From your first post here on the forum:
I am reasonably well read on Eastern esoteric teachings and the supposed true nature of reality, though I feel there is so much more to learn, much more than can be learnt in one life. I see people who have taken up a certain spiritual belief and run with it for their whole life but I can't do that, one belief system cannot know everything there is to know. Subscribing to one set of beliefs limits your realm of possibility.
I have had personal experiences with what is commonly referred to as kundalini energy and I have experienced a toe dip into the astral world, these experiences have given me irrefutable evidence that the world we experience is hidden with mysteries that are not common knowledge, that the majority of the populace has no idea exists nor would they believe is possible if they were told about it.
Is the search for truth in literature a lost cause? How can one know what is real and what is made up nonsense? Does the answer lie within us? Is meditation and yoga the vehicle to finding this truth?
The quest for the truth seems like a sick joke at times, which way am I meant to go, who am I meant to believe, which practices should I follow. Is life just one endless search, are we meant to just constantly seek until we find something and decide to settle with it?
Please don’t take this as patronising because I know it could definitely come across that way, but you remind me so much of myself when I first came to the forum. I wanted to know the secrets and mysteries of history and religion, life after death, the future. I had read certain books that gave me glimpses of ancient secret knowledge, and I wanted to know all of it.
But, why? What for? It was a yearning inside me. It was like I’d tasted a bit of truth and now I craved it. But there was no end goal... no aim or reason for it.
Some would say that’s fine. That’s actually for the best. That the purest way is the search for knowledge for the sake of knowledge.
But the things you talk about - that there’s truths that are not seen by the majority of the people of the planet, and never have been; the most shocking and real truths that people can’t see, that are hidden from them, are really about
themselves.
It really doesn’t matter how many spiritual teachers you read or practices you follow, because like you say, how are you supposed to know what’s true and what isn’t?
Well, one of the keys to that, is by learning about who you really are and what you’re really like. To learn all the stupidest, dumbest, most arrogant and narcissistic aspects of yourself and your personality and what makes you tick. To be awakened to what you’re really like as a person and to see where that has got you throughout your life.
And here I don’t mean all the times you were mean and selfish. I mean re-looking at all the times you’ve thought you were doing the right thing, the best thing, being good, being nice, being kind...
giving to others with no thought for yourself.
And being struck down with shock for days, that all the time you were motivated by selfishness, arrogance, vanity.
We here can’t just instantly facilitate that kind of shock for you, but by following the various reading recommendations you have been given, while at the same time networking here on the forum about it all, you might just start to get a glimpse of what I’m talking about; a “glimpse of the deep secret realities that most people never know about”. You may even get the full-force of it in one go, who knows?
But what good would that kind of ‘terrible’ knowledge do for you?
There’s a lot of different answers to that, but a big one is: you will learn that this way of being, who you have been and what you have been like,
it will teach you to see the difference between the truth and the lies in yourself. And what that then grants you is the ability to better discern the truth from lies in the world because you’ll understand how that invisible barrier was built between your eyes and seeing the real you, you’ll understand how it works, and you’ll be able to apply it to everything else that you want answers to.
All that will matter then is whether you put in the effort to read and research the things you want answers to, because you’re not just going to find the answers to your questions out of thin air. You need to read and you need to think.
So what we’re really in the business of here on this forum is helping people wake up. That’s what Gurdjieff was about, that’s what
The Wave is about, and from there, that’s what the psychological reading and historical reading builds on and fortifies. And every bit of it involves learning to see what’s right in front of our faces that other people can’t see.
So you say you ordered
In Search of the Miraculous, and you should really order the
The Wave series of books. If you’re really serious about learning to see the unseen, take your time and read those books. At the same time, keep thinking about your life, yourself, your past, in light of the ideas presented.
