Lilyalic said:
I'm just wondering whether irrational thoughts/ talking to yourself in your head EVER go away? or do they just become a backing track in your mind that are much easier to ignore and KNOW they're false and they're trying to move you from your aim? I suppose it links into the different numbers of man, i.e. man 1,2,3,4,5 - what about after a certain crystallization, or a transformation, do these thoughts get replaced with new ones? do they get replaced with more objective ones? the more you transform and grow, do the thoughts become less self-destroying, more objective?
Maybe consider sculpting as a hobby, it’s useful for focusing attention, on an object outside of oneself, and one could apply some semblance of self-observation... I took up sculpting recently, or rather trying to sculpt, its easy just to sculpt a head if one is not applying any rules, just expressing something with ones hands, perhaps an expression of ones emotions, without expectation of what it should look like, what ever shape or form it takes, it is as it is... One can just observe while one is sculpting, maybe one could experiment with that, in not identifying with thoughts, while one works away. (One need nothing except something like Playdo) maybe you will find it useful.
Though after a while, I tried to up the stakes a bit, by not trying to sculpt that which just happens, but that which is more difficult, where one needs to be more conscious of what one is doing, which is funny as I don’t know if one should know how to sculpt, in theory first... fun and frustration, the negative interject or dialogue is in full swing, though I’m aligned with those thoughts, as indeed my efforts are far from correct, but the negative thought that one believes to be absolute, is not real, as the sculpture it can be changed, it can be made better, through practice, practice, practice, practice, even failure is useful, and after a time there is more of the self in the activity, less distracting thoughts, and what ever you have is that which is your own, from ones own effort, ones own work.
There’s an obvious difference, in the sculpture that just happens, compared to the sculpture that is the result of a more conscious undertaking... though in the beginning the sculpture that just happens, look better than that of the first few attempts of conscious work, where one starts from nothing.
Though it would be nice to do nothing, and get enlightened, without much work at all, and then do that which just excites, which might just be aligned with that which always just happens, as it dose in the world... wars, arguments and what not.
FWIW my two cents
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