Just does not feel right.
Well, to that I would say: keep learning until you understand it all better. Speaking from my own experience, this really does get better as you progress.
Why has this been set up like this?
I cannot answer why the system has been set up the way it is, but I can say that while I had the same questions in the past, thanks to all the knowledge I've gained over the years, I don't have any problem with the system. It makes sense to me. And I'm sure with even more knowledge, we'll understand why it is the way it is.
Do ascended beings have a better selection or choices or few because of that?
Not entirely sure what "ascended beings" means, but if it's 4D, then I don't think "better selection" is the right way to think about it. They live in a different environment, with different rules, and with different consciousness. Obviously their choices and lessons are different. I think "better" is a subjective judgement that has little relevance here.
And as a counter argument let me ask you this: If you could perceive time and reality differently, would the same lessons still apply?
Different perception, I think, necessitates different lessons. But as
all there is is lessons, any lesson has value, provides opportunity to learn and experience to gain, and it doesn't matter so much what the lesson happens to be as what you're able to get from it.
It sounds like you'd like to pick lessons you want. I've learned to
accept things I cannot change and deal with things I
can change. I just let the universe throw at me whatever it wants, and I deal with it with a warrior's mindset.
But, the physical vessel will be easy to tamper with and may even hide this from me as I go through the circumstances that are generated part by choice part by happenstance. At the end I either get it or don't, but it's ok, because time is irrelevant. That does not seem like an OK answer to me. I'm again, missing something.
Tampering with any part of you by others is a reflection of the free will of others. You can't have freedom without some serious consequences. If everything was "good" for everyone, there could be no freedom. If you want to prevent being tampered with, gain knowledge on how to defend yourself. That's the game we're in. Some manipulation we can overcome by learning, some maybe we just have to grind our teeth through and suffer a bit, but that's a lesson too. Every single experience has value, no matter how much you may not like it. Approaching Infinity already explained this nicely above.
I agree about the basics. But to keep hiding them or putting them in a format that needs to be understood over and over again, is why I think the game is rigged.
It has a reason, but it takes time to really get it. I'll get to it more in the last reply.
This implies a linear mode of learning. I have yet to experience learning as linear. So the concept of learning and lessons maybe in need of a better definition. It maybe that the concept of lessons is limiting. Maybe need to find a better way to understand what is meant by lessons.
Literally
everything is lessons.
A better understanding of what it is that I use this concept of 'free choice' on.
But
that is the point! That's sort of your first lesson once you've "awakened": to figure out the rules of the game.
I think this last reply of yours drives home for me what the issue really is for you. The sense of playing a game the rules of which you don't really understand, if I'm getting it right. I get that feeling. I had it too, 20+ years ago.
But this understanding is something you have to fight for. It's a long and often painful process, full of mistakes and wrong turns and traps. There's really no way around the suffering, but in the end you'll understand why it was necessary that way.
The thing is, if you gain something easily, you don't really understand the value of that thing. You don't learn much. It's like how people rich from birth are disconnected from the reality of most people. They got their wealth easily, so they don't really have a clue what it's like to fight every day to get even the basic things. So if the lessons are hard and things are hidden from you, the process is slow, but the lessons really have value and the knowledge sinks in.
You can't get answers to your questions easily. Even if I could give you all the answers you seek, it wouldn't be worth much, because you'd have to test them all
through your own experience, both to verify them and to really understand them.
The things you say you're missing will become clearer in the future. I can say this with quite some confidence based on my own experience, but there are no shortcuts, no free lunch. You're doing some good thinking, though, and asking good questions, so you're on the right track.
What I feel like you'd benefit from more than any particular knowledge right now is a more practical attitude. I got this from Castaneda's books. First, they taught me about the self-defeating nature of self-importance and all its forms. Some of the greatest obstacles to my progress were my self-pity, anger, feeling of injustice (which I had all my childhood, not just about myself, but the whole world), sadness about things I couldn't change, complaints, and so on. Understanding that neither I nor anything else is more important than any other thing freed me from this victim mentality and provided me with a much clearer view.
I acquired the sense that complaining about injustice won't get me anything other than a miserable feeling, and I decided that whatever I have to deal with, I'll deal with as best I can. I stopped being afraid of anything. (Of course this transformation took years.) I understood that to overcome any obstacle and get answers to my questions, I needed knowledge. Later I realised that asking "but what knowledge?", like it's hiding in any specific place, is the wrong approach. You have to search and sort through
a lot to find bits of the right answers here and there.
But ultimately, a clearer picture starts to emerge, you get moments when suddenly some things click together and you realise something pretty amazing, and you start to see how things actually make sense once you get the proper insights.
But of course it's a lifelong struggle. I still don't know infinitely more than I do know, but I feel like I understand the basics and the rules of the game, and that gives me some
peace of mind and enough
confidence to take on anything.
So to sum it up - the things you're looking for, I'm sure you'll find, piece by piece. It will take time, it won't be easy, and it won't be for free. But that's the way it has to be for you to
really get it. Belief in yourself and your ability to find the answers you're looking for.
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