How the heck am i supposed to cope with this if i wake up at night, second or third time, the heart-hammering and cramps changed into a dissolving feeling in the chest, that my heart will stop immediately while i pop awake and lying on my back but cannot, because of immediate feeling of organ failure and death, i rub my chest and breath like crazy and ask God, please please please give me little more time? Help me through this, please make my heart go on that i can continue. Strength leaving me as i sit up. What the heck should i do?? I have no money, maybe the first medical insurance check in 1.5 years has been paid with the first full salary. Weak as hell, chest rubbing, wheezing, i manage to get clothes on, call emergency, only being told that:
This is usual - "How many years old are you?" - a panic attack, sense and feeling of being annihilated, feelings also can concentrate in heart. It's all psychical, i'm overstressed i'm told and this is how it comes out, this is the symptom. I tell him the doctor said 6 years ago during a thorough heart exam EEG and ultra-sound that my heart & signals are normal, i can do physically what i want. The clerk in attendance - around 01:30am at this night - tells me i should let check myself out with my physician in ordinary.
It's very annoying that i cannot go on like planned, cannot do even the BAHA, because of immediate pressure feeling in chest inconveniences. I have to work otherwise will have no money at all, cannot miss a workday. Daytime i feel i'm exploding inside, agitated, annoyed about the fact that with the worldwide financial crash in 2008 and fewer very good paying workplaces are now occupied by my colleagues with 10 or more years of experience and me with only 1.5 years of experience standing in a low-paying job, flailing my arms helplessly and boiling with anger inside continually.
The problem is with the release, i almost cannot snob or cry. Could only sob a little now as having this panic attack. I just want to know if my heart is okay physically, but this annihilating feeling is soo overwhelming, suffocating, disabling, weakening, (as if my body is being switched off forcefully) dizzying it inducts the thoughts of immediate death when i have so much to do, have plans here in FOTCM.
Dizzy and annoyed, numb in limbs, pressure at lover left side of chest in the muscles/stomach area. Looking it up on the net i found it might be serotonin deficiency? (Donald F. Klein. 1980) Disturbance in metabolism of brain, being treated successfully with antidepressants, selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors. What should i take? Because i certainly don't have time to go to doctor with this, the doctor 6 years ago prescribed a tranquilizer. Is there a healthy SSRI safe to take to ease this condition?
Thank you. I'm looking up SSRI in the forums now.