There is an old Oriental story about a magic flying horse who can take you to your heart's desire. I wonder for years what could that be. First I thought it was having a successful career. Or building a loving family. I thought later, that serving a Guru was the ultimate goal. Only to find deception and pain. Then
I wanted to save the world, or mankind, or nature... But I found all of it was only whisful thinking. Then it took a while to understand that everything in the Universe happens for a reason. Or that someone's trash is someone's treasure. The acceptance of reality as it is, was/is for me, a big step on the way. Suffering is the gap between things as they are, and things the way I want them to be. So I wanted to stop living in all that jazz, all that drama. Then I started wanting to change nothing, no one, but my self, my response to the given circumstances. Finally, the Prayer of the Soul gave me a big clue: I want to cleanse my heart, to open my eyes, to be able to see, to understand, The Hollyness of True Existence. There is nothing but lessons here, says de C's. Some of them are having to be with lost, and pain and sorrow (growing pains) some of them are about enjoying a state of content and happiness and light. Now I am tired of the sickness of this corrupted, yet marvelous world. I have a true yearning to go back home, to merge with the Divine Cosmic Mind, as you name it. It takes discipline, renunciation, equipoise, to see the world going mad, and stop the wishful thinking that "sending love and light and nice toughts" is going to heal it. The times are changing, in did...