How are you feeling?

[Fluffy]

To me Trump's election seems like a positive timeline shift. And considering that the attacks seem to have intensified just before the election, my suspicion is that the "dark forces" were trying to prevent the timeline shift by bringing down the FRV of some people.

I do agree this is an overly positive shift, which is why it seems contradictory with how I feel. May be it has nothing to do with positive or negative but just the shifting of timelines itself, it might just be how the individual responds, and these things coming up since the shift, the lessons, they are positive for change and preparation for the future, especially the emotional stuff, getting ready for hyperkinetic sensations, even if they are difficult to navigate, it’s a small taste of more to come.

If the most previous shift before this was 9/11 then I’d have no awareness of changing in myself back then.

 

[Breo]

Feeling great!
Yesterday, I made a list of things I wanted to do, and today I crossed out every item on that list!
It was a real battle, because some of those tasks had been on the back of my mind for many, many years. I kept overthinking and delaying their completion, causing myself unnecessary stress.

So the trick was to embrace suffering and push through to all the negative 'self-suggestions' no matter what. In other words, make a list and just do it.

Thanks for expressing it. It made me look into my programs. What I do for some time now, is to push through negative self talk - no matter what. What often helps me is to say: it´s a lie! And in the last months, I achieved a lot of positive things, that seemed impossible before, like e.g actively creating an atmosphere of peace and positivity within some really complex relationships. Also I manage to keep stable in contexts where people get more and more short fused, throwing heavy triggers. Actually I'm really happy about it. And in pushing through - no matter what - it skipped my attention to acknowledge that I am happy and grateful for it - and to express it. That´s on my list now, to share joy more often, when its there. Thanks again.

 

[Tomiro]

I've been pretty stressed out lately. The insanity with regard to the state of the world just feels more real. And all the lies surrounding them. Also, there is an ongoing situation with family members causing a lot of stress. This seems to activate old programs where I feel the need to withdraw or disassociate, especially as I feel that there is not much that I can do about them. I've also had various health conditions flare up recently, some of them could of course be from detoxing. Things like EE and exercise seem to help to some extent.

 

[Natus Videre]

What I do for some time now, is to push through negative self talk - no matter what. What often helps me is to say: it´s a lie!

This is what I poetically call: "listening to yourself by not listening to yourself."

 

[Happy Poo]

I've also been feeling like this is a really difficult time, it's been really good to read how others are feeling and to know that I'm not alone and there definitely does seem to be something bigger going on and it's not just me experiencing this.

I've not been in a good place recently, moved from where i was to be nearer my
brother which has been helpful and healing too. He is also being very supportive until i get some stability which i am very very grateful for.

Although i feel like the place/area i am in now is not good and can't put my finger on exactly why. It's nicer than where I used to be in terms of physical, but somehow feels less good in a way i can't really understand. It's quite an affluent area (it was the only marina I could find near my family that had a free mooring where i could put my boat so kind of just ended up here, maybe it wasn't such a good idea in heinsight).

So I'm also struggling financially and it's difficult to find a job as there is seems to be loads of competition for relatively meanial jobs in the UK right now, or it may be just me lol not sure about that either.

This time of year is always difficult for me as it reminds me of loosing my mum, she passed around this time of year and the whole situation was a really traumatic difficult situation, as she was locked in a nursing home during Covid, and there was no other family around because no one could visit due to lockdown. They all lived overseas at the time.
(I did care for her for many years but toward the end couldn't cope alone). I should write about it more in the swamp but find it very difficult to write about. Hopefully in future.
.. It also seems like old throught patterns and regrets are really strong around now, I feel like the old demons come back to haunt me. Old bad habits have come back to an extent so I've got to work to get rid of these again and will do this as soon as I've got through this patch, in the new year is the plan.
I've faced some deep stuff which has been dark recently too, like these resentments i didn't even know were there built up over the years, and facing them was/is painful but hopefully necessary, so maybe it's not such a bad thing I'm not sure.
But I remind myself that I'm definitely not alone even though it feels like it. And reading all of your posts really helps so thanks all.
It also feels like people where i am now are more asleep than where I was before.. I had a good couple of friends in the last place I lived who were very aware of the spiritual battle we now face, one being a friend who actually read the wave after I told him about it. So i miss them and feel very isolated even though i know that i need to be there for my family and also need their help too.. Which they are being very supportive.
Although being somewhere now where there is no one in person who really 'gets it', i find actually quite unsafe. From what I've understood being part of an in person group that understands what's going on is really important, but am finding it difficult to find this in day to day.
I'm going to make a plan to get out of this situation ASAP and am looking for ways to get out of it, just not sure what to do yet. Hoping the answers will come in time. I've been working on creating music but finding it hard to move forward with money worries and the negative energy that seems to be trying it's very best to stop me from doing anything creative. The main attacks seem financial.. Mostly self inflicted of course after years of bad choices! :D
I'm going to look into re training and finding a better income, but all these things take years and also take me away from reaching the goals I've set myself regarding making music etc. Still, I've been singing more and still making as much effort as i can right now to reach daily goals, even if they are tiny steps and will persevere. I've also been sculpting and hopefully in future will make a small business around it so there are good things happening too.
I'm also reminding myself that some people would dream of having half of what I have, so gratitude is helping alot. As I really do have so much to be grateful for. I think right now I'm finding it easy to loose perspective, and thinking about the unimaginable hardships of what people are experiencing in Gaza and the world as a whole is keeping me grounded also. Just keep telling myself to persevere, keep hope and faith. Last couple of days things have improved.. Anyway writing about it helps :) thanks for reading.

 

[Ruth]

Lately I’m struggling with the feeling of life just completely sucking (more than it used to). It comes and goes but when it comes it’s almost debilitating and it takes a whole lot of self counselling just to pull myself through the emotions, usually help myself a bit by putting on my runners and going for a walk up one of the steep hills around here, or if I can, distracting myself with browsing YouTube and watching either feel good videos of animals being saved or whatever or ones where people lives suck more than I perceive mine to.

My suggestion would be to take a look at your diet, maybe book yourself into a naturopath to see if you can get some tips on what you need to increase or eliminate from your diet, and have a look at astrological transits in your natal chart.... if you haven't already thought about that. I have a tendency to think that these two things cover long term mood issues and feelings of depression. In astrology, it's usually the slow moving planets causing the problem.

 

[Fluffy]

My suggestion would be to take a look at your diet, maybe book yourself into a naturopath to see if you can get some tips on what you need to increase or eliminate from your diet, and have a look at astrological transits in your natal chart.... if you haven't already thought about that. I have a tendency to think that these two things cover long term mood issues and feelings of depression. In astrology, it's usually the slow moving planets causing the problem.

Thanks for bringing that up, nice synchronicity for me about astrology as yesterday I watched a video for the year ahead for Capricorn Sun people (I also have a Capricorn rising) and many other Caps in the comments said much the same as I have here. Pluto left Capricorn recently, retrograded, now has gone for the rest of my life… other things about Neptune moving into Aries (I have lots of neptunian stuff and Aries moon) next year helping ground and organise which excites me because I’ve been flapping around in these old energies that feel really worn out. I am in the process of some totally new energies coming in. I actually cried listening to the reading and reading other comments on it, I really feel like I’ve been getting flogged (my whole life) and could do with a revamp of cosmic opportunity!

Im one of those ones that do best on a strict keto diet with lettuce …. I find it almost impossible to adhere to lately.

 

[Ruth]

At the moment I'm feeling frustrated and angry at society in general (Australia) at my inability to communicate how easy it would be to shake up the government using the system we already have in place - elections. This seems especially difficult to do, even with 'alternative' websites etc, or people open to alternative views. They all seem so accepting of the status quo, "what the government says" as well as their assumptions about things.

There is an election coming up next year and the entire country is completely ignorant about HOW they count votes. That gives the government, as well as any long serving incumbent politician, the advantage.

I don't think many people know that when we are mandated to vote, in reality, we are just voting for one or other of the top two candidates. If people knew that, they would be able to put the incumbent they wanted to get rid of LAST in their preferences (providing they didn't vote for one or other of the top two candidates) and their vote would then go to the other person in the top two. Which would likely lead to an unco-operative and unrepresentative incumbent losing their seat. Power back to the people. And we are powerless here in Australia except for this one thing.

I think this was a saying atributed to Stalin: "It's not who votes who counts, but who counts the votes that counts." The system in Australia means that it's HOW the votes are counted that matters.

Recently with the advent of the US elections, I had a small idea about how those in charge go about 'securing the outcome' they want. When the outcome is between two candidates, or two things (such as a referendum), then to 'secure an outcome' they want, they have to cheat. When it's more complicated, then they need a 'system' that gives them the advantage, or a system of which the people are completely ignorant of.

 

[nicklebleu]

Things are really weird at the moment. One the one hand there was a positive shift in the narrative - Trump election, more open discussion of the Covid psyop, etc - but on the other hand, the ‘powers under threat’ have collected themselves and started to strike back - Romanian elections, Moldovan elections, Syria’s fall, etc. To me it feels like the tension is increasing from both sides, so the ‘reality gap’ is getting wider and wider, but most people around me don’t seem to notice at all!

At the same time I find a similar ‘inner tension’ building up - on one side a certain detachment from the daily ups and downs, a certain emotional distance, when at the same time on the other hand the despair grows deeper and deeper about all the horror and injustice around the traps.

And nearing the end of 2024 the realization, that once again, a year has gone by which was worse than the last in ways we couldn’t really imagine at the start, and likely it won’t be different in 2025.

Another year in which is was just a little bit harder to stay sane and forward-looking.

 

[naorma]

Things are really weird at the moment. One the one hand there was a positive shift in the narrative - Trump election, more open discussion of the Covid psyop, etc - but on the other hand, the ‘powers under threat’ have collected themselves and started to strike back - Romanian elections, Moldovan elections, Syria’s fall, etc. To me it feels like the tension is increasing from both sides, so the ‘reality gap’ is getting wider and wider, but most people around me don’t seem to notice at all!

At the same time I find a similar ‘inner tension’ building up - on one side a certain detachment from the daily ups and downs, a certain emotional distance, when at the same time on the other hand the despair grows deeper and deeper about all the horror and injustice around the traps.

Since the drama in Syria, I feel a bit like you described. In Vienna, we had so many Syrian people on the streets celebrating the fall of Assad. There were about 30,000 people apparently. and the police didn't try to hurt them And what's striking is: In Vienna on 30 November, people at the demonstration for peace and a different government were treated like prisoners, like enemies, they were not allowed to go to the toilet, they were threatened with water cannons, etc.. It gives you a strange feeling about the government. (I mean of course one knows that but it is a very strong sign).
I'm not really desperate, but a bit shocked in the sense of waking up. I'm trying to keep my balance and my inner laughter hasn't disappeared, but it's a bit overshadowed by these events. This usually lasts about 2-3 days and then my inner laughter comes back. Because that's all I can do....

 

[Ruth]

Disgusted and dismayed at the behaviour of Israel, but mostly with those individuals who are apologists and who do backflips with contortions to morally justify such obsceninties. They have learned nothing from 9/11, Jan 6th or the global Covid response. I firmly believe that karma will force them to suffer the same behaviour that they condone. It's both nauseating and frightening.