Well, I have been doing the full program daily and the POTS again before sleeping since July. I also started spinning at this time. Only had one angry outburst and two crying sessions in July but nothing else since. Zoned out a few times in the beginning but nothing since then.
I kept up with this thread and was amazed at other member's experiences. I dutifully kept going with the program thinking my turn would eventually arrive. Still nothing. I didn't contribute much to this thread and that is compounded by my shyness and being a private person. Took a break last week as mentioned by Laura and just did the POTS before bed.
Time to break out of my private prison!
Sadly my beloved grandmother (my Dad's mother) passed away Saturday evening. She was like a mother to me since my mom died when I was 4 years old. I arrived back home Wednesday after going through all her stuff and moving it out of her apartment. My brother and I were the only people left in her life here in the states.
Today I read this thread to get me up to date when I felt a great sadness that I didn't seem to be progressing with the program. I just sat and cried it out. An impression/thought came to me that I was only going through the motions of the program and not really applying myself. As I was doing the program, my mind was constantly thinking about events of the day. I struggle mightily to calm my thoughts and I cannot seem to win. I also did the Candida Saliva test and showed that I failed. I was very surprised since I feel I am in very good health with nothing to complain about and exercise 6 days a week. I eat pretty healthy but do have some comfort foods like coffee with cream and sugar. So the other impression/thought that came to me was that I really need to cleanse myself and will start with a 21 day distilled water fast.
I like the ideas suggested about using a visual image to meditate on. I will need to find one that I can use.
Time for me to increase my efforts and get serious about the breathing program. Do more that just going through the motions.
Thank you for listening. I really haven't found anyone I can physically talk to. I feel like I need to cry some more.
I kept up with this thread and was amazed at other member's experiences. I dutifully kept going with the program thinking my turn would eventually arrive. Still nothing. I didn't contribute much to this thread and that is compounded by my shyness and being a private person. Took a break last week as mentioned by Laura and just did the POTS before bed.
Time to break out of my private prison!
Sadly my beloved grandmother (my Dad's mother) passed away Saturday evening. She was like a mother to me since my mom died when I was 4 years old. I arrived back home Wednesday after going through all her stuff and moving it out of her apartment. My brother and I were the only people left in her life here in the states.
Today I read this thread to get me up to date when I felt a great sadness that I didn't seem to be progressing with the program. I just sat and cried it out. An impression/thought came to me that I was only going through the motions of the program and not really applying myself. As I was doing the program, my mind was constantly thinking about events of the day. I struggle mightily to calm my thoughts and I cannot seem to win. I also did the Candida Saliva test and showed that I failed. I was very surprised since I feel I am in very good health with nothing to complain about and exercise 6 days a week. I eat pretty healthy but do have some comfort foods like coffee with cream and sugar. So the other impression/thought that came to me was that I really need to cleanse myself and will start with a 21 day distilled water fast.
I like the ideas suggested about using a visual image to meditate on. I will need to find one that I can use.
Time for me to increase my efforts and get serious about the breathing program. Do more that just going through the motions.
Thank you for listening. I really haven't found anyone I can physically talk to. I feel like I need to cry some more.