Hey @Fluffy - I know what you mean about gagging and not producing saliva. I put a small amount of bone broth in my meal yesterday. I lost my tastebuds and saliva - could barely chew. I learnt how deeply ingrained the mental block is - my physical reaction and mental discomfort were ‘off the charts’ irrational. Is the mental block a program or the result of attachment(s), do you think?
It could be an attachment, but it's a complex question! I think that programs and mental blocks and attachments are all interconnected ways of talking about a similar symptom.
For instance, maybe someone picks up a learned behaviour at a young age (a program) that causes them to doubt their own ability. This may result in a thought pattern where they become convinced of their own worthlessness. This becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy and they rarely try anything outside of their comfort zone (a mental block).
So this person is embodying a certain FRV of self-doubt. A spirit attachment often requires some kind of frequency match. So an entity or an energy could then attach themselves to this person in order to 'feel sad together', or any number of other reasons.
I think the key thing that I've learned is that the 'soil has been prepared' before an attachment happens. The soil (of our Soul) is prepared by our own choices - whether these choices are conscious ones or automatic and unconscious.
In my own case, there were a ton of 'weeds' growing in my field of potential, in large part due to my choices to indulge in laziness, mediocrity and victimhood. I was telling myself that all the weeds are just fine as they - they are natural, after all, and 'this is who I am'. In truth, I just didn't want to expend the effort of getting down on my hands and knees and doing the hard work of pulling them up, year after year after year - due to my program of self-doubt and good ol' pain avoidance. I didn't want to plant anything because I was convinced it would just fail anyways. Meanwhile, I was really jealous of everyone else's garden! And resentment is a huge energy drain.
Anyways, someone can have attachments removed and get specialized help in pulling up the weeds, which is a really powerful healing modality. But it's also good to practice the groundwork of getting dirty on the hand and knees, clearing our field and learning to sowing a good crop of thoughts. Year after year, the weeds have less and less space to take root as the garden grows.
So programs, mental blocks and attachments are all different manifestations, but they're all interrelated indicators of a certain lesson to be learned.
Your post reminded me of some exercises in Levine's book In An Unspoken Voice, where he talks about eating, the jaw as a source of tension, and becoming aware of our learned patterns of sensation. I see someone has already suggested these kinda exercises, but thought you might find it interesting, in particular because it grounds the above discussion of programs, mental blocks and attachments in the body:
Sensation Patterns
The next task is to begin to recognize and work with patterned responses of sensation. In particular, you will begin to notice what various sensations (i.e., tensions, contractions, aches, pains, etc.) tend to emerge in sequences or in groups. For example, you may notice that a "knot" in the belly or tightening of the anus is associated with a suppression or holding of breath. At first this additional task may increase frustration and even stir up fear. It may seem excessively difficult to follow so many sensations (a task initially difficult for single focus), and as they connect with each other, there will be the possibility of becoming overwhelmed or "stuck with them forever."
These concerns are legitimate. However, as you begin to gain mastery through practice, rather extraordinary things may begin to happen. You will be moving toward some of the root causes of these tension patterns. These stale constellations of habitual discomfort form the underlying maladaptive organization of all conflicts and unresolved traumatic residue. Through the following experiential exercises you have the opportunity to "see" for yourself, rather than believe on my word alone, the hypothesis that is spelled out in this text. Although it may take persistence and dealing with an intensification of the resistance associated with these complexes, the potential benefits range from greater relaxation and alertness and deeper sleep to more vitality and aliveness. It is also possible to eliminate, sometimes instantaneously, psychosomatic, emotional and psychological symptoms that may have plagued you for decades.
One of the keys in this process is to eliminate the idea that any of these sensations are insignificant. While they may appear that way to you, labeling them as such interferes with their advancing in a manner that reveals their significance. Secondly, as you begin to notice the increasing amount and intensity of aches, pains and other disturbing sensations, you might be worried that they will interfere with your daily
functioning and that you will become more symptomatic. Though this might be a fear of yours, it is highly unlikely. If you do feel overwhelmed or "stuck," please enlist the help of a competent therapist trained in body-oriented therapy.*
It is hardly my intention to just open you up to the malfunctioning of your organism and leave you stuck there without an effective course of action or without a way even to retreat. Specifically, it is the purpose of this phase of the experiment to have you explore the chronic patterns of seemingly meaningless tensions and sensations that have become all-too-familiar features. Realize that these sensations were there long before you became deliberately aware of them. Furthermore, you will find that continuing application of directed awareness is exactly what will allow for "corrective procedures"—not so much by doing anything but by standing out of the way of your own organism's innate capacity for self-regulation.
The Continuity of Experience
The previous explorations involved proprioception and kinesthesia as the basis for awareness of the body's tendency toward action. In this exercise we now begin to explore the fusion of internal with external experience. This processing of the organism/environmental field is what steers our forward course.
Feeling is a continuous process involving varying degrees of pleasantness and unpleasantness. Feeling tones (based on physical sensations) are unique registrars of experience. They are the way that we become aware of our concerns and how we can go about satisfying them. These contours of feeling, however, are often unnoticed. This is in large part because of our lack of sensitivity to inner experiencing or because sensations are often hidden in the shadow of the more intense emotions. Most people are unaware of these nuances that are overshadowed by the periodic upheaval of discontinuous intense emotions that appear to come from nowhere. They may seem wholly irrational and even "dangerous," leading to suppression. This only further deadens the subtlety of the continuous feeling tones ... which in turn leads to the eruption of more overbearing emotional states punctuating those by increasing the flattening and deadness ... and so on. This is how various feeling tones become stifled before they are born into awareness. They are aborted during gestation, never completing what they were designed for: namely, directing action. The consequence of this lack is the evoking of "secondary emotions." These spurious emotions override (and are, unfortunately, often confused with) the spontaneously arising ones.
Exercise 4: Mindful Chewing
The jaw is one of the places that most people carry considerable tension. There are reasons for this. The following exercise may serve to illuminate both reasons for this typical "holding pattern" and what may lie on the other side of it, as it dissolves:
At your next meal, or with a crisp apple in hand, take a good "aggressive" bite into a food that you desire. Really, take a good bite out of it and then begin chewing deliberately. Continue chewing, slowly, mindfully, until the food turns to liquid. As you do this, become aware of other sensations and reactions in your body. If you feel the urge to swallow, try to restrain it—to "play the edge" of feeling the urge to swallow, when it arises, and continue to focus on gently chewing. This may be difficult and uncomfortable, so be patient. Note any impulses you might have such as the urge to swallow, tear, vomit, or associations to things going on in your life—present or past. If reactions such as nausea or anxiety become too strong, please don't push yourself. Make written notes of your reactions.
Exercise 5: Goldfish Jaw
Attend to the tension in your jaw and mouth. Notice whether your lips and teeth are touching. Slowly begin to part your lips and slightly drop your chin and lower jaw. Notice any impulses or urges. Next, infinitesimally slowly, begin opening and closing your mouth as though you were a goldfish. Gradually, almost imperceptibly, increase the range of your opening and closing. When you come to a point of resistance, gently back off and then slowly move back into the resistance. Do this several times, finding a rhythm. Likely, you will have a strong urge to yawn. Gently try to resist this and move into the feeling of yawning without actually giving into a full yawn. This process will almost surely be maddening, but try to stay with it as best as you can. Note times when you have an urge to shake or tremble or if it brings up emotional feelings or images. Note also if you seem to be fighting or bracing against it or to surrender into it. Again record your experience and compare it as you repeat this exercise over time.