resist.
Once again, it seems karmic responsibility falls on those with individualized souls whether allied with STS or STO. I wonder how rare individualized STS psychopaths are, or if they are simply much more clever at concealing themselves than the OP versions.
It is true that the energies of OP's do not seem to feed 4D STS as much as ensouled energies do, or rather 4D STS gets more of a "rush" from an individualized soul than from a diffuse soul pool. This may also be because 4D STS seeks not just to ground into 3D, but to direct a 3D transition of Adamics into its singular way of things (straight into the mouth of the beast, as it were).Ruth said:A 'souled' human is sts hence they live in a parasitic environment. We (a presumption that I/we am part of this group) are programmed to react emotionally for a reason. This is to provide usually negative energy in the form of emotions for the 'next higher ups'. These emotions are not usually expressed as 'need' as an OP would experience, but as pain, anguish etc. This is food for the Lizzies.
Those who I perceived to be more individualized versions of STS extremism indeed seemed to view themselves as "channels", priests/priestesses and/or avatars of some kind of 4D STS influence.
Individuality is another concept that is over the heads of OP's, and has done more harm than good to them. It starts out as an ideal and usually degenderates to some form of selfishness, followed by reactions to STS provoked damage that lead to denial of self and martyrdom (usually the martyrs are the guiltridden ensouled who did not realize that their version of individuality is different than the OP version).Ruth said:And she will try and 'help' me by trying to make me more like an OP (they always question individuality like its some sort of disease, simply because they don't understand it. Individuality is the opposite of herding instrinct and is completely incomprehensible to them).
And it is consistent with my observations that OP's try to convert Adamics to their ways, presumably "for their own good", but really because they the ensouled individuality is alien and abnormal to them.
I guess there may be different types of OP's (depending on the size and genetic association of the corresponding soul pool), just as Adamics are unique individuals. Perhaps then the spectrum or Bell curve is not continuous at all at the OP level, with the widest gap between OP's and Adamics at the peak of the Gaussian. The Adamic portion of the graph would seem continuous because the individual "points" have a continuous distribution, which each point at its unique position.
I am beginning to believe that at least for starters we would need a graph for the healthy OP/Adamic distribution, and another graph for psychopathological effects, since all aspects of the healthy graph would have their own psychopathological potential properties.