Infiniteness said:[...] I dont really feel any different after the event, but I noticed Ive been getting more anger(mostly at my brother who is intentionally trying to annoy me). I dont know if its connected or not. Hope this is clear enough.
Thanks to bring about this Infiniteness, the discussion about it gave me some good insights. (Update) I have feelings of anger too since some months ago, but in my case is different, is like more generalized, is not to anyone in particular, just when an act of abuse is involved, funny because since I was a child and even to some part of my adulthood I tended to internalize the anger derived from every act of abuse (emotional and psychological), reflected some times as a very nasty negative introject. A couple of months ago I was doing EE completely five days per week and the emotional results were very strong, as it was suggested twice for a couple of fellows here, now I made Beatha just two or three times per week, the anger is still there but is much more easy to work it and also I try to focus it exactly were it belongs, now I can even say that is kind of a fuel to Do some things related to the Work. Since I started to do Beatha less times per week I don't feel the same strong emotional results - abreactions? - and funny stuff as I tended to experience from EE at the beginning, I thing that everything is flowing in a more natural way I guess, it also has helped me to notice more unobserved programs and wounds... sheesh! it just seems like an endless chain.
Still some times I feel like I'm in a emotional roller coaster and some times depression goes deep, I see it as part of the process, this past weeks for example I started to feel very demotivated but is just that IT - the predators mind - made me forget about hope and the whys of my/our aims. Also, I doesn't even feel the need to rush the process anymore, I feel very calmed, energized and clear minded.