How are you feeling?

[Pat]

I was thinking the same thing. If your son can find someone he really likes he may also learn to trust men in general? Also, some of us learn better if we like the person who is teaching us. One thing I have learnt is that it is not easy for young boys and men to grow up with no decent male role model and community. Perhaps he feels let down by the most important men in his life and by his community? I think we mothers must truly understand that young men need healthy masculine energy in order to develop themselves further. We gave them our "feminine energy", but that's all we can do OSIT.

Right now, the only thing I can ask for is if he had a good night sleep. He is seriously leaking sleep and energy to go through the day.
I saw him looking and talking better the last two days. Let's wait and see.:)

 

[SlipNet]

In the last week I've undergone a consolidation within as I've amassed info and reached an "estimate of the situation.". And I believe I have managed to come to (largely) my own conclusions as well. Every day has become a well worn groove. I wake up, pour myself a strong black coffee, smoke a strong dark cig, and begin reading and viewing Forum/SOTT/NEWSREAL. It sets the agenda for the day, and I work on my reading till about 12am. Then I sit back, pour myself one glass of Merlot, and reflect on what my day has been like. For fun I watch 1960s-1980s classic thrillers and this meets a need within. Living with "The Beast" has become my state of being of late, and generally I've been fairly chipper. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. Just knowing what our cosmic reality is to some extent gives the soul a foothold in an uncertain world.

 

[SlipNet]

Recently I've had more sombre realisations too. I've come to terms with a simple fact in my karmic and simple understandings. Basically, I've had to deal with the realisation that many folk on our 3d STS world are gonna be checking out in the coming decade. The world will be a very different landscape in say, 2035 for example. If I lose any old friends, well, I'll be sure to miss them. But I have made my choice; I'm here until the bitter end, I made this choice years ago, but only now am I starting to feel and know what this future is that's panning out. But the Normies just don't have that itch, that mercurial drive for truth. And their souls are starving for reality.

They go with the flow and are each heading for an exit point. I guess "shit happens". But I've made a vital understanding of my own personal mission: basically, to learn all I can understand to the best of my abilities. This can make me appear an extremist, because this is a primal response to one's objective understandings of the "estimate of the situation", because it's quite a jolt, a shock to the system to see it all as it actually is. It's plain and simple; we are ruled by a shadowy cabal of psychopathic control freaks, with murderous intent along with depraved sexual minds. It exists in the shadows while the MSM feed the docile masses a dire slop of mainstream politically correct propaganda. Doing the right thing (in my personal worldview) feels good, so why do anything else? Be the change that you want to see in the world is a golden maxim. The whole subject of "disclosure" is at the epicentre of my mind these days. The lid of the "pressure cooker" is bubbling over periodically, showing a flashing glimpse of the hidden power structures. The SAPs exist, and they have info that would explode our world.

I feel upbeat but ever so slightly pensive thinking about how the future will unfold. No-one knows just how it's all gonna be, but we have all on here made the commitment to stay it out and see/experience as it all eventually unfolds. The next 10 years will tell us plenty and perhaps we will have undergone a modification in our "estimate of the situation", a change in our (both individually and collectively) knowing & being? And, yes, reality by then will "feel" different, because by then we will know more than we do today. Time for a cigarette I think....and one last cup of strong black Coffee! Fuel for my fire. Generally I still feel good about my place in the grand, multi-faceted cosmic play. In many respects I'm a Hobbit. A lowly character with a low social profile, but armed with an inherent curiosity and an intuitive mind. And I'm diligently putting all my ideas together. That's good enough for now I think.

 

[axj]

But I've made a vital understanding of my own personal mission: basically, to learn all I can understand to the best of my abilities. This can make me appear an extremist, because this is a primal response to one's objective understandings of the "estimate of the situation", because it's quite a jolt, a shock to the system to see it all as it actually is. It's plain and simple; we are ruled by a shadowy cabal of psychopathic control freaks, with murderous intent along with depraved sexual minds.

That is all true, but it is also good to remember that many of the most important simple and karmic lessons are about ourselves, our 'inner world', doing the Work on ourselves and raising our FRV on the mental, emotional and physical body levels through detox and healing, etc. Focusing only on the outer world can only take us so far and is only a part of the equation.

 

[c0rv3n]

Thought I'd start a thread here on this seemingly very general topic. The reason being that, from time to time, members have posted in other threads (or started new ones) to express odd feelings about the state of the world or the society in which they live, and how it may be impacting them psychologically and emotionally. I also noticed a few notable people on social media mentioning that they were feeling particularly weird or negative in recent days/weeks, with one or two saying that they had been unusually waking up at 3am recently with dark or "demonic" thoughts.

Anyway, that's what this thread is for; for members here to highlight any odd, out of the blue feelings or perceptions that may, or may not, be related to the less than optimal path that our world seems to be following.

Basically, it's a place to share 'how you are feeling' about yourself, the world in which we all live, and the events that are taking place on it.

I've been feeling lost like I'm standing on quick sand, like I can't move, the atmosphere feels weird, like if "all of the weight of the world is on my shoulders" kind of thing. I've had some episodes of like feeling disconnected and sometimes I can feel people's pain, you know? I'm not sure how to describe it and I'm not saying I have super psychic powers. I've asked my reiki teacher about it and she told me I need to learn to control it, she says she feels it too, she gave me a couple of breathing techniques and she told me I should satay close to nature and control it, to take sun bathings and stuff, I also pray and keep my crystals close to me. I don't know, it feels strange, or maybe I'm going crazy. I don't read or watch the news, everything is manipulated, social media etc., so I just stay away from those. I don't know this time is different, it feels weird, I guess I'm surrounded by a lot of negativity and i guess it is just my imagination, I'm not sure, the world is a goofy place.

Thanks!

 

[SlipNet]

That is all true, but it is also good to remember that many of the most important simple and karmic lessons are about ourselves, our 'inner world', doing the Work on ourselves and raising our FRV on the mental, emotional and physical body levels through detox and healing, etc. Focusing only on the outer world can only take us so far and is only a part of the equation.

Agreed! I've been pleasantly surprised by how my inner talking has changed over the years as this "consolidation process" has been proceeding. I'm in a much better place than 10 years ago, and will now work so that I'll know so much more in 10 years time. I understand myself and the world on a pragmatic level in the main. I see the system, and yes I hate it. But you still have to exist in this world and the work on the self is important in this respect. Physically I'm about average. Mentally I'm okay, and emotionally I'm very much learning. Much of it I put down to diligent work over the years along with a more mature outlook as I'm now 50 years old. I'm a very different man to the the 40 year old I used to be. And when I reach (DCM willing) 60, I'll be different again. 10 more years of karmic & simple lessons still await me, so long as I don't get complacent or obsessive about things in the wider world which are beyond my control.

 

[meadow_wind]

These days I've been reflecting on where I stand in life and where I would like to head in the future, on all levels, but mostly professionally speaking.

My kids are growing fast and one day, they will fly with their own wings. I realize I must find a passion other than being a mother otherwise, it will be bitter the day they leave the house. I'm also thinking about my parents who are growing older... And that one day, they won't be there any longer. That's a little scary... I see everyone getting older around me, getting sick, and/or losing loved ones... I guess that's what they mean by the 40's crisis? This realization that we've passed the midpoint?

Other than that, I've been quite tired the past few weeks because I've had a food relapse. I had been doing quite well at the diet detox thing, to the point where I no longer have hand pain when I wake up, and plenty of energy daytime. But Christmas... is the ultimate temptation test! And I failed of course. I indulged so much: maple sirup sugar cake for breakfast, plates of local goat/sheep cheeses with bread for lunch, chips, snacks, etc., etc. And I haven't been able to stop since then, only to slow down a bit. Last weekend I indulged in a Pesto bread (oh my God, simply mouth-dripping), and pastries that were so delicious... the perfect texture: crisp on the outside and moist on the inside.

As for my heart, I have not updated my thread yet because I was observing how I was doing first. So I'll say that it's been mostly stable, but the Afib sometimes reminds me that it's there, waiting in the dark...

The priority now is to get back on track so that I get my energy levels stabilized, then tackle the hoarding problem to clear some space. It's hard to let go of certain things that have an emotional value, or changing the thought that "it's useful/we might need this one day".

 

[iamthatis]

I've been feeling lost like I'm standing on quick sand, like I can't move, the atmosphere feels weird, like if "all of the weight of the world is on my shoulders" kind of thing. I've had some episodes of like feeling disconnected and sometimes I can feel people's pain, you know? I'm not sure how to describe it and I'm not saying I have super psychic powers. I've asked my reiki teacher about it and she told me I need to learn to control it, she says she feels it too, she gave me a couple of breathing techniques and she told me I should satay close to nature and control it, to take sun bathings and stuff, I also pray and keep my crystals close to me. I don't know, it feels strange, or maybe I'm going crazy. I don't read or watch the news, everything is manipulated, social media etc., so I just stay away from those. I don't know this time is different, it feels weird, I guess I'm surrounded by a lot of negativity and i guess it is just my imagination, I'm not sure, the world is a goofy place.

Thanks!

Yeah, it's a super weird time to be alive. If you're picking up the emotions of others, I'd recommend putting up an energetic boundary, as discussed here.

I'd also suggest reading and watching the news, at least to some extent. Maybe just SOTT? After all, it is very important to 'pay attention to reality, right and left', as recommended by the C's.

 

[Pat]

Bonjour all, it's so nice to have a place where talking about "I" doesn't feel weird or egocentric. I read that our feelings feel different, sometimes hard to pin point. We are really in a place where we have never been before with so much possibilities to construct something beautiful/new but with so little knowledge of our strength and how to use our free will.
I have been feeling better recently. I have distanced myself from my son physically and in my mind. I have to constantly reject the idea of something going wrong and me panicking. I want sincerely to believe and find peace in believing that the universe doesn't make mistake and that all is how it should be.
I concentrate on myself mainly, organising my day to spend hours painting. I am really pushing my creativity to the limit for a better world. I will wait and see. Merci all

 

[Jones]

I've definitely noticed a strange undercurrent lately, both personally and in conversations with others. There's this sense of unease that seems to be lingering, like something is "off" but hard to pinpoint. The waking up at 3 AM thing is interesting—I’ve heard multiple people mention that recently.

Maybe it’s a combination of world events, the speed of information, and the general uncertainty in the air, but it does feel like more people are carrying this low-level anxiety or even existential dread. Does anyone else feel like their emotions or mental state are being affected in ways they can’t quite explain?

Hello Harshini, since this is your first post you are invited to write an introduction in the Newbies forum to tell us a bit about yourself and how you found your way here.

 

[Z...]

I enjoyed this article and I thought you would too
Some key points:

What longstanding programs of our own lurk there that are not life enhancing?

Is it not possible to miss out on precious opportunities to show love to others and to evolve our inner condition in the little time we have left?

St. Augustine once said: “Treat your body as though you would live forever, and treat your soul as though you will die tomorrow.”

What strengths we can tap into? What does it require for us to enter a higher frequency?

How to be warrior for truth?

Using your psyche to repel nanotech

Find your center and your root

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[c0rv3n]

Yeah, it's a super weird time to be alive. If you're picking up the emotions of others, I'd recommend putting up an energetic boundary, as discussed here.

I'd also suggest reading and watching the news, at least to some extent. Maybe just SOTT? After all, it is very important to 'pay attention to reality, right and left', as recommended by the C's.

Yeah, the other day I went to the store near my house to get groceries. There was a kid, he must have been about 14 years old, selling trash bags. He approached me to sell them, but I told him I didn't need any that day. When I looked at him, his eyes reflected such sadness that I couldn't bear to stare. I immediately turned my head and told him, 'No, dude, I don't need any bags today. Thank you.' Then, I felt a sharp pain in my chest, and as I walked away, I started crying. It came out of nowhere!!! I felt incredibly sad, like I wanted to throw myself to the ground and cry. I didn't, but when I got home, I cried.
Sometimes, when I'm in crowded supermarkets, I get the same feeling. It's not pleasant, and I try to avoid crowded places. It makes me feel really bad. This started to happen when I was learning Reiki.

Thank you so much for the suggestion I'll try to do that.

 

[Il Matto]

I have been feeling better recently. I have distanced myself from my son physically and in my mind. I have to constantly reject the idea of something going wrong and me panicking. I want sincerely to believe and find peace in believing that the universe doesn't make mistake and that all is how it should be.

This is really great to hear Pat.
In connection to the bold sentence above, I've just - finally - finished reading What to say when you talk to yourself by Shad Helmstetter which is a very practical little book with loads of good information regarding changing your programming (via changing how you talk to yourself). Your comment about having to 'constantly reject the idea of something going wrong' sounds like it could be a good candidate for a programme that needs to be re-written, so I thought this may be a useful recommendation.

 

[Pat]

Thank you @Il Matto for the recommendation.

 

[Fluffy]

Yeah, the other day I went to the store near my house to get groceries. There was a kid, he must have been about 14 years old, selling trash bags. He approached me to sell them, but I told him I didn't need any that day. When I looked at him, his eyes reflected such sadness that I couldn't bear to stare. I immediately turned my head and told him, 'No, dude, I don't need any bags today. Thank you.' Then, I felt a sharp pain in my chest, and as I walked away, I started crying. It came out of nowhere!!! I felt incredibly sad, like I wanted to throw myself to the ground and cry. I didn't, but when I got home, I cried.
Sometimes, when I'm in crowded supermarkets, I get the same feeling. It's not pleasant, and I try to avoid crowded places. It makes me feel really bad. This started to happen when I was learning Reiki.

Thank you so much for the suggestion I'll try to do that.

Have you always been like this? I have and I think that it’s important to know a lot about the situation we are in, how we got in it, and what to do personally and individually about it, something like ‘staying frosty’ as one astrologer I listened to the other day said about Capricorns, hilarious, no one ever suggested to me to stay frosty before and I can be so freaking frosty I could freeze over hell, but at the same time hugely compassionate- what a dichotomy, bit it’s kinda perfect because it gives a nice balance between observing, keeping my emotions in check and also feeling for the plight of the world and its inhabitants.

But then sometimes I need that release, so I allow myself to cry, or sometimes even more rare, I cry at the strangest things, like hearing the firemen coming in their trucks dressed up in tinsel to hand out lollies for the kids at Christmas, I wanted to throw myself in the ground and howl like a wounded animal, I felt like such a silly sausage about it….


So my advice is to stay frosty, especially in public, don’t let anyone steal away your energy. C’s say we are in the times of hyperkinetic sensate, so anything we feel, any mental programs, unresolved traumas, wounds, and weak spots are going to be sensationally amplified like they have their own body and this will get more intense the wave increases.