Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program
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A bit of an update with my EE experience :)
These last weeks i've been experiencing some emotional ups and downs for which i had no mental knowledge of why they were taking place at the moment they did: i would feel very sad out of the blue, and tired, but then next minute i would feel optimistic and energized. I was also more able to spot some of my programs as they were acting out: namely, i noticed on several occasions how i estimate my self worth in relation to how i perceive others see me. It's like in childhood, when i would look into my father and mother to spot any clues from how they behaved towards me to define myself to myself. I found this realization very sad at first, and decided to look inside and had a few conversations with the inner child, who is always feeling this fear of abandonment and exclusion. These inner conversations had some interesting results.
I should first say a bit about my delivery into this world that was quite painful both for me and my mother, which left me some trauma in my body and affects my body structure to this day and no doubt my emotional and mental states. Few years ago actually, while i was trying to meditate (long before EE), i had this vision of me hovering above the delivery room and watching my mom as she was struggling to give birth to me. I often wondered whether this was a real memory, or something that my mind put together from the stories i heard about my birth day. I guess i'll never know.
Anyway, what i find really interesting is that while this bodily delivery trauma affects my structure and limits the movement of my neck to some extent (the sternocleidomastoid tendon of the right side of my neck is atrophied (sp?) i never felt it, as in, it never caused me any pain or discomfort, though it has been there like this since birth, and at 13 i had a surgery where they cut it at the collar bone, but then by my late teens it reattached itself. Now, i am just saying what the doctors told me happened, i never felt anything different there to be frank.
This last month, while doing the EE program, i notice a sort of warmth in this area, and i wondered whether some healing is taking place? I still feel the right side of my neck as stiff in movement as it always' ve been though. What i wonder is whether this trauma in my neck that came with me as i came into life is something i am carrying from a previous life that needs to be resolved in this one? And would, continuing with practicing the EE, clean it out? I am actually looking forward to see what happens there.
And few days ago I also had this dream where i was in a rather big room with few friends, and outside there was war going on. But we were safe there, as long as we stayed in, and i remember wondering where we would all sleep as there were only two beds, and we were much more. Then suddenly, i forget about everything, because i find this infant abandoned and since she doesn't seem to belong to anyone there, i hold her and i care for her (am not actually sure about the gender). and she is crying, so to calm her i sing to her this Italian song that i haven't heard since i was a little child myself, but apparently in my dream i remember all the words and i sing it to her over and over. I actually wake up and the song is still playing in my head. And holding her and calming her, was the most wonderful feeling, it was as if loving her and nurturing her is as vital for me as it is for her. I felt that i was taking care of my inner child in the dream, and one of my roommates, when she heard my dream, told me that babies in dreams are our essence. All in all, i find that the EE program is working very deed indeed
And here's the song i was singing to her:
giro giro tondo
casca il mondo
casca la terra
tutti giù per terra
I found the words on the internet and have no clue what they mean, something about going round and round, and the earth?
Any Italian folks around?
These last weeks i've been experiencing some emotional ups and downs for which i had no mental knowledge of why they were taking place at the moment they did: i would feel very sad out of the blue, and tired, but then next minute i would feel optimistic and energized. I was also more able to spot some of my programs as they were acting out: namely, i noticed on several occasions how i estimate my self worth in relation to how i perceive others see me. It's like in childhood, when i would look into my father and mother to spot any clues from how they behaved towards me to define myself to myself. I found this realization very sad at first, and decided to look inside and had a few conversations with the inner child, who is always feeling this fear of abandonment and exclusion. These inner conversations had some interesting results.
I should first say a bit about my delivery into this world that was quite painful both for me and my mother, which left me some trauma in my body and affects my body structure to this day and no doubt my emotional and mental states. Few years ago actually, while i was trying to meditate (long before EE), i had this vision of me hovering above the delivery room and watching my mom as she was struggling to give birth to me. I often wondered whether this was a real memory, or something that my mind put together from the stories i heard about my birth day. I guess i'll never know.
Anyway, what i find really interesting is that while this bodily delivery trauma affects my structure and limits the movement of my neck to some extent (the sternocleidomastoid tendon of the right side of my neck is atrophied (sp?) i never felt it, as in, it never caused me any pain or discomfort, though it has been there like this since birth, and at 13 i had a surgery where they cut it at the collar bone, but then by my late teens it reattached itself. Now, i am just saying what the doctors told me happened, i never felt anything different there to be frank.
This last month, while doing the EE program, i notice a sort of warmth in this area, and i wondered whether some healing is taking place? I still feel the right side of my neck as stiff in movement as it always' ve been though. What i wonder is whether this trauma in my neck that came with me as i came into life is something i am carrying from a previous life that needs to be resolved in this one? And would, continuing with practicing the EE, clean it out? I am actually looking forward to see what happens there.
And few days ago I also had this dream where i was in a rather big room with few friends, and outside there was war going on. But we were safe there, as long as we stayed in, and i remember wondering where we would all sleep as there were only two beds, and we were much more. Then suddenly, i forget about everything, because i find this infant abandoned and since she doesn't seem to belong to anyone there, i hold her and i care for her (am not actually sure about the gender). and she is crying, so to calm her i sing to her this Italian song that i haven't heard since i was a little child myself, but apparently in my dream i remember all the words and i sing it to her over and over. I actually wake up and the song is still playing in my head. And holding her and calming her, was the most wonderful feeling, it was as if loving her and nurturing her is as vital for me as it is for her. I felt that i was taking care of my inner child in the dream, and one of my roommates, when she heard my dream, told me that babies in dreams are our essence. All in all, i find that the EE program is working very deed indeed
And here's the song i was singing to her:
giro giro tondo
casca il mondo
casca la terra
tutti giù per terra
I found the words on the internet and have no clue what they mean, something about going round and round, and the earth?
Any Italian folks around?
slowone
Jedi Master
Just touching in with some stuff that came up for me last night after doing my nightly meditation.
I was about to sleep when I had this overwhelming feeling/vision of being trapped between two walls, literally forcibly placed in front of one wall and then people building the other wall in front of me and leaving me to die!
The sensation of being trapped like that, unable to move my head or body and the feeling of panic and terror, it was so physical. I can still feel it around my Solar Plexus. Then I remember becoming aware of just how much pain and negativity my "soul/being" had accumulated over time. I wasn't upset just interested as if I was only just taking on board the amount and regularity of all this emotional terror that had been collected.
It's still with me today and My neck is still stiff from where I had my head turned to one side between these two walls! (I've always had a tight left side from neck down to back of knee).
I'm looking forward to the full EE practice tonight. Hoping that I'm clearing away more holding, more barriers and more of my predator.
I was about to sleep when I had this overwhelming feeling/vision of being trapped between two walls, literally forcibly placed in front of one wall and then people building the other wall in front of me and leaving me to die!
The sensation of being trapped like that, unable to move my head or body and the feeling of panic and terror, it was so physical. I can still feel it around my Solar Plexus. Then I remember becoming aware of just how much pain and negativity my "soul/being" had accumulated over time. I wasn't upset just interested as if I was only just taking on board the amount and regularity of all this emotional terror that had been collected.
It's still with me today and My neck is still stiff from where I had my head turned to one side between these two walls! (I've always had a tight left side from neck down to back of knee).
I'm looking forward to the full EE practice tonight. Hoping that I'm clearing away more holding, more barriers and more of my predator.
Guardian
The Cosmic Force
Laura said:
Oh yes! Salt is one of my three basic food groups...can't get enough of it. Back in Virginia, sometimes I would just lick the salt off chips, then give the chips to the Guinea hens. Some of my friends found this so amusing that one morning I walked into my office and there was a salt lick from the feed store clamped to the edge of my desk. :P
It was a joke, but if I could find a salt lick made out of sea salt, I'd probably be licking it right now.
That depends...sometimes I sleep very fitfully, toss, turn wake up repeatedly.... and sometimes I'm a log.
truth seeker
The Living Force
Hey Alana,
I looked up the song and if the information is correct, it translates into: Giro Giro tondo (Turn Turn around) end of the world, falls to the ground, all down to earth
It sounds to me like the American "Ring around the Rosie" (not sure if you're familiar with it: _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mHtw-L5uy4
For a little over the last two weeks, I've had really bad neck pain on the right side as well. In an attempt to heal it, I started doing the EE everyday for a week and this was a great help. I currently think it is a traumatic issue that is working it's way from my right shoulder and continues to the right ear and then up and "out" of the top of my head. It may also be as you said regarding past life traumas. Hope this helps.
I looked up the song and if the information is correct, it translates into: Giro Giro tondo (Turn Turn around) end of the world, falls to the ground, all down to earth
It sounds to me like the American "Ring around the Rosie" (not sure if you're familiar with it: _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mHtw-L5uy4
by Alana said:
For a little over the last two weeks, I've had really bad neck pain on the right side as well. In an attempt to heal it, I started doing the EE everyday for a week and this was a great help. I currently think it is a traumatic issue that is working it's way from my right shoulder and continues to the right ear and then up and "out" of the top of my head. It may also be as you said regarding past life traumas. Hope this helps.
Guardian
The Cosmic Force
Gimpy said:
Really? Why not? Who gets to decide "normal?" I have a very high pain threshold too, and it comes in real handy at times.
Oh yeah....the 'ol "you want something to cry about, I'll give you something to cry about" parenting model. :(
Anyway, that's an example of what it means to get in touch with your body.Make better sense? ;D
Yeah...sorta, although I have to say it sounds like an extremely inefficient method of storing and recalling memories. Kinda like the Microsoft method of memory retrieval...run the data packet through every outlying component in the meatsack before it makes it to the cache.
Due to a quirk in physiology, I can retrieve any memory I wish, in great detail, with relative ease. I don't truly "forget" anything, it's all right there just waiting if I want to concentrate into that when. You'd think this would be a blessing, but it really is a pain in the butt at times. Oh goodie, I can recall verbatim every billboard I passed between here and Georgia ....that's helpful. Can't remember the words to a jingle you heard in 1978? Just ask Betsy, she'll sing it for you. Party tricks :/
Guardian
The Cosmic Force
Pete02 said:I've just been sleeping all this time"but then after a few seconds my head picked back up straight and it seemed like I actually did go straight into a 'zone' mode or something for about twenty minutes. What happened?
Drats :( I was kinda hoping yawl had carved out a special spot. That can be fun with the right folks. Some of the Yorubans have really got it down.
Well...there's ALWAYS something going on...trick is figuring out what. :/
Guardian
The Cosmic Force
Alana said:giro giro tondo
casca il mondo
casca la terra
tutti giù per terra
I found the words on the internet and have no clue what they mean, something about going round and round, and the earth?
Babelfish says:
turn round turn
the world falls
the earth falls
all down for earth
Guardian said:
hmmm seems I forgot to add additional information about that, but here it is(reasons for being hungry), I will include it in the next update which will also include several new questions.
''Dehydration helps create feelings of hunger. You eat more when you're thirsty. Dehydration can also negatively affect your glucose. Your body will think you're hungry and so you eat.''
_http://www.articlesbase.com/weight-loss-articles/the-importance-of-water-and-weight-loss-562308.html
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How to Identify Signs of Dehydration ''4. HUNGER. Feeling hungry? You probably need some water. Hunger is one way our body let's us know it needs more water. So before you grab that sandwich grab a glass or bottle of water.''
_http://www.ehow.com/how_4721703_identify-signs-dehydration.html
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Dehydration Mmmm…Water ''Thirst can often masquerade as hunger if you aren’t giving your body adequate fluids throughout the day. This increased sensation of feeling hungry will only lead to over eating and all of the health problems that come along with it.''
_http://www.healthytoday.info/?tag=dehydration
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''Just the other day, a good friend of mine asked me in diet desperation, "All I've been doing is eating and I'm still hungry! What can I do to stay full?" She's typcially a healthy eater, so my first question was to find out how much water she'd drank that day. The reason being is because dehydration has a funny way of masking itself as hunger. Of course, when she told me she'd had none, it was no surprise why her tummy was grumbling away! ''
_http://www.fulllifeservices.com/diet-blog-stay-full-and-lose-weight/bid/15549/Hungry-Or-Just-Dehydrated-Tips-to-Quench-Your-Thirst-and-Your-Hunger
Iron
Dagobah Resident
A somewhat rough session... at the round breathing a constriction in the throat and saliva makes very hard to continue. If I push, I notice there is a spasm, kinda like when you are about to cry, it climbs up my body and exits by my mouth. I feel like something has exited my body, even if there is no tears.
These events are going for some time. At these moments I feel like doing more frequently the breathing exercises.
These events are going for some time. At these moments I feel like doing more frequently the breathing exercises.
abstract
Dagobah Resident
I don't post much in this thread because sessions are usually uneventful.
Lately i've been getting a feeling of being surrounded by and/or filled with something during the sessions, not sure what it is, it's just a feeling of content mixed with protection.
The thumping in my head goes in and out during sessions.
Been zoning more easily, usually at night.
Yawning, saliva, and swallowing aren't such annoyances anymore, it's easier to be still.
I'm still using the audio because when i try to do it without the audio it doesn't seem to work as well for whatever reason.
Lately i've been getting a feeling of being surrounded by and/or filled with something during the sessions, not sure what it is, it's just a feeling of content mixed with protection.
The thumping in my head goes in and out during sessions.
Been zoning more easily, usually at night.
Yawning, saliva, and swallowing aren't such annoyances anymore, it's easier to be still.
I'm still using the audio because when i try to do it without the audio it doesn't seem to work as well for whatever reason.
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