Don't perform this mental gymnastics....
Calm down. There was no 'mental gymnastics' going on.
When they inject you with an mRNA vaccine, it's inside you and there's no taking it back out.
Maybe, but it doesn't mean its going to do anything specific. Especially not in
everyone.
The vaccine will interact with your genetic makeup and instruct your cells to create certain proteins whether you like it or not.
How the hell would you know that? There is no proper testing for any of this (it would take years), and even the scientists have little clue what it's gonna do. They only have an idea about what they
want it to do, but they tend to be rather wrong about these things. The bottom line is that we have no idea what it will do, and it would be extremely strange if it had the same effect in everyone.
Whatever else it does, in terms of unforeseen consequences will leave you at the mercy of chance and you know what, there's no going back.
You don't know that. This is fear speaking, not science.
Lets just be straight with ourselves and not try and convince ourselves that in some special circumstances it'll be okay for us to give them this sort of access to our bodies.
Take a cold shower and read other people's posts again. Nobody on this forum has said that it'll be OK to take the vaccine, afaik. Some people are just considering that it might come to a point where they'll have to choose between two evils and it will not necessarily be clear which is the lesser one.
Interesting mindset Sottreader
Indeed. Sottreader's mind has already been hijacked by this vaccine, before it even had a chance to touch his blood stream. If the goal of the PTB is to lower your frequency, sottreader is already a victim. The spectre of a vaccine hovering above him every day did the trick. No need for an actual vaccine.
My only advice, to which I came to through my own personal struggle is: don't get attached to current happenings and possible outcomes. Just DON'T. Detach. Any time you can, every way you find helpful. Let it go. Let it play out. Whatever may be - let it happen. Have some Faith. Both in yourself and in God. That's all.
I think this is good advice, especially for sottreader.
I can't seem to escape this feeling of shock / dread (it seems to be beyond my conscious control).
What you may not realise is that this feeling has been so ingrained in you that it's seeping through your posts and affecting others. If you were able to read your own posts from the last 2 months calmly and objectively, you might notice that you sound a little like the guy running around, shaking people, and screaming "we're all gonna die!"
I know we need to stay informed and understand what's going on, but honestly, I'm not sure reading vaccine news every day is a good thing for your health. I don't think freaking out about it every day is gonna make your future any better. Likely the contrary. The VaccineFear has taken a hold of you like Sauron's ring. Everything you see is distorted through the lens of VaccineFear. (See Color's quote above. BTW, I think all Color's responses to you were really good. Hope you get something useful out of them.)
Trying to live as if this thing isn't real but to be honest, at every turn there's a reminder: masks
Oh, since you mentioned that... it occurred to me recently that that might actually be the
primary reason for the masks - to
remind you that there's a
crisis, that you should be
afraid, that the world is not
normal and safe anymore. Without the masks, people might not even notice that there's a 'pandemic' going on.
Anyway, why would you pretend it 'isn't real'? It's real, but so what? Right now, you seem like somebody who got defeated before the real battle even began. Get it out of your mind that we've already lost. Keep your mind open. Let your spirit soar, instead of crouching in the corner and mumbling something about vaccines.
I don't know how others can be so calm.
A lot of people probably aren't as calm as they seem. Might do you some good to take a few deep breaths before every post you make, and to try to make the post sound a bit less panicky than you're feeling. Try to read it before posting and think about what kind of energy it carries to others.
Also, some like me are calm simply because there's nothing much going on where I live. I have to laugh at the fact that wearing masks ended here when it started in other places. No masks here for the past month. (Though they may return.)
In any case, there's no escape, there's no getting out
Please ask your partner to slap some sense into you now and then.
Remind yourself that you are here for a reason, to learn some lessons. If you end up getting vaccinated, then that probably was a lesson you agreed to experience on some level. Being terrified of it isn't doing you any good. Really, take Color's advice, and don't get so attached to all this crap. Many things can happen between now and whatever you're afraid of. It may not come to the thing you're so afraid of, and then you'll be the fool who had spent months being terrified for nothing. The future is open. Your mind... seems to have settled on a particular outcome already. Set it free. Don't be controlled by fear.
You have a sincere loving mirror right there, in her.
Fair point. The problem being my personal experience in the real world makes me ready to believe it. 
Probably a good idea for multiple reasons.