Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program

Last thursday when doing EE, in the last section (POTS), I had some kind of zoning out and then I fell asleep for 4 hours. It was probably after no more than 1 or 2 lines of POTS, and I didn't wake up until 4 hours later, it was still early, I was not supposed to sleep, I was going to do EE, then dinner, then doing a few other things and going to sleep later. But it seems I zoned out and I don't remember nothing else until 4 hours later I woke up.

A couple of weeks ago, during the meditation, I saw for just 1 second the three striped colours of the FOTCM logo. I don't remember to have seen the rest of the logo, I mean, no yin-yang, just the three stripes of colours.
 
Last night I practiced pipe breathing for quite a while, then said POTS and meditated for a long time before I fell asleep. I had a strong sense of a gradual deepening of the meditation over the course of the practice. The discursive thoughts I had been holding onto all day gradually dissipated, until I had a moment when it felt like complete quiet right before I fell asleep. I tried to really pay attention to what was going on in my body as well, because I was holding lots of tension in my stomach/abdomen and neck/shoulders. There seemed to be a link between the loosening/opening of the tension in my body and the lessening of the chatter in my head.

I remember my head suddenly clearing of thoughts while simultaneously taking a deep, free, relaxed breath and feeling open and safe for the first time all day, right before I fell asleep.
 
Yesterday, while doing EE and toward the end of the round breathing, I zoned out for what seemed like a split second and at the same time heard Laura's voice chanting something totally different from the word Ba-Ha.
It was very loud, in fact much louder than it ought, as it was the very end of the cycle where the last breaths are long and quiet.
It sounded like singing a melody but without words.

I turned to the speakers out of reflex and the same loud chanting continued for a while but this time it had the feel of 'no need to fear'.
I feel as if it all lasted about a minute or less, but within that minute the succession of 'events' and my feelings were well-outlined, in contrast to what a normal minute should feel.

While continuing with the meditation, I was able to keep my eyes closed and feel safe for the whole time, which hasn't been the case untill now.
Since new year's eve I've been struggling with very intense emotions and although I've been working on dealing with it all the while (following forum advice on diet and supplements as well), what happened yesterday was a sort of outlet that helped me immensly.
 
Eva said:
Since new year's eve I've been struggling with very intense emotions and although I've been working on dealing with it all the while (following forum advice on diet and supplements as well), what happened yesterday was a sort of outlet that helped me immensly.
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Great job Eva, keep up the good work. BaHa will help ease out those troubling emotions.

Last week, during a group session, wet during BaHa turned into sticky eyes, and I don’t recall much of PotS once it started. On Thursday it was back to light headedness during BaHa, which I missed during the group session as I was lying down for both BaHa and PotS, instead of my usual sitting and lying down.
 
Yesterdays ÉE was quiete calm, some tears and some memories during the beatha part. And I did it in total darkness this time.

What stood out during the bioenergetic breathing, that suddenly an energy run through my body and I quivered for that moment and some tears came up. During the POTS I felt almost asleep.
 
A wet-eyed week! Not only whilst doing three stage pipe breathing during the two weekly sessions, and drying up during BaHa, but also whilst pipe breathing in the sauna sessions! Change is happening. :)
 
Me too,about crying. The other night doing meditation when the Prayer I started to cry remembering a dog we had few years ago. He was my mother's dog and I took care of the dog after the death of my mother. He was gentle and was very fond of my husband but my husband does not like particularly dogs. The strange thing about my crying was the pain I felt on my jaws and my neck. It was horrendous, I almost put an end of the meditation but I persist and felt calm just listening to the voice of Laura.

Loreta
 
Yesterdays session was kind of strange, I did it again in total darkness (in my "tent" :)) and had the feeling if I'm flying in dark space. It was not in my subjective feeling total dark and perceived somewhat a yellowish light and if I could see in the darkness. In the periphery of my eyes this yellow light was brighter too (I did double check it, closed my eyes, total darkness, opened my eyes yellowish light again). All in all it felt good and I did not feel lost in that darkness or space.

Also old memories came up during the beatha portion, which I found hurtful and with that also tears.

And to my experience during the prayer, before zoning out, it is kind of a feeling of falling or if a switch is turned on. It did not happen yesterday but on the session on monday.
 
I did EE yesterday, first time in awhile I have done the full program. I was able to do the BaHa portion, although my "performance" declined after the first round, and then further after the second. By the 3rd round I was feeling so worn out that I could not keep up with the breathing on time, so I just did my best. Cried only a little, after the first round, and feel asleep right after the POTS ended. Body convulsions were at a minimum, which hopefully reflects a trend. Next week when I do it again I am going to do it sitting up, for the 3-stage at least. I haven't done it sitting up since the very first time I did EE, which was very painful with all of my spinal mis-alignments, so if I can manage to get through it sitting up that will be a nice achievement.
 
Me fourth, with the crying :cry:

On Tuesday, before i did the program, i felt i was getting a cold or something: headache, muscle pains, sore throat. Then, during BaHa, my right eye, and nostril started to ran, and the entire right side of my face felt hot, and there was tickling on the base of my throat, again at the right site. After the program was over i felt better and haven't got the cold yet.

Last night, during 3-stage breathing, for some reason the images of both my grandmothers came to my mind, and i started crying for them, feeling so sad for the lives they lived. And i wondered if i could heal myself to heal them also eventually. I fell asleep, tired from crying, and dreamed that there was this man who i knew in the past, who was threatening to expose me about something i did in the past, etc. In the dream i "read" him to be a psychopath, and as soon as he said that, i went up to his face and told him that he can do whatever he wanted, i did not care, he could even kill me, but i won't die. He, on the other hand, will die forever and all his memories, and experiences too will die with his body, and i felt sorry for him. I was not angry, but felt really powerful talking to him like that, and he took a step back and never bothered me again after that. :huh:

When i got up this morning, i was thinking about the right side of my face that was warm the other night, my dream and my grandmothers. Right side is the masculine side, and from my life experiences, i have distrust towards males in general. My grandmothers had a difficult life because of the males in their life and so did my mom. Therefore, i am thinking that perhaps i could (or i am?) break(ing) the cycle of female suffering in our lineage, by accepting that not all males are not to be trusted and even accepting/trusting the masculine characteristics in me. OSIT...
 
loreta said:
Me too,about crying. The other night doing meditation when the Prayer I started to cry remembering a dog we had few years ago. He was my mother's dog and I took care of the dog after the death of my mother. He was gentle and was very fond of my husband but my husband does not like particularly dogs. The strange thing about my crying was the pain I felt on my jaws and my neck. It was horrendous, I almost put an end of the meditation but I persist and felt calm just listening to the voice of Laura.

Loreta
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Alana said:
Me fourth, with the crying :cry:

On Tuesday, before i did the program, i felt i was getting a cold or something: headache, muscle pains, sore throat. Then, during BaHa, my right eye, and nostril started to ran, and the entire right side of my face felt hot, and there was tickling on the base of my throat, again at the right site. After the program was over i felt better and haven't got the cold yet.

Last night, during 3-stage breathing, for some reason the images of both my grandmothers came to my mind, and i started crying for them, feeling so sad for the lives they lived. And i wondered if i could heal myself to heal them also eventually. I fell asleep, tired from crying, and dreamed that there was this man who i knew in the past, who was threatening to expose me about something i did in the past, etc. In the dream i "read" him to be a psychopath, and as soon as he said that, i went up to his face and told him that he can do whatever he wanted, i did not care, he could even kill me, but i won't die. He, on the other hand, will die forever and all his memories, and experiences too will die with his body, and i felt sorry for him. I was not angry, but felt really powerful talking to him like that, and he took a step back and never bothered me again after that. :huh:

When i got up this morning, i was thinking about the right side of my face that was warm the other night, my dream and my grandmothers. Right side is the masculine side, and from my life experiences, i have distrust towards males in general. My grandmothers had a difficult life because of the males in their life and so did my mom. Therefore, i am thinking that perhaps i could (or i am?) break(ing) the cycle of female suffering in our lineage, by accepting that not all males are not to be trusted and even accepting/trusting the masculine characteristics in me. OSIT...
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It also happened to me that I start crying while do the BaHa, The last time was because I remembered my grandma that recently passed away!!!! I have realized that the program makes me go out the issues that affect me in the moment, and then the old ones.

I have also felt symptoms like a mild fever a couple of nights ago, just while I was doing the program and when I finished it I had my forehead wet of sweat, I felt hot while the outside temperature was not so much. I had to put the fan direct to me at high speed to sleep comfortable.

It seems that some of us are cleaning a lot of sorrow of familiar relationships in our lives lately...

I also want to mention something that happened while I read the last C's session. I had a lapse of time lost while I was fully conscious and I note it because it was exactly like happened to me when I made the program. I was listening to music while reading in my PC and suddenly began another song, but not from the beginning of it but just in a part that touch me a lot! It is the same music that I was talking about before in this thread. I was shocked for a few minutes but I think I have to get used to these things of high strangeness ...
 
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