What's your goal?

Interestingly in on itself that I just now came across this thread. Been on this forum for 1.5 years. :rolleyes:

First off I want to thank Ark for his journal posts, they are very insightful. And to the forumites that have posted.

Goals have always been sort of oblique for me. When I mean oblique, they are not direct in focus. Yes there were the material goals that have come and gone. A main goal for me has always been seeking knowledge. And another has been forming a contributory community. Both of these goals have ebbed and flowed in my life. The outcome has come in many forms and sometimes I walk away from the results if it did not suit my then needs. Was it a completion of that goal? No, because I still have the goal to learn and form community. It just changes as I grow. Finding this forum and the people here has developed many new goals. Diet, EE and new forms of learning.

Being of service has never been a "goal" just a way of life for me. When it comes my way, I do the best I can to help. Sometimes in the past it was not asked for and I learned, sometimes the hard way, that not everyone wants help.

Can we fully awaken to our present world? Yes there are moments of being conscious and with the work we may be having more of those waking moments. Kind of like the "Allegory of the Cave" story. Seeing that life is just a bunch of shadows on a rock wall and that reality is just behind us creating those shadows, can only be for the one who sees the facts. We can not force our fellow humans to get up off the chair facing the wall to see reality. We have to go forward alone and trust that there are others outside the cave that have seen as well. We can leave a little note though with a map or some kind of reference for those that follow. As this forum does :)
 
To heal my soul ( assuming I have one ) this time around, and help others to do the same.

Find at least one, truly trustworthy person.
 
To know myself, to know the world in which I live, to love myself and others in the true objective way and, in doing so, learn the lessons to move on to a higher consciousness
 
My goal is threefold. To remember/discover my True Self behind the programs and illusions
To Do what I came here to Do with the Knowledge I gain/share
To go Home.
 
My goal is to help a certain group of people who are able to bring certain changes that i would take as supreme success with great satisfaction of good work being done.

My goal in this life was borrowed from my Grandmother. Although her family had no money and after 6 years of basic schooling - when she was 15-16 years old? - they gave her to become a servant at a wealthy family. In her seventies she taught and showed me directly and indirectly/instinctively the worth and excitement of research and finding new things: part material part psychical.

(As a suspected pre-knowledge) i always new in this life, that i was much more smart and efficient before i have been born into this life. From where-ever place was my existence 'before': my output was much greater, thinking and working, physical and psychical capabilities were much higher than i managed in this life. Therefore - as boastful or repugnant reading this would seem - i always knew i must increase the functional capacity of my brain, get better memory, get into better physical and psychical condition. Gurdjieff's work greatly and other esoteric material to a lesser extent confirmed that i have been right in my weak and seemingly futile efforts.

Observing 3rd density from two viewpoints-levels:
1. From 3rd density material body: dulled senses
2. From 5th?-density non-material source looking down at my 3rd D life, what is happening with me what am i doing?

Getting up after EE in the morning there is a new 'What the Hell are You doing with your Life'?-question and inward looking almost every time.

Why i am writing this?
For the record. Toward attaining my goal i was helped by the following techniques:
- diet: possible only because of QFS, FOTCM research, that is other people did the research/testing i used their results
chicken breast in veggy soup made with a lot of garlic + buckwheat bread, eggs, mustard. Chocolate (made from high quality cacao+ raisins,
2 tablespoon cane raw sugar, calcium lactium, 7-8 tbl spoons cinnamon.) Green tea: must be substituted with a hot drink because of tannin.
- GABA: must mention separately for it's excellent effect on calming and making panic symptoms go away
- SLEEP ENOUGH: recent re-discovery. In order for one to have maximum mental efficiency --> maximum sleep is needed!!!!! >8hrs
- 5-HTP: MUST HAVE!! to make heart-palpitations, anxiety lessen/disappear. 25mg-50mg currently
- meditation: now using POTS as seed + one point focusing to increase mental sharpness and improve aim [like sharpshooting, but mine is non-offensive goal]
- EE: i regret being unable to shout since living in a thin-walled apartment house, but shouting in the forest: important stress-release
- laughing: to get rid of excess accumulated energy
- hermit living mode: cannot emphasize enough. People raise children who become the center of their attention. I raise my Goal-Expectation that became the center of my attention.
- attempts at remembering myself, creating unbearable emotional states for short times. Aiming for awakening: happened only once spontaneously for approx 60-90 secs in 2003 or 2004. Not.. once.. ever.. since.. then. :cry: :((((((
- strategic enclosure: at highest possible, making sure i have no people to chat with or if must, very short. Trying apply Castaneda's advice: ordinary people (whom i meet daily or monthly in person) must not figure you out. At workplace have to talk a lot: it's just theatrical role-play currently.

I suspect that once attaining awakened state for short periods(0-few minutes/hours), as written in ISOTM, i will do behave not at all as i do behave now ordinarily at all.

I do not want to live, exist in this ordinary 3rdD reality/life at all: i hate my life. Currently the only thing preventing me to kick and break things the need to keep the workplace intact, job as well.

Lot of accumulated anguish: for not seeing - inability - my goals realized: satisfaction.-->possible danger, because satisfaction can make one lax leading to more deeper sleep.

Currently i want to sacrifice my sufferings - as G. said - since i suffer greatly from my stupidity + willy-nillyness + lack of restraint + lack of willpower + nursing despair + about to accept that i cannot do nothing: because all of this i desire material things i create material satisfactions that rob useful time, time i could have used to realize my goals, step closer to my goals, work, significantly.

I'm worried that i follow mechanically what i read in books: the OUGHT TO DO, work, and once i forgot, once a NEW TOPIC occupies my weak and lazy and shattered mind, i will forget all the excellent exercises that are described in ISOTM and other.

To people here and higher forces up i owe thousand years of servitude: i hope that time will go well :).
 
To treat better my soul and spirit and then pass to next densities!! ;D ;D this time aroundªª! :cool2:

EDU
 
My most enduring goal, my purpose if you will is for Freedom. I remember as far back as age 10, when I would wander the desert (grew up in New Mexico), I would make up little songs about freedom. I remember the title of one in particular - "When Freedom Rings". I don't remember the rest of the words, but I do remember the feeling of "wanting or intending to be there when freedom rings".

Over the years, my definition of Freedom and my understandings of how to attain it has evolved.

In support of this overall goal, my interim goal has been to "master myself" including my emotions and my programs. I have been working on this part for some time and although I have made some progress, I think I still have quite a way to go.
 
Hi all

The goal is to do whatever i came to do here (discovering yet) there is some evidence (from the childhood to the present day) but the puzzle is incomplete right now.

Good luck with your goals guys!
 
to learn my lesson in this life.
to give love and receive love.
to be awaken and gartering knowledge
to not to hurt others.
and have family with house and children.

stay alive .
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adding Read all book from read pill press.
full detox
full diet
try to not miss any EE days.
 
It's funny, I have changed in the past years, but my goal is still the same it has always been: to learn. And to be free.
 
pirataloko said:
Hi all

The goal is to do whatever i came to do here (discovering yet) there is some evidence (from the childhood to the present day) but the puzzle is incomplete right now.

Good luck with your goals guys!
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When I was kid to my puberty or adolescence, som from 7 to 16 I thought I was going to be a superhero or some politician that helps people and defends this ones from some evilness or something, just that idea, I feeled special, because I really wanted to do that, and accepting the offer so I was feeling special because of that but then I got to see I didn't was, there are others and do better, and maybe that goal about being some guy helping other was a way to evade some problems of my life I was facing and maybe just for me and not really for others. And when you see what is be involved in such things you really fear about it.

Now I do not think so much about it, lol. And I don't see a way I could help others if Laura, in a way with her family do everything!!!

I don't know if I can just sit like a lot of the forum and learn and learn, I feel the need to give back the effort and whatever had helped me, but I don't really know and don't even know how.
 
To walk the path laid by the elders before me to awaken to the possibilities of the ALL. Knowing this is the goal, Love unconditionally for ALL things then moves me into service to others. Out of true service rather than out of fear.
 
My goal in life used to be healing people.
The first slap came when I realised that there is not point fighting death.
The next, when I understood that trying to heal when no healing is really wanted is in fact self-serving and doesn't help anyone at all.

My goal now is understanding. To go as close to the Truth as possible and become useful to others in whatever way this may be. To manage to offer what is really needed which is not always what is being asked or what I can easily spare.
 
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