Damian said:
Aragorn said:
Thanks for sharing. This session was very interesting!
I don't know if it's related to what you guys have been through, but the last couple of weeks I've had this feeling of deep melancholy and severe lack of energy. I've been occupied with thoughts like "wow, life is really short, and soon my life will end...this is the last chapter of my life". It wasn't until the last Saturday when I felt this thing slowly melting away.
Thank you for sharing that Aragorn. I too had similar thoughts.... more along the lines of "this is the last chapter of my life." Glad to hear that this feeling of yours melted away..... mine is still lingering but not as strong.
I just wanted to share my experience of this way of thinking.
As I am today, this is the first time that I haven't necessarily felt 'this is the last chapter of my life' since I was about 18yrs old. That thought and feeling has been like a ball and chain I've carried around with me for almost half of my entire life, and it has informed a lot of my attitudes and actions.
It started when I read
The Bible Code books, but not being very discerning, I took them at face value and pretty much bought in to the 2012 meme. Then when I found Laura's work, I used my bias in this area to take the cassiopaean material as a confirmation that the end is nigh and we're living in the end times.
Now, though, my attitude has changed. A lot of it has to do with the understanding that The Wave isn't an on/off/instantaneous thing, but a long and drawn-out process that has been happening for many years. And that even after the posited main transition (if there even is one), there will still be a long, long adjustment period.
Another factor is doing the diet and constantly working on my health. I'm getting prepared for whatever's around the next corner, and the point is that - yes - there is a high probability that many people are going to die, sooner rather than later; but I now believe that I don't have to be one of them. And I'm not acting out of a fear of death - I'm acting because I want to be a vehicle for the ideas of being, and I want to be around for as long as I can to represent truth in a world of lies and order in a world of chaos.
So much of what I've learned over the last few months has convinced me more and more that there is the potential for those who are prepared to carry on the fight; and not only for the next 30, 40, 50 years, but if what the C's say is true, MUCH longer than that.
And the ironic thing about all this, is that I believe the main reason I'm able to live with this new view, is that for the first time in years, I'm no longer living with my head in the 'future'. I'm living from hour to hour and from day to day, doing what's in front of me.
I just wanted to share all that because 'the last chapter' HAS been something that's haunted me for so long, so I know how you guys feel. But the end of that last chapter never did come for me. There have only been ends of one chapter and the beginnings of new ones.