I have seen an "exorcist" for an abduction I had and other bad experiences (mostly in relation to sexual stuff), and this do not felt totally right, he used the "bulldozer technique" and do not really consider what I have said to him about the important of psychology while showing him the SRT book. He is reading Gregg Braden with no apparent discernments too, and consider Reiki as simple magnetism and his work as an exorcist really 'seriously', aware of some of the dangers. I felt somewhat energized by his prayer, but did not felt profoundly free of my hurting emotions or particularly helped in my pain.
I wonder if I have to cancel my next and last session.
I had a session with Patrick Rodriguez and he went directly on the root of the cause of my fear without dealing with spirit or whatever. He pointed out the fear I had from my mother and her influences on my father and brother. It's quite painful and not finished. I remember a dream where an amerindian woman avorted after being raped by a sort of conquistador, it was so strong that I felt it like a past-life resurgence, and so I suffer not being fully incarnated in this life. I talk about it to my psychiatrist but he would not going deeper than just listening to me and encouraging me to talk.
Patrick then sent a angel, and things burnt at the root, leaving me at the edge of passing out.
Reading the SRT book helped me seeing things differently and prove to open more avenue to the reason of my stuckness in life.
I practiced talking with different aspects of me child and I was surprised that it works with feeling lighter and somewhat released. Even talking to me foetus helped a bit. I gather these "fragments" to heal them and made some connections that are surprising like a part of me still frozen in a fight or flight because of a fell I made from a tree, thinking I'll die from it. But a competent therapist is needed and finding one is not simple.
I really feel a "demon" attached to my body, I felt my body shaking unnaturally from the base of the spine and like a mental probe into my rectum, one morning I awoke with a light above my mind downloading mental pornographic images, I also come to see/feel some vision I would qualify to be of Orion STS orientation, resisting it lead me to feeling more aware of my body mind and the environment, but my gut are painfully hurts at the moment. It feels like being connected to Voldemort in the movie Harry Potter and if all STS practice this magic they should terminate like him in the movie. I feel it blocks profound release that will lead me to better integration within. Thanks to Goyacobol citing the C's about hyperdimensional influences stemming from a lack in diet/nurturing here, it really points to the need to take care of the underlying lack to ungrip the attachment, and thus some attachments might be a blessing in the sense that it reveals the lack with enough strength that the attention is finally directed back where it is truly needed. And sure intense pain and suffering seems to be needed also.
What about the work done by Terence Palmer and his Remote Spirit Release association ? It remembers me this case of a woman talking with the spirit through a spirit box and getting/desiring to be possessed by the alleged entity (the common Reptilian type with a lust for domination), whether by ignorance or by wishful thinking.