nicklebleu said:
nicklebleu, have you read the psychology books recommended by Laura?
If so, you might want to reread them and do it in the order that she has listed them, which is, Myth of Sanity (which you say you have already read), Trapped in the Mirror, Unholy Hungers, The Narcissist Family, Drama of the Gifted Child. And while reading them see if you get any quick flashes of.....something. And if you do, follow those feelings and see what they reveal.
I know that when I first read these books, I kept saying, "Hmmm, I exhibit all of the symptoms there are being described in these books, but none of these things have happened to me." I did not read them in the order given by Laura, I had not received Trapped in the Mirror yet. But for some reason, after reading that book, things just seemed to jump out at me. Things that, if they had happened to someone else, I would have been really concerned for that child.
So what I decided to do was go back and start remembering as many things as I could that happened to me as a child, to look at interactions between my parents, others and myself; and to look at them from the angle of an outsider and how that outside might have reacted to what they were seeing. I started finding a lot of things that were being done to me in a very narcissistic way. And I saw that my mother had a lot of narcissistic behavior and patterns.
After unlocking some of these things, others would appear that I hadn't remembered and it was quite telling. Then, I was able to see where certain programs were started, which enabled me to start working on them.
So this would be another instance where just reading the books and not applying them to ourselves is knowledge vs understanding. Once we can see these things in ourselves, it becomes the first steps to getting rid of the programming that are running us. osit. ;)
