Do not worry. I have crises of faith from time to time. I have a deep feeling that I have a lot to do in this life, so sometimes I lack the strength and feel that I still give too little of myself.Also, when I caught up with the thread recently and read the bolded parts above they made me concerned for you and sad that you feel or think this way. Maybe you should consider creating a thread in the 'Swamp' section of the forum about them and network about it. But I haven't read the thread you started and contributed to called 'Our paranormal experience', so maybe you have mentioned this there or in another thread I haven't read yet.
However, I really appreciate the discussion, and even the discussion in this thread very much sustains me in these more difficult moments.
At the same time, not so long ago I had serious health problems, and besides, I work a lot, so sometimes I don't have enough energy to rest. Frankly speaking, I would like to work 24 hours a day and not even sleep, but unfortunately it is impossible.