How are you feeling?

Lately, I sometimes struggle to remember what I ate earlier in my day, I drop things, I broke 3 dishes/cups, and cherry on top of the cake this morning: I forgot my wallet in my grocery cart and left. I came back 30 min later to look for it, but it was gone, even though the cart was still there. And no one brought it back to the grocery store. I called twice during the day to check, and nope. This is the 2nd time I forget it somewhere, but the last time the store had it. This time, there was a lot of cash and many cards.... So frustrating! I don't care about the cash if it can help someone who is struggling, but having to redo all those freaking cards is.... :headbash:

I was so agitated about this that I wasn't sure I would be able to do the mediation. In the end, I don't remember anything Laura said; it seems I fell "asleep," but I woke up just before she started counting.
Sorry to hear that. Maybe too much stress lately?

I was in hurry last Tuesday and I accidentally ironed my left hand.:lol: I think I'll have a permanent scar.
 
I feel generally that the control system has turned the knob up on the pressure cooker trying to burst out lids off any way they can, each of us under our own individualised, custom made pressures, uniquely tailored to fit our situation, and I think they are really enjoying it.

It just keeps coming, thing after thing after thing…
 
Lately, I sometimes struggle to remember what I ate earlier in my day, I drop things, I broke 3 dishes/cups, and cherry on top of the cake this morning: I forgot my wallet in my grocery cart and left. I came back 30 min later to look for it, but it was gone, even though the cart was still there. And no one brought it back to the grocery store. I called twice during the day to check, and nope. This is the 2nd time I forget it somewhere, but the last time the store had it. This time, there was a lot of cash and many cards.... So frustrating! I don't care about the cash if it can help someone who is struggling, but having to redo all those freaking cards is.... :headbash:

I was so agitated about this that I wasn't sure I would be able to do the mediation. In the end, I don't remember anything Laura said; it seems I fell "asleep," but I woke up just before she started counting.
Gosh I know how you feel! I dropped the sparkplug from my mower, had to go buy one. I forget like crazy. Losing words is the most aggravating thing. I set up all my debts to pay automatically. Safer for all.

I'm the oldest of 5 girls my Mom had. I wonder if any of this memory problem stuff hit her. I know she already had the clumsy fingers problem.

Getting old is for squat!
 
I’m at the point where I’m pretty okay with myself. I’m also okay enough that I can change the things that I need to change to be a better person whilst still acknowledging the wonderful things I do bring into my work, community, relationships, and life. I’m not stopping to rest with those things though, I can do better and I am all the time learning more as my life gets better and better. But if I don’t acknowledge my shortcomings I’m not in a position to keep growing. I have the courage to face myself now instead of dissociating. I joyfully find things in myself to work on and improve.

I vowed to myself during covid that I would relentlessly pursue self-improvement and I’ve stuck to that. I feel like constructive self criticism and is a good skill to foster. It’s like self parenting.
This is what this forum has given me. And I recognise things I have learned when participating in discussions, so thank you for the opportunity to get thoughts down 🤗
There seems to have been an explosion of awareness since January 2020. I know that I have become much more involved in self-knowledge and improvement, and I was no slacker before then! It simply felt more imperative at that point.
 
I feel generally that the control system has turned the knob up on the pressure cooker trying to burst out lids off any way they can,
I was wondering the same thing, because I find things heavier and more difficult lately, plus there are other suspicious things...
  • My daughter told me for the 3rd time that she feels her heart having random palpitations (a bit like my Afib) and being out of breath when she runs, things she didn't have before, and it seems to have started this year for no reason, since she is super in shape...
  • My son (4 years old) is having nightmares more often, and dark circles started to appear under his eyes about a year ago, and they just seem to get worse (darker and deeper).
  • A couple of things have disappeared from the house...
 
Gosh I know how you feel! I dropped the sparkplug from my mower, had to go buy one. I forget like crazy. Losing words is the most aggravating thing. I set up all my debts to pay automatically. Safer for all.

I'm the oldest of 5 girls my Mom had. I wonder if any of this memory problem stuff hit her. I know she already had the clumsy fingers problem.

Getting old is for squat!
Are you taking any brain supplements in order to increase acetylcholine, @Cat_Sass? Here is a video about this neurochemical and the supplements you can take to increase it:

If you look at EO Nutrition YouTube's page you will find more videos about brain inflammation and the supplements that may help.

What is your diet like?
 
Good job, @Pat! It can take time, but you are taking steps towards finding a balance.
And, about free will and all, I would recommend that you listen to these regularly:


(I think @Renaissance is making one with Laura's voice, but I couldn't find it)

I hope that helps.

Sorry for the late reply; been juggling a handful of things lately. I had scrapped the previous attempt and I've started working on a new one. I think I have the video done and am working on the captions now. Will give you a heads up for review when it's ready.
 
Thank you for sharing about your recent thoughts and struggles, it's helpful to read through it all to put in context what's going on inside and with me lately. And it also helps to understand better what's going on in the people around me. Lately there's a stronger urge to get things sorted which haven't been sorted yet, and keeping at it step by step. And I experience stronger emotional attacks since then; but that appears to be a general phenomenon right now, also given the new conflict outbreak in the Middle East. Things certainly seem to be speeding up.

But these kinds of attacks at least seem to have the advantage to point out some urgent issues that need to be concentrated upon in dealing with them. Like with many here, one of my root issues is struggling with self-love - it's like being in one state at one hour or one day where I can just see myself with my strengths and flaws in an accepting and calm manner, while the next hour or day there's much self-loathing going on. It's like living two polarities. However, when being in the negative state it helps to remember somewhat how it was in the positive state and to know that it will return. But oh my...it feels quite like a rollercoaster at times!

And there's a struggle against old habits, too. Thinking as well as behavior. It feels very palpable at present, like rope-pulling (between "Yes" and "No" or "Like" and "Dislike").

There were moments too where I felt comforted in a similar way like some of you reported: One evening recently there happened some emotional break-down, and then later in the night (on the periphery of sleep) I had some vision or image of a demonic alien feeding off my emotions. But there was another presence that felt comforting. It was like Pierre and other deceased forum members were there, as well as some guardian spirit that has been accompanying me throughout my life. It was like they were treating me around the chest, and after that it was easier to fall asleep. (The demonic vision had probably gone away early at that treatment.)

I also feel a greater sense of connection with you all; also as we're going through these intense times together feeling very similar, and with all of us having issues and challenges going on that seem more severe than before (especially 2020).
 
Are you taking any brain supplements in order to increase acetylcholine, @Cat_Sass? Here is a video about this neurochemical and the supplements you can take to increase it:

If you look at EO Nutrition YouTube's page you will find more videos about brain inflammation and the supplements that may help.

What is your diet like?
My sister does 99% of the cooking, and she feeds us well! She and I eat low-carb, and my brother in law eats whatever she fixes. 🙂 A couple of vegetables bought raw and cooked here, salad, and meat cooked fresh. She is a great cook!
 
Are you taking any brain supplements in order to increase acetylcholine, @Cat_Sass? Here is a video about this neurochemical and the supplements you can take to increase it:

If you look at EO Nutrition YouTube's page you will find more videos about brain inflammation and the supplements that may help.

What is your diet like?
I am taking a choline bitartrate, plus acetyl L-carnitine with alpha lipoic acid, which is supposed to help memory.
 

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