Combined with the occasional spinning (in whatever direction I feel like at the time), with the PotS (Prayer of the Soul), and taking a hot bath, this breathing is rather speeding up my psychological detoxing, it seems.
Yesterday, astoundingly so - I have not in many months, and never in quite the same way, felt such a large amount of ponerized programming surface at once! Instead of merely blind, unthinking identification influencing mental activity, it "unfolded", "came out" from below a conscious level and became part of my "conscious" emotional orientation. A part of me that decidedly was in favor of STS. And feeling what It was all about, I tried to ascertain what this part of me fundamentally wanted - its Goal. And it had to do with power - which brought me to my previous thoughts of how, funnily enough, knowledge and awareness (and understanding as part of them) being power, it is the STO being that strictly speaking is the most powerful (which is rather funny to consider when keeping in mind the attitude of a devoted STSer as it tries to dominate creation through its twisted ways, staying ultimately "number two" no matter how hard and nastily - and counter-productively - it strives). And I let It - this part of me - grow in my knowledge, expand in awareness as it became increasingly "conscious". The final result, as I kept on pondering, was that it began to "melt".
Thereafter, following the theme of the thoughts of It, I spent some time pondering - and feeling - the deeper nature and reality of some of the nastiest forms of "feeding" going on in the world, and step by step my state of awareness - and the way it felt - kept changing. I did a lot of breathing throughout all this, including when later taking a long, hot bath.
Throughout those hours, from the moment It came into awareness, I felt more ambiguous in terms of alignment - except deeper within, from where I kept "on track" throughout it all.
According to my "energetic perception", I am much cleaner and expanded than before within - but rather more gunky near the surface.
I definitely look forward to more of this breathing, spinning and praying!