Don Genaro said:Jordi, sorry to hear you've been unwell- It's also occurred to me that your illness may be caused by some resistance to that which you're reluctant to share. I too encourage you to try and aim towards opening up about whatever is on your mind and to not try and "go it alone".
This sounds spot on to me, jordifs. The fact that you got sick might mean that your body is trying to tell you something. It could be a bug too, of course. But you might want to look into this. Maybe something is "blocked", something you haven't released yet, and your body is telling you to "let go" or else it will "explode". Don't want to be too graphic here, but you get the gist. ;)
jordifs said:Your comment about energy is indeed interesting. I do noticed a difference with me and the others, about feelings and perceptions. But there is a difference because I practice EE since it was published and some of their experiences happened to me some time ago (and do not arise again). I did practice EE full-program each day for some time (round breathing included). It seems to me I
evolved from a position where my ego puts before me obstacles I fear (to take responsibility). Now I continue to find similar obstacles, but my mind identify a solution or workaround for each problem, no more fear on my part, I face them with joy.
This could well be the case, but maybe you are not seeing the whole picture? Usually, a person who has gone through something like what you are describing can actually connect MORE to others who are starting the process, because he/she is able to put him/herself into other people's shoes. If you felt disconnected instead of more connected, perhaps there is something that a part of you was afraid of sharing or releasing, which you saw in others? Just a thought.
Nonetheless I recognize my failure to advance. The path lays before my eyes, no doubts, no fears.
I think on walking, but I'm stuck, my feet are immobilized (really I'm in front of a computer, but I'm unable to use the keyboard). I'm not sure if it is lack of strong will or energy.
This made me think of the fact that immobilization with fear is usually associated with diarrhea, for example. One goes into the primitive vagal system. So maybe there is another symbol, and the way to go beyond this is through SHARING.
Wishing you a speedy recovery!