Ketone Cop
Jedi Council Member
The contrast between your posts on this matter a day or so ago and this one are stark. It just goes to show the wisdom of the C's regarding networking. By expressing how you feel, getting feedback from others here you have been able to work through it to get to a much better mindset and that's wonderful. I have been doing something similar myself over the last few days (although it's regarding a personal matter and the correspondence is off this site) and came to a bit of an epiphany myself today too. Sometimes I want to give the C's and all of you here just the biggest hug!
Yeah, I noticed that. Often when I'm struggling with something, others are sharing similar feelings and thoughts. Sort of like there's some "quantum entanglement" between members already. I'm glad you are feeling better, too. Also something else I've noticed: I often come to sudden realizations about things, connecting dots, and then I share what I've found like it's a big "Eureka!!" moment that I must share with everyone!! Then later I will come across another thread, or something in "The Wave" that I missed the first time, and I realize the information was already here! It's like I need stuff to enter my mind through my own conscious process before I am able to "see" it anywhere else; like I need to "level up" first or something. And so far, pretty much everything that I thought was a novel idea has already had novels written about it somewhere here. But sharing our process like this may help others who are wired in the same way, so it's worthwhile to do so.
Anyway: today I had to wear a mask at the lab for the first time. I woke up at 3:30 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep because it was weighing on my mind. When I finally got up to get ready for work, I was seriously contemplating grabbing that WWII gas mask I posted a picture of earlier in this thread and wearing that in protest, but then I saw doing that would just be punishing myself even more. I mean, that thing is heavy and it clouds up quickly. So, I then took one of my N95 white masks and I was sitting down with a marker to write "HOAX" on it, when it hit me that all I would be doing is furthering yet another division: mask wearers vs. non-mask wearers. Just another level of "choosing a side".
So I dropped the marker and drove to work and just wore the damn mask.
I'm still angry on some level, because this is the first time that I am being forced to do something that could potentially hurt me (after reading several papers about mask wearing problems on SOTT), but this isn't a hill worthy of dying on. I'm pretty sure we are going to have some of those coming soon (especially re: forced vaccinations), but this isn't in that class. And once I realized that, all the fight left me. I could literally feel a shift. Now I don't really even think about it, I just do it. Simply knowing that I am doing it with full knowledge of why (to get along), instead of out of misplaced fear, makes a difference.
And again, I have to thank the forum members for sharing, and listening. I think I'm getting this process of "finding the center" down now, and can take off the training wheels and just do it without clogging up these boards too much...but if and when I do begin to gnash and wail and cry like a petulant two-year-old, just be patient. I will eventually cry myself out and take a nap.