Thank you
@iamthatis for your words of wisdom... I am no longer vegetarian since I met Laura and this forum which opened my eyes to so many things...It's not so much death that I fear for animals but "suffering"...As for the rabbit, when I was 7/8 years old my father (a soldier) found nothing better than to offer Mamn, my two little sisters and me the spectacle of killing a rabbit to eat it. ..I still remember this horrible scene perfectly today...I never ate rabbit again in my life because I vomited which scared my parents who never forced me to eat it again...Today I only eat grass-fed beef because I think it's a death that feeds a lot of people for a single kill...
I think that suffering is also something we don't understand in the West. It belongs to the dark shadowy stuff like blood, dirt, poverty, grief and sickness, etc., all the things we're supposed to overcome or ignore or shut out. We're all supposed to be happy, moving away from pain and towards pleasure, away from failure and towards success. IMO if we can't have life without death, in the same way we can't really experience joy without suffering. They are also two sides of the same coin.
There's the Buddhist saying that life is suffering. It's inevitable here. But what do I do with that fact? Become a victim? I tried that for a long time. I was pretty blown away with J.G. Bennet's description of Gurdjieff's 'doctrine of reciprocal maintenance', which is the idea that our suffering feeds a certain type of vibration the higher ones and helps the world keep on turn, the sun keep on rising, and the water keep on flowing, the harmonious movement of the whole solar system. This is analogous to the way that the suffering of animals and plants, those lower than us on the scale of being, feed us and keep our society going. So there's a heroic option in terms of suffering - we can choose to suffer and direct our sacrifice to feed those higher than we are, and helps to maintain the cosmos. Gurdjieff had a name for this spiritual ecology food pyramid, the Trogoautoegocrat. Everything is always eating, and we are food whether we like it or not. We do get a choice in whom we feed - we can feed the forces of darkness or the forces of light.
Jordan Peterson says that the antidote to suffering is responsibility. I think that's a great way to look at all this. With the Fourth Way we can understand that our suffering can be a force for good in the world, taking responsibility for our small and sometimes confusing role as human beings, and doing the best we can in our own lives, which emits vibrations that support or feed those higher than us. Suffering also helps us directly, too, by up-regulating our DNA and clearing our karmic debts. This cleans out our channels of static, and helps to form the conduit for goodness, beauty and truth to flow into this fallen world. So it's in this sense that intentional suffering and responsibility is the road to joy. I like this poem by Khalil Gibran,
On Pain:
And a woman spoke, saying, Tell us of Pain.
And he said:
Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.
Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun,
so must you know pain.
And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life
your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy;
And you would accept the seasons of your heart,
even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields.
And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief.
Much of your pain is self-chosen.
It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self.
Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility:
For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by the tender hand of the Unseen,
And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has been fashioned of the clay
which the Potter has moistened with His own sacred tears.
It might be that the suffering of animals is similar to our own - their suffering may also help to up-regulate their DNA and could be an important step on their path to 3D. Who knows. It's definitely a strong vibration, tho, and when we're small and innocent and accustomed to teddy bears and pets and cartoons, it can be shocking to witness pain, blood, and death. But that's just growing up, coming to know the price of life. I do think it makes sense to minimize the amount of suffering an animal goes through in killing them, tho, as that is a way of taking responsibility for their lives, and honouring their sacrifice in trying to ensure their passage is smooth. And a death at human hands is often quicker than in the wild. A good shot will end the life quickly, whereas a pack of wolves will start eating the entrails while a moose is still alive and kicking. There's a poem by Leslie Marmon Silko, conjuring up a deer who makes a willing agreement to go along with the death and the suffering. Maybe this is the 2D group soul speaking. To me at least, it present the challenge of killing with love.
Deer Song
Storm winds carry snow
to the mountain stream
clotted white in silence,
pale blue streak under ice
to the sea.
The ice shatters into glassy
bone splinters that tear deep into
soft parts of the hoof.
Swimming away from the wolves
before dawn
choking back salt water
the steaming red froth tide.
It is necessary.
Reflections that blind
from a thousand feet of
gray schist
snow-covered in dying winter sunlight.
The pain is numbed by the freezing,
the depths of the night sky,
the distance beyond pale stars.
Do not think that I do not love you
if I scream
while I die.
Antler and thin black hoof
smashed against dark rock -
the struggle is the ritual
shining teeth tangled in
sinew and flesh.
You see,
I will go with you
because you call softly
because you are my brother
and my sister.
Because the mountain is
our mother.
I will go with you
because you love me
while I die.