Colleen Johnston and Vincent Bridges Trash Laura and cassiopaea
Yes, it has been addressed, and no, this woman has never met me. Yes, she is part of the Bridges COINTELPRO gang.
If you would like to hear the radio show that I did that she "heard" and which galvanized her to attack me (not to mention her military connections and her close relationship with Vincent Bridges) go
HERE.
Funny that this comes up again so soon. It really is vicious and the psychopath really does have "secret knowledge" of the psychology of the normal human. I wrote about this in another forum recently, not this specific individual, but the general gang spreading this filth.
http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=395
Laura said:
esoquest said:
As for the "scratch" test, just writing as you do is a scratch for most psychotics. That is one level. Other psychotics or latent psychotics of both leader and follower varieties can, however, fly under the initial radar by performing their own "corrections" upon the information. However, maintaining a facade (even if they convince themselves that they believe it) is highly stressful for even the most covert psychotics when their needs are not consistently met. Eventually, they will crack. Understanding this dynamic is very important for damage control among other things.
This is oh, so true. Among the earliest experiences we had with our discussion groups was just this problem. I think it happened a dozen times or more in the past five years. And in nearly every case, once the individual was exposed, pretty much following the same dynamic as Durand (even to falling into a greater or lesser degree of verbal confusion), we would send them on their way with our blessings that they should make their own lives, their own websites, and promote their own ideas as they saw fit and leave us to ours. And, in nearly every case, no sooner had we had this bifurcation of ways, they went on the attack. It was the damndest thing I ever saw. We didn't attack them, we simple expressed the desire to be allowed to think our own thoughts, live according to our own lights, and congregate with others who were likeminded. That was IT! No big secret cult, no frauds, nothing but a wish to not have to include such as Durand in our discussions where endless time and energy was wasted just trying to deal with everyone of their twists and turns.
The thing that bugged us the most about this was our observation of such individuals after they had left our group. I never in my life witnessed such outright lies, distortions, twisted facts, declared with such absolute certainty that it literally disoriented us.
That was why we began to study the phenomenon.
Next you write:
It seems to me, a normal person sends out an energy signature the psychotic can recognize. I have seen this recognition many times where psychotics label others as placed on either side of the "with us or against us" line. This has nothing to do with disagreements or differences in opinion and ideology. It goes far deeper. In my view, healthy people need to learn to turn the tables on the psychotics, and part of immunity (again according to my own observations) is the conscious building of an energy signature that does not compute for the psychotic.
I cannot really find all the concepts to properly convey this, as I am still exploring it, but it has to do with maintaining unshakeable integrity, and a kind of energetic symmetric of centered but healthy conviction. The psychotic field seeks to influence through holes in personal integrity, which is why they love to use divide and conquer tactics, the promotion of guilt, doubt and fear. I understand Carlos Castaneda addresses the issue of dealing with petty tyrants among other things, but I also believe that for a normal person to be vulnerable to psychotic attack that person must have endured an already advanced undermining of the personal energy field through varied degrees of trauma and psychological stress imposed by more minor dealings with psychosis in family and society. (This basically includes everyone).
It is similar to what the elite is doing to human bodies through vaccinations, food toxins, chemtrails and other methods. Notice that they do not move unless they have at first weakened and undermined their intended victims, like a spider needing to sting its prey into paralysis before it begins consuming it.
This idea is something that has exercised me to no end. As recently as a week ago the issue came up again due to an experience I had that made it clear to me that I am NOT as immune as I would like to think I am. What is funny is that it seems Lobaczewski "sensed" something was wrong and wrote an email to me saying "I am uneasy, is something wrong?" I wrote him back last night a long description of the incident.
The short version is that I decided to deliberately expose myself to psychopathy, up close and personal. It was like a personal "test." Even though it seemed like, on the surface, that I was unaffected, within a day or so of this exposure, I noticed that my mind kept going back to the schizoidal psychopathic declarations.
Now, keep in mind that, in this case I am talking about, it is not someone who falls into schizoidal jabberwocky under pressure that can be easily discarded. No indeed, this individual is smooth, calm, uses lots of language that promotes himself as a great teacher, teacher of love and light, and so on. What is different is his plain, simple, and ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN declarations that are LIES. And I mean that I KNOW they are lies. I also know that HE knows they are lies. In other words, I know he is lying CONSCIOUSLY, and he does it with such sincerity, with such compelling certainty that it is staggering! And the lies are all about ME. One of the most bizarre of these lies is that I plagiarized my own autobiography!!!! I mean, that just FLOORS me!
So, to observe him operate, to observe him work on an innocent party, an individual who might even be thought reasonably critical, was quite amazing. Not a single one of the people under the spell of this psychopath has ever thought that it might be useful to ask my family or friends (many of whom read said volume before it was published for fact checking purposes) whether or not my autobiography is plagiarized or not. Or to ask me personally about anything. He makes a big issue about demanding that I answer a whole list of questions in public that cannot be answered in public because the answers include extremely personal information about private people that I have no intention of making public for their safety as well as my own.
But I KNOW all that. I know how spellbinders work, and how they always travel with a "Greek Chorus" even if they often create the image on the internet that there are more people following them than really are by playing different parts on message boards and "talking to themselves" half the time. It still works on gullible people. It's almost comical to observe because the writing styles give them away so easily.
As I said, after this hour or so of self-torture, I thought - well, that was easy! Three years ago I would have taken to my bed for days after reading such lies told about myself! Now I can read it and even chuckle at some of the more outlandish claims that people suck up like manna.
But something strange happened: I began to question myself. Not about the facts... but about reality itself. What got to me was, strangely enough, the "pity factor." Here was a small group of people just literally SCREAMING that I had hurt them!!! I had, in some way, destroyed their lives. They were wounded, damaged, looked to me for help and I just brazenly took advantage of them and cast them aside. That was one variation. Another variation was that I was destroying the minds of other human beings (possibly untold numbers) talking about Organic Portals, or psychopaths, propagating the C's material, etc.
So it wasn't the lies that were told about me personally (or my husband, or our group) that affected me. Since I knew with certainty that those were lies, I have documents and dozens of witnesses, and so on, that isn't even the issue. The issue was the question as to whether or not what I am doing hurts people or not.
So, I forgot the main rule: Do NOT consider anything produced out of schizoidal rants as an idea which I ought to consider in the context of my own convictions and reason.
In other words, at some level, as I repeatedly recalled to mind the words emerging from the apparently anguished rage of these individuals, I began to interpret them in a manner corresponding to my own nature.
And it was PITY that opened the door. I began to HURT for those people who claimed that I had hurt them.
It was all downhill from there.
I began to think: "well, if these people think I am so awful, maybe I am?!" And then I began to start looking
at myself and everything I had ever said and done in a very negative light. I began to wonder if someone like me - obviously so different from these other people - has a right to exist since my existence causes pain to others. How dare I come along and take their happy lives away from them by expecting them to do the very hard (admittedly so) work that is required to find something of truth? After all, if they are so happy believing lies, what right do I have to upset that apple cart and cause them pain?
Then things began to really deteriorate. After taking the thoughts that far, I began to question my own view of everything. I began to ask myself do you really KNOW what is the difference between good and evil? After all, if these people believe YOU are evil, maybe they are right and you are wrong. What right do you have to exist?
Now remember, I am falling into this state all the while knowing the FACTS that are incontrovertible that I can see they are lying about. What's more, I can see that they are lying CONSCIOUSLY.
But still, their declared pain has evoked pity in me and that pity was the spider's web. Something mysterious began to act on my mind in a strange way and the result was that I found myself feeling exactly as though
I had no right to do anything, to want anything, no right to ask for anything, no right to live even. Everything I had ever done had done nothing but hurt other people. All these people were hurt, they were all
screaming out loud how I had hurt them, and obviously such a person as myself ought to just do the right thing and go out behind the barn and shoot myself and save the world further misery.
It took me about four days to come out of it. It was like falling into a black hole of despair and self doubt and self-accusation. It was slow and insidious, like poison.
So, it seems that I'm pretty good with dealing with the intellectual side of it, but when the pity ploy comes along, I'm still the world's biggest sucker. The instant I think that someone has been hurt by me or by something I have done, even inadvertently, I am almost drowning in suffering.
It lasted about four days. The time previous to that, about 8 months ago, involved someone close to me who was subverted by this filth. In THAT case, it was a lot worse. I ended up with a herniated cervical disc that took two months to heal.
What to do? How to make oneself not only intellectually immune, but also emotionally immune?
As I said, I don't even think that Colleen Johnston wrote this piece because we already have Jay Weidner on record saying that Bridges wrote defamatory articles about us and signed Weidner's name to them. The question as to why Weidner allowed this (did Bridges have something he wanted?) is interesting. Anyway, I am not sure that Colleen wrote the article herself because it has the "style" and flavor of Vincent Bridges. You can read about Bridges here:
http://www.cassiopaea.com/archive/most.htm
and you can see the stack of paper on the subject we have, though there are things we cannot publish or talk about because of legal restrictions:
http://www.cassiopaea.com/Vincent_Bridges_COINTELPRO_Agent/index.html
I can say that we do have evidence that Bridges spent a few years in a mental hospital, but we cannot get an affidavit on that because those kinds of records are restricted in the U.S. If a criminal trial was going on, there is the possibility that a prosecutor could obtain the records, but as private individuals, we could not.
The unique ability of psychopaths to induce psychological disintegration in a normal person is their most powerful weapon. A person has to have an extremely strong mind to resist this invasion of the personality. I admit that when I read the long and detailed stories that Bridges writes about me on the internet that I come away wondering if I am the horrible person he depicts. Even when I KNOW that what he is saying is either completely lies or truth so twisted out of context that it is - for all intents and purposes a lie, I have to fight to keep my mind from falling into a pit.
Let me give you an example. Two years ago I wrote an email to casschat sharing with them the details of our visit to Marseille when Ark went there to work with a scientific colleague/friend. We were invited as guests of the Institution and we stayed in the guest facility. We ate in the guest dining room, and we took a couple of excursions while there. On the day before we left, our friends took us out in their boat for a little cruise around the bay and to an island off Marseille for dinner.
That was the sum and substance of the email. I was just sharing the story of our recent trip and what we did and saw with casschat members. All pretty normal, wouldn't you say?
Well, a few days later it appeared on Vincent Bridges website (he had been a disguised member of casschat). HIS description of it was that our "cult followers were being fleeced to pay for luxury vacations and cruises in the Mediterranean."
Now, as you probably have guessed by now, the only thing WE paid for was our fuel to get to Marseille and back and I had to pay for my meals. (Ark's were provided.) So where does the "luxury vacation and cruise" come from?
Didn't stop Bridges from creating an entire myth by twisting and distorting facts.
On another occasion, in Florida, Ark gave a presentation for a research project to a man representing several businessment who were interested in investing in energy research. This showed up on Bridges website as "Ark Jadczyk, the cold-war nuke scientist trying to con a rich man out of his money." (Words to that effect.)
Now, money: Bridges and his gang have made money such an issue that it surely must be the chief thing they want to make sure we don't have so that we can never do any effective research. They keep ranting that Ark should "get a regular job." To their minds, a "regular job" is driving a truck or putting cans on the shelf in the supermarket.
Well, of course that isn't in in their minds, but they know that the people they are hoping to hook are dumbed down truck drivers, bag boys, waitresses, ect. So they play the "get a real job" card and for people who think that academic research is just a cushy way to make money and do very little, it really grabs them and they say "Yeah, what's that guy doing racking his brains 16 hours a day, 7 days a week! What does he think he's doing? Trying to solve the mysteries of the universe? How dare he!"
And so on.
Everyone who knows us is aware how hard Ark works. They are aware of how hard I work. And the SOTT team as well. We generally put in 16 hours a day, every day - all of us. Ark works under his research grants, the SOTT team and I write and live on our book sales income.
Now tell me, please, what is abnormal or "cultish" or even illegal about any of that?
But to read Colleen and Bridges, you would think that we are the most evil and conniving and fraudulent human beings on the planet.
Hundreds of people who know us personally know better. They know us and interact with us. As I said, I have NEVER met Colleen Johnston, who claims to be an expert on me and my affairs, and I have only met Bridges twice, and both times he was trying to con me. I refused to be conned, I refused to give him the rights to my books, and he went on the attack and has done everything in his power to destroy me ever since.
It has been a horrible, almost unbearable experience. I have spent a small fortune on doctors just to deal with the stress.
It has been absolutely unbelievable and even soul destroying to me to have people who know me and who also KNEW the facts to be taken in by Bridges and his lies - and it HAS happened. Believe it or not!
What it comes down to is that I am not to be allowed a private life at all. The only way that I see that I can defend myself is to publish every single private detail of my life, including my bank statements, my tax returns, deeds to all properties I might own, and so on and so forth and that is perfectly ridiculous. How many of you reading this would be willing to do that?
I think that is a horrible state of affairs - that a person has to spend all their time defending themselves from such attacks - just to continue to work at what interests them. It's even worse considering the nature of that specific work and how much benefit it has brought to other people.
But let me back up a bit.
The whole COINTELPRO thing didn't start with Vinnie Bridges. It started out being the UFO crowd types. Back in 1993, I was a firm non-believer in any such thing. I had the idea it was a sort of attention getting hysteria. I had read Streiber's book, was extremely disturbed by it, and immediately began to formulate a reasonable hypothesis based on theories of mind that explained it all away. I referred to it as "the millennial disease."
Then, in August of 1993, my children and I experienced a sighting right over our own house. Again, I tried to explain it away with "rational" theories. The only problem was that I suffered from symptoms of something like radiation poisoning for about six months afterward. This included, as time went by, about half my hair falling out which has never come back. (It's okay, it was so thick I still have plenty, just isn't what it used to be.) My dog died from a mysterious wasting illness within three months of the sighting, and my children experienced some bizarre psychological effects that took a number of years to stabilize (and I'm not sure that they have completely.)
That shocked me profoundly and set me off on my search for answers.
I had been doing hypnotherapy for about 19 years at that point, and had never encountered anyone who claimed to have experienced an alien abduction, so it was a surprise to me that suddenly they were just crawling out of the woodwork. I was determined to prove my "theory of mind" hypothesis, or even that such ideas related to suppression of early abuse, but that fell flat, to put it mildly. The only good thing was that, since I was not indoctrinated into the "aliens are here to save us, they are GOOD" ideas, but rather had a more prosaic approach, the information that came from my clients was not influenced by me trying to help them retrieve memories that promoted such an agenda.
One case that came along (synchronistically, wouldn't ya know?) was one that I thought could be investigated scientifically. Since I had a friend who was an ex-cop turned Private Eye with connections to police labs, and there WAS alleged physical evidence, I decided to take the client to him, treat the matter as a crime (rape, abduction, etc) and do a thorough forensic investigation.
There was a MUFON investigator involved on the periphery, and as soon as he got wind of this, all hell broke loose.
That was when the first attacks began.
This man (the MUFON guy) went around telling everyone that I was "using this client" as a "ticket to fame and glory" and my plans to do a real investigation were "criminal" because the poor woman was so traumatized that she just needed to be "understood" and not pawed over by a bunch of government agents. Of course, by this he meant that if the evidence was turned over to a police lab, this would happen and the evidence would very likely disappear etc.
Well, the fact was that there was NO plan to inform the police lab techs that there was anything "unusual" about the samples they were supposed to extract from the clothing. It was to be presented to them as a straight rape/abduction.
I was shocked beyond anything at these accusations. From my point of view, I wanted to know one thing and one thing only, and I believed that it was crucial for the client to know this also, and that was: was it a real abduction? Did something physical happen? Once that was established, then a proper therapeutic model could be mapped for her. After all, from my point of view, we needed to know if she was imagining things, and if so why, or if something REAL had happened.
Needless to say, this MUFON guy grabbed onto the poor woman, convinced her I was just going to use her, that she should refuse to submit her evidence to me, that instead, she should give it to HIM. He was, after all, a REAL MUFON "investigator."
By this time, I had about three sessions with the woman under hypnosis. The last session, I had my private eye friend present to advise about questions that ought to be asked for forensic purposes. I should mention that she showed up for this last session with bruises on her arms and legs that looked like they had been made with 3 finger hands - very strange. Under hypnosis, she claimed to have been abducted by the military. I later learned that she had been out the night before with the MUFON guy, wining and dining and possibly even engaging in hanky panky.
Well, anyway, the MUFON guy gathered a group of people together and the defamation began on a local scale. The poor woman, under pressure from this group, withdrew from the plan to do a complete investigation and instead, handed her evidence over to the MUFON guy. The last I heard, they shook the dress out over a shower curtain and found a couple of fibers which one of the other MUFON people, a water tester at a local waste water recycling plant, attempted to do some "experiments" on in the water lab.
I was totally disgusted with the whole thing. I was disgusted with MUFON, with the whole UFO/Alien crowd and wanted nothing more to do with any of them ever again. What a bunch of LUNATICS.
But, I did have enough material from a number of so-called "alien abductees" to begin thinking about things. I started reading everything I could get my hands on, writing to people, calling people, trying to find out if what my clients had said had any correlation to anything anybody else had found. What I discovered was that the whole field had been pretty much taken over by crazy people who just wanted to believe in the "space brothers" and utilizing any scientific principles in gathering and assessing evidence was NOT part of their agenda.
Because I had a couple of friends in MUFON who were not associated with this other nutcase, I was invited to give a talk at one of their meetings. I was going to present the evidence I had thus far collected, as well as talk about what I had learned about my own sighting. Originally, I was alotted an hour to speak, but at the last minute, my time was cut to 15 minutes - probably due to the defamation of the MUFON "investigator." (He later turned out to be a complete fraud, by the way, but that's another story.)
Still, because of this talk, I was contacted by Tom French from the St. Pete Times who then began to hang out with me for about 5 years. He, too, was interested in the whole thing and whether or not anything real was happening. Now, keep in mind that this man spent FIVE YEARS following me around, talking to everyone I knew, talking to clients, friends, family, doing background investigations, and everything.
Because the rumor went around that the St. Pete Times was taking an interest in what I was doing, there were bouquets and daggers. Along with some death threats by anonymous phone calls, there were also a number of invitations to speak at various gatherings. I did a few, and basically I was presenting my thoughts about the phenomenon based on the data I had collected along with what I had obtained from my clients, and the picture was not as rosy as the people who believed in the Space brothers would have us think.
After a couple of such talks, the death threats got more threatening. I stopped talking to groups since it was just too much hassle to deal with all that nonsense AND continue researching.
In the meantime, of course, the Cass experiment had taken off and I was more interested in that anyway - at least for the moment.
So, I dropped out of sight for about a year and just continued to do research. (I was also in an auto accident and broke my neck and had to spend three days a week in therapy to get full use of my arms and legs back.)
During this time I was sharing a bit of the info with a few people - it's all a long story, much of it recounted in the Wave and Adventures Series. (But not everything.)
Things really started getting warm when we finally put a real website up in '98. Not long after, I started writing the Wave Series which was just recounting all my investigations and experiences and pretty much showing how completely corrupt and full of disinformation the whole New Age/UFO research field was.
This work attracted the attention of a guy named Ray Flowers who has this website: http://www.sangraal.com/
He "introduced" me to Vincent Bridges via the net. Vincent seemed to be such a great guy, so knowledgable, so helpful...
But Vincent was - apparently - the "agent" being sent in to co-opt me, my discussion group, my work, etc. Only in retrospect do I realize this... He was supposed to associate me with some pretty nasty stuff so that I could be tarred with a nasty brush. I managed (because of C's, my husband and friends) to navigate my way out of that mess. But, once I had escaped the clutches of the guy and foiled those plans, (which I later learned are typical COINTELPRO) then the next level of cointelpro was activated: libel, defamation, fake emails, the whole nine yards.
I was accused, (with my husband) of trying to start a cult, of fleecing "cult members" of really absurd things like promoting suicide... That last one is actually so bizarre as to be incomprehensible to me. I have a favorite saying "We ain't gonna get out of this life alive, so we might as well make the best of it and do everything we can to leave the world a better place when we are gone..." Somehow, that saying got twisted to "We ain't gonna get out of this alive..." leaving off the rest of it, the meaning attributed to me that we ought to all commit suicide!!!!
One of my favorites is that I "plagiarized" my autobiography!!!!
Well, things just got worse and worse as time went by. More death threats. My dog (offspring of the one that had died after the UFO sighting) was poisoned and died, my oldest daughter was run off the road three times by what seemed to be "road rage" infected lunatics. The third time resulted in a serious accident that totaled her car. My second daughter was poisoned at a gathering of kids and spent three days on life support, nobody thought she would live; our names and addresses were posted on an ADL group (the anti- Semitism label was being widely used by Bridges and his cohorts), and it was suggested that anyone in our area should "take care of us," and on and on and on. False police reports were filed against us for abusing our children (thankfully, the police chief in our town knew us and just warned us that this was being done) and so on. Bridges called Tom French to repeat his filth to him. Tom wrote and told me about it. We complained to the FBI, the FDLE, etc etc. The special agent for FDLE told me on the phone that they could do nothing because it was "out of their jurisdiction," since it was being done from another state. He then suggested that if I didn't like what was being done to me that I ought to stop doing what I was doing that set Bridges off!!! In other words, Bridges could do whatever he liked, including filing false police reports, stalking, harassment, defamation, libel, slander, coercion, etc... and their answer was: well, "give in to him."
My husband was working for DoD and they were pushing to have him naturalized so he could get sucked into their secret projects...
George Bush was banging the war drum and I was already doing the signs page and getting hate mail for that almost every day.
Vincent Bridges had a whole website defaming me that actually made me deathly ill at one point.
So, we just said: this is TOO much, we are outta here.
Well, I made a big mistake at that point. Since we were in a hurry to leave (for obvious reasons) and we needed to sell our house as fast as possible, we decided to raffle it off rather than risk taking 6 months or a year to sell it. The raffle was a huge failure since we didn't even get half of the money to pay off the mortgage (it wasn't a very big one either!) So, we borrowed on our credit cards to make up the difference, our readers and discussion group members pooled enough cash to help us move, we picked a winner, left the checks and power of attorney with a local attorney and our neighbor to handle the transfer of the house (that was the mistake part) and left.
Serious barriers seemed to have been put in the way of the winner taking possession of the house. There were taxes that had to be paid based on the value of the house and instead of helping this person to take care of that, (which could have been done), our representatives apparently made it an insuperable obstacle and that meant that the winner had to be disqualified. Then the situation seems to have been a battle between the atty and the neighbor for possession of the house. Keep in mind that both of them had our contact details but neither of them contacted us about this asking what should they do and they, themselves, did nothing except try to outwait the other so that the house would go into foreclosure and one of them could pick it up at auction for 10 cents on the dollar.
We were, by this time, settling in France and thinking that everything was all sorted out. By the time we learned what was going on, it was already a disaster and we could do absolutely nothing about it. We had already had to pay double to get our household goods delivered after they were held-hostage by a Jewish moving company so we were broke.
In the middle of all this, a woman called me from Florida one night and said she wanted the house and even needed it badly. I told her the situation and explained that if she wanted it she would have to get an attorney and fight for it, that whatever she proposed I would agree to.
So, she put her attorney on the problem, came up with a plan and went in, made an offer with her attorney behind her, and the crooked jerk we left with our POA had no choice but to transfer the house to her because I was agreeing to everything she wanted - including a price that was half the value of the house. At this point, it was necessary because the checks we had left to pay off the note were now no longer valid since it was past 90 days.
So, basically, we lost our shirts in more ways than one, and between the people we left to handle this simple transaction and the movers who held up all our goods for two months, we ended up looking like we had deliberately pulled a "fast one" when nothing could have been further from the truth. I'm pretty sure that any reasonable person can see why I simply chose not to discuss it any further because, by this time, there were innocent people involved (the people who got the house) as well as not-so-innocent people that I could do nothing about whatsoever. They covered their tracks well.
Going back to the point in time when we left the U.S. Two months after we arrived in France, we pulled out whole website down. I wanted to change the focus so that we would quit attracting the lunatic fringe UFO true believer types. I also wanted to see what would happen on the cointelpro front if we simply "disappeared." Sure enough, the minute the website was gone, they thought they had accomplished their job and all the defamation about us was taken down and it was as though we had never existed.
Then, we began to restore the site section by section. I wrote the "MOSSAD and Moving Companies" article and put it up and things went crazy again. Jay Weidner, friend and co-author of a totally ridiculous book about Fulcanelli with Vincent Bridges bought a website "cassiopaea.net" and put up a whole twisted, sickening, defamatory "story of my life." Back again were the "cult" accusations, the "drink the kool aid" nonsense, and now, the "House raffle fraud" ... We were accused of fleecing the public of between 100 K and half a million dollars. (A complete lie. All my records have been audited and, as I said, we lost our shirts. When the report is completed, it will be published.) It was announced by Bridges with great certainty that the FBI were after us, I was a sick victim of child abuse, my children were abused, I had "entrapped" my husband, I was an alcoholic (I was a teetotaler for 25 years), I was an "attempted murderer" and just about every sick thing that could ever be said about a person was written by Vincent Bridges and Jay Weidner - close friends of Jeff Rense and Ray Flowers (though I didn't know that at the time.)
Jeff invited me to speak on his show because Richard Sauder wrote a favorable article about the C's and the MOSSAD article. So, Vincent and Jay launched an attack against Richard too...
I don't think I have ever seen Rense invite someone else to speak on his show and then, at the same time, publish defamatory articles about them. We had to threaten legal action... and got a lame excuse. "Oh, he hadn't read it, he just trusted Weidner... so sorry... "
I've left out a LOT of stuff here. But now, to answer the central question in short: Vincent Bridges, Jay Weidner, Colleen Johnston, Jeff Rense, are the central players in the "Third Party Attack" protocol that appears to be completely disconnected from any gov agency. BUT, when you begin to dig into their backgrounds and connections, you find that it is not as simple as it appears on the surface. We have several researchers who have been mapping these relationships and the network of COINTELPRO is absolutely astonishing.
And that's about as short as I can make the whole story. Fourteen years of pure hell just to be able to tell the truth as I see it. There seems to be no escaping from the horror of being stalked by those monsters. I fully expect my words written here to appear tomorrow or the next day on one of Bridges' sites or some forum where he holds court, twisted out of all recognition, embellished, declamations being made, and so on. So, I'll finish this off with what Lobaczewski wrote to me about that after I wrote to him to describe what had happened to me.
Laura said:
I said:
This idea is something that has exercised me to no end. As recently as a week ago the issue came up again due to an experience I had that made it clear to me that I am NOT as immune as I would like to think I am. What is funny is that it seems Lobaczewski "sensed" something was wrong and wrote an email to me saying "I am uneasy, is something wrong?" I wrote him back last night a long description of the incident.
Thought I would share the exchange with Lobaczewski that resulted from this incident (along with a few comments):
Lobaczewski said:
Rzeszów, thursday, 2. March 2006
Dear Madame Laura.
Thank you for your long and sincere letter of 24 February. It permits me to be a little bit helpful for you.
The experiences with your persecutors and your own responses are calling to my mind the very similar, we passed many years ago during the time of compulsory "ideological indoctrination". Please also read this again. (page 144 in the pre-print) Then take an attitude of a naturalist and study, in a objective way, the typical responses of a psychopathic personality to your activieties. It will render you more immune in result.
Here I will insert the passage Lobaczewski refers to:
Ponerology said:
May the reader please imagine a very large hall in some old Gothic university building. Many of us gathered there early in our studies in order to listen to the lectures of outstanding philosophers. We were herded back there the year before graduation in order to listen to the indoctrination lectures which recently had been introduced.
Someone nobody knew appeared behind the lectern and informed us that he would now be the professor. His speech was fluent, but there was nothing scientific about it: he failed to distinguish between scientific and everyday concepts and treated borderline imaginations as though it were wisdom that could not be doubted.
For ninety minutes each week, he flooded us with naive, presumptuous paralogistics and a pathological view of human reality. We were treated with contempt and poorly controlled hatred. Since fun poking could entail dreadful consequences, we had to listen attentively and with the utmost gravity.
The grapevine soon discovered this person's origins. He had come from a Cracow suburb and attended high school, although no one knew if he had graduated. Anyway, this was the first time he had crossed university portals, as a professor, at that!
"You can't convince anyone this way!" we whispered to each other. "It's actually propaganda directed against themselves." But after such mind-torture, it took a long time for someone to break the silence. We studied ourselves, since we felt something strange had taken over our minds and something valuable was leaking away irretrievably. The world of psychological reality and moral values seemed suspended as if in a chilly fog. Our human feeling and student solidarity lost their meaning, as did patriotism and our old established criteria. So we asked each other, "are you going through this too"? Each of us experienced this worry about his own personality and future in his own way. Some of us answered the questions with silence. The depth of these experiences turned out to be different for each individual.
We thus wondered how to protect ourselves from the results of this "indoctrination". Teresa D. made the first suggestion: Let's spend a weekend in the mountains. It worked. Pleasant company, a bit of joking, then exhaustion followed by deep sleep in a shelter, and our human personalities returned, albeit with a certain remnant. Time also proved to create a kind of psychological immunity, although not with everyone.
Analyzing the psychopathic characteristics of the "professor's" personality proved another excellent way of protecting one's own psychological hygiene.
You can just imagine our worry, disappointment, and surprise when some colleagues we knew well suddenly began to change their world-view; their thought-patterns furthermore reminded us of the "professor's" chatter. Their feelings, which had just recently been friendly, became noticeably cooler, although not yet hostile. Benevolent or critical student arguments bounced right of them. They gave the impression of possessing some secret knowledge; we were only their former colleagues, still believing what those professors of old had taught us. We had to be careful of what we said to them. Our former colleagues soon joined the Party.
Who were they, what social groups did they come from, what kind of students and people were they? How and why did they change so much in less than a year? Why did neither I nor a majority of my fellow students succumb to this phenomenon and process? Many such questions fluttered through our heads then.
Those times, questions, and attitudes gave rise to the idea that this phenomenon could be objectively understood, an idea whose greater meaning crystallized with time. Many of us participated in the initial observations and reflections, but most crumbled away in the face of material or academic problems. Only a few remained; so the author of this book may be the last of the Mohicans.
It was relatively easy to determine the environments and origin of the people who succumbed to this process, which I then called "transpersonification". They came from all social groups, including aristocratic and fervently religious families, and caused a break in our student solidarity to the order of some 6 %.
The remaining majority suffered varying degrees of personality disintegration which gave rise to individual efforts in searching for the values necessary to find ourselves again; the results were varied and sometimes creative.
Even then, we had no doubts as to the pathological nature of this "transpersonification" process, which ran similar but not identical in all cases. The duration of the results of this phenomenon also varied. Some of these people later became zealots. Others later took advantage of various circumstances to withdraw and re-establish their lost links to the society of normal people. They were replaced. The only constant value of the new social system was the magic number of 6 %.
We tried to evaluate the talent level of those colleagues who had succumbed to this personality-transformation process, and reached the conclusion that on average, it was slightly lower than the average of the student population. Their lesser resistance obviously resided in other bio-psychological features which were most probably qualitatively heterogeneous.
I had to study subjects bordering on psychology and psychopathology in order to answer the questions arising from our observations; scientific neglect in these areas proved an obstacle difficult to overcome. At the same time, someone guided by special knowledge apparently vacated the libraries of anything we could have found on the topic.
Analyzing these occurrences now in hindsight, we could say that the "professor" was dangling bait over our heads, based on the psychopaths's above-mentioned specific psychological knowledge. He knew in advance that he would fish out amenable individuals but the limited numbers disappointed him.
The transpersonification process generally took hold whenever an individual's instinctive substratum was marked by pallor or some deficits. To a lesser extent, it also worked among people who manifested other deficiencies, also the state provoked within them was partially impermanent, being largely the result of psychopathological induction.
This knowledge about the existence of susceptible individuals and how to work on them will continue being a tool for world conquest as long as it remains the secret of such "professors". When it becomes skillfully popularized science, it will help nations develop immunity. But none of us knew this at the time.
Nevertheless, we must admit that in demonstrating the properties of pathocracy in such a way as to force us into in-depth experience, the professor helped us understand the nature of the phenomenon in a larger scope than many a true scientific researcher participating in this work in one way or another.
Now, back to Lobaczewski's letter:
Lobaczewski said:
Their furies are to be understand as the symptomatical responses. For them you are the worst enemy. You are hurting them very painfully. For a psychopath, revealing his real condition, tearing down his Cleckley-mask, brings the end of his self-admiration. You are threating them with destroying of their secret world, and bring to null their dreams of ruling and introducing their best social system possible. When his real condition is publicly revealed, a psychopath feels like a wounded animal. In such conditions, suicidal thoughts are common among them.
To defend themselves they are using all the possibilities that nature endowed them with. The unusual creativity of suggestive innuendos, new catchwords and so on, they employ is their typical way. (Look page 167). Therefore, such aggession could be readily foreseen! And so you have an opportunity to study this phenomenon of psychopathic nature.
Again, I will insert the relevant passage that Lobaczewski has indicated:
Ponerology said:
Psychopaths are conscious of being different from the world of normal people. That is why the "political system" inspired by their nature conceals an awareness of being different. When we just observe the role of ideology in this macrosocial phenomenon, quite conscious of the existence of this specific awareness, we understand why ideology is relegated to a tool-like role: something useful in dealing with those other naive people and nations. Pathocrats must nevertheless appreciate the function of ideology as being something essential in any ponerogenic group, especially in the macrosocial phenomenon which is their "homeland". This factor of awareness simultaneously constitutes a certain qualitative difference between the two above-mentioned relationships. They know their real ideology derived from their deviant natures, and treat the "other" with barely concealed contempt.
A well-developed pathocratic system thus no longer has a clear and direct relationship to its original ideology, which it only keeps as its primary, traditional tool for action. For practical purposes of pathocratic expansion, other ideologies may be useful, even if they contradict the main one and heap moral denunciation upon it. However, these other ideologies must be used with care, refraining from official acknowledgement within environments wherein the original ideology appears overly foreign, discredited, and useless.
The main ideology succumbs to symptomatic deformation, in keeping with the characteristic style of this very disease and with what has already been stated about the matter. The names and official contents are kept, but another different content is insinuated underneath, thus giving rise to the well-known double talk phenomenon within which the same names have two meanings: one for initiates, one for everyone else. The latter is derived from the original ideology; the former has a specifically pathocratic meaning, something which is known not only to the pathocrats themselves, but also to those people living under long-term subjection to their rule.
Doubletalk is only one of many symptoms. Others are the specific facility for producing new names which have suggestive effects and are accepted virtually uncritically, in particular outside the immediate scope of such a system's rule. We must thus point out the para-moralistic character and paranoidal qualities frequently contained within these names. The action of paralogisms and paramoralisms in this deformed ideology becomes comprehensible to us based on the information presented in Chapter IV. Anything which threatens pathocratic rule becomes deeply immoral. This also applies to the concept of forgiving the pathocrats themselves; it is extremely dangerous and thus "immoral".
Back again to the letter:
Lobaczewski said:
Take also some pity for the psychopaths, but for yourself as well. Dose your activity properly and share it with other persons. Be conscious of this, that this is a world-wide problem, solving of which is a matter of a long time, of the whole our century, I believe. Do as much as you may, and do not face more trouble than you must and you may endure. Everyone needs some rest and enjoyment. It is your duty to be healthy!
The solving of this huge problem needs firstly a profound research in biological and psychological nature of such phenomena. Actual knowledge is still not sufficient for practical action. Then the popular lesson of psychology is to be introduced to shools, including the necessary information on psychopathies, and on the non-hereditary causes of mental abnormalities as well. This last is what I try to propagate in Poland. Really to nobody is given the joy to see the results of the toil of his life.
Let me pass the words of kind Regard and greetings for you and your Husband.
Truly yours,
Andrew Lobaczewski.
I wrote back as follows:
Laura said:
Subject: Re: A bit help Date sent:
Fri, 3 Mar 2006 15:45:28 +0100
Dear Professor,
Thank you for your kind words of support.
One question I have is: do you really think they actually feel "suicidal?" I'm trying to understand this because I have always understood suicide to be a consequence of great despair - emotional pain including self-doubt - which the psychopath does not ever experience.
You are describing it as a "wounded animal." Isn't it more like an animal whose attempt to kill another creature for dinner has been thwarted? If the crocodile doesn't eat the zebra, I don't think he feels like killing himself he just gets "smarter."
A friend of ours, a lawyer whose hobby is mathematics, had a cousin who was a patient of Cleckley and was diagnosed as a psychopath. This cousin eventually committed suicide. He has studied the subject deeply and he questions whether or not his cousin was, indeed, psychopathic.
Do you know of cases where a real, confirmed, psychopath has done this?
You say to have pity for the psychopath. Well, I am trying. But I find that I feel about them the same way I do about crocodiles. I don't want to do away with crocodiles, but I don't believe they should live among people.
In fact, after working my way through this recent "effect," I realized that the main issue was that I was moved to pity by these individuals and that pity is what triggered my own self-accusations. After all, these people were saying I had hurt them (even if I knew it to be lies) and above all things, I do not want to hurt anyone!
Thank you very much, and our best to you.
Laura
The response:
Lobaczewski said:
Rzeszów, Monday, March 6. 2006.
Is a crocodile really guilty that he is not born a chimpanzee? You are partly right finding some similarity of the essential psychopathy to the way of thought of a crocodile. They are somewhat mechanical. But, are they guilty, that they have inherited an abnormal gene, and their instinctive substratum is different from that of big majority of human population? Such person is not able to feel like we are doing, or to understand a person bearing a normal instinctive endowment. Please also to try to understand a psychopath, and take some pity for them. Limiting the role of psychopaths in ponerogenesis, particularly causing tragedies of women, and then gradually the number of their appearence is a real aim.
As in concern of the suicidal tendencies in psychopaths', it is a confused matter. They enjoy the life and "eating lot of meat." But putting them wise of their incorrectable abnormality is dangerous to the therapist and to themselves. It causes suicidal tendencies realized often by overuse of narcotics. Even with psychopathic prisoners, a psychologist must be circumspect.
Take as well in your consideration that in the whole pool of pathologic factors taking part in ponrogenesis, all kinds of psychopathies make up some less than a half of the total number. The pathologic conditions, usually not hereditary, are making more than the other half. Stalin was not a psychopath. He was a case of frontal characteropathy (Character disorder) due to the damage of frontal centers (10A&B) caused by a disease he experienced as a newborn. This produces the dramatically dangerous characters. I describe the role of such woman. (Page 83-86). Fortunately, the contemporary care for newborns' reduces such cases to a small part of appearence in early XX century, and to lighter cases.
With best greetings.
Andrew M. Lobaczewski
What really caught my eye in the above was this:
Limiting the role of psychopaths in ponerogenesis, particularly causing tragedies of women, and then gradually the number of their appearence is a real aim.
Someone commented recently that the drive to overturn Roe vs Wade was a psychopathic maneuver to insure that more psychopaths would be born since women who had been raped would be forced to bear the children of violence.
A QFG member is working on an in-depth study of sexual violence against women and children and I have read some of the material. It strikes me that sexual predation may very well be a particular expression of psychopathy. I'm not saying that all sexual predators are psychopaths or that all psychopaths are sexual predators, but there is a very significant overlapping of the characteristics. VERY significant from what I have read. This leads back to the issue of so-called "Indigo Children." It seems to be a label designed to "shield" young psychopaths by grouping them with truly gifted children.
In short, the whole problem is pretty overwhelming when you think about it.
I should also note that I, as a woman, have been the particular target of Bridges and Gang. Yes, they will say all kinds of negative things about my husband, the SOTT team etc, but I am the main target. There is no limit to the filth and degradation that they subject me to. And sadly, that includes my children as well.
Note added later: I have posted the "antimatter fandom" article here not because I am particularly interested in the case it describes, nor because I know anything about that case or any of the individuals involved, but simply because it accurately describes the dynamic we have personally experienced with Vinnie Bridges, Colleen Johnston, Stormbear Williams, Terri Burns, and others.
