I apologize in advance for further derailing this thread but the two above posts are something I can relate to and as such wish to share an additional two cents on.
I find a big crux on my personal journey was to overcome generalizations, especially in regards to anything perceived as authority figures. I think it's not a stretch to argue that all of us here have been affected by a type of programming that puts excessive trust in authorities in all shapes and sizes. But here is where sweeping generalizations become dangerous. Finding out about top secret military black budget operations, Big Pharma, 9/11 and corruption in all areas of government, it's quite easy (at least it was for me) to just forsake 'officialdom' altogether, and think that it's
all false. Thus I peeled away that layer of the onion just to fall prey to the next level of gatekeepers. Gurus, channelers, conspiracy theorists and all manner of cointelpro programs readily catch those who can see through the first layer, but nobody warns us beforehand that as our previous worldview has been shattered, we seek solace in anything that can provide some comforting (or not so comforting) answers that seem to put us on even keel again.
I was wading in the New Age muck for some years, and I do feel that in some ways it helped me see the world with different eyes, but yet a nagging sensation remained that I was not yet able to perceive the whole banana as it were. As the peeling of the proverbial onion continued, I realized I was coming to layers which I thought I had already passed, but now seeing them with different eyes. It's my understanding that the onion is neither linear nor static, but will constantly shift and change as our own understanding of it changes. It's up to us to connect the different layers to perceive more and more of the totality of the onion.
As I've come to accept, the Matrix really seems to be an entity onto itself, shifting and changing and employing smoke and mirrors to veer us off the path. The deck is stacked against us as most of us have to work through all the limiting and counterproductive programs we've acquired. Especially in this age of information it's so crucial to discern the sources of the information we consume, and this is something that most of us have had to learn the hard way. "Learning is fun," most definitely I can agree. What I am struggling against is still the fundamental black and white thinking so prevalent in our time (perhaps throughout all of time in 3D), and I'm slowly learning that this awakening-busyness is something much more vast than I initially might have imagined.
a certain impatient rush, the despair that I would be left behind, that I was onto the 'next big secret'.
Has this been the case throughout history? That people on the path of truth always felt as if there was not enough time, or is this something that we are experiencing more distinctively now, in this particular segment of history? The arrival of the Wave? Is time compressing because of that?