Wow, very interesting question that has been central to me in periods throughout my life, and "forgotten" other periods. Interesting that some of Ark's journal entries are spaced a year apart – as a spiral that passes the same question regularly but seeing it from a slightly different angle.
Many interesting entries and I'm glad I took the time to read the whole thread through! Thank you for sharing!
I was particularly touched by 2 entries:
1) by Ark
August 13, 1967
[...] There is a danger. One has to beware of it. The danger of a happy life. I need to always keep my goal in sight. And to to take means for the goal.
I'm in that danger right now. Reading your goals and thoughts, I realise that since I started living a "happy life", with all the material and emotional comfort I could wish for, I am less in line with my own goal and easily becomes sidetracked.
My goal is to create a space for growth, where friends and friends of friends can come and take a break to rediscover their dream, their goal, their meaning of life, and get inspiration and maybe some tools to start to do their Work. For now, my idea of that space is that it would be a permaculture farm, and maybe school, to teach how to live lightly on the land and restore the relationship to the wild. Those who would come to spend time with us on the farm would be required to work the land with us, both to provide the basics for survival (food, fibre, fuel) and to restore wild ecosystems. So right now, my short term goal is to learn how to realise this.
2)
daco said:
Yes this forum is such a place but it is only a forum we communicate through writings but in real life we don't know each others we are not in real contact and I think that real contact is a must to work together and try to wake up,through the forums we cannot doing real work (just opinion),where is the teacher for example?
For me real contact is crucial for work,people must live together and work together and that is one of the reasons why I have goal to become zen monk,monastery offers that,but beside that there is a lot of questions.
I really see Daco's point of wanting to work with other people in everyday life. To me, this is linked with the "danger of a happy life" : whenever I'm in an environment that doesn't push me towards questioning or inspire creativity, and when I cannot talk and interact with people around me on the questions of consciousness and awareness rising, I tend to go slack, or frustrated and lonely. From my experience, my biggest leaps of understanding and my most creative and aware periods in life has been when I've been in pretty hard situations (either emotionally or physically or both) AND surrounded by people with at least the same level of understanding/awareness. I don't like the idea of having one teacher, as in Zen practice (though I do practice Zen from time to time), but being in a group in daily life cannot be supplanted by an on line forum, even when it is as good as this! Each person in the group, striving in hirs own way to understand hermself and the world better, helps all others, so that the group's total consciousness is more than the sum of the parts. And the more communication is going on, the better!
If I was suddenly awake... It depends on how I define awake.
1) Awake = a much deeper understanding of the world, but still in 3D STS : I would probably go forth with the idea of the farm and supporting "dreaming slippers" to wake up, and newly "awakened" to see more and more clearly, while lessening the negative impact of my participation in the industrial civilisation by restoring what can be restored.
2) Awake = existing in 4D : oh wow, I think I'd have an immense pleasure in the possibility of direct communication without language barriers!!! And set out helping permaculture designers and the like (anyone doing some good sto work in 3d really!) to get their work done as smoothly as possible, help their understanding of sts & psychopathy.
Thanks for making me think over my goals again, Ark. It is helpful.