MENTAL BLOCKING

[Alma.Innovadora]

By our behavior or choices or ignorance, arrogance or capriciousness.

If we're here to learn, then it means that we're wrong by default, but it also means we don't have to remain wrong.

Very interesting, thank you Alejo.

Well, that's what I'm working on now. Looking for the root of those sequels of my actions, attitudes, whims and egocentrism that will have once served to "help" me to be more confident of myself, to not put up with the abuse of others, etc. but that at the same time, left "collateral effects". Because without realizing it, there was a time when I turned into what I detested and lived under the "Eye for an eye".I don't come from a very healthy family, I practically looked outside for what I never had in the right way in my family, that created a lot of resistances of all kinds that you will know much more than me without saying much, and that's why now it's hard for me to see the mess I've made (laughs).

Unspoken words can lead to trauma, that is, the not acted out response to an injury can be traumatic. I don't mean to contact everyone who's ever betrayed you because that can be even more troublesome, but you could write them letters expressing everything you feel, you think and what it all meant, and keep them for yourself or burn them. Give that part of yourself a voice so that it doesn't feel ignored, and it can move on.

I'll try, I stopped writing a long time ago. I thought I didn't need it anymore because I decided to express how I felt. It was also not that I used it as a method of anything, just one day I was doing it and just as it came, it left.

Now that you mention it, I've only contacted two people again a long time ago, because if I did something wrong to their faces, the right thing to do is to come forward. Just as I talk about "the effect of unsaid words", there are people who also deserve to be heard, I spent so much time suing without realizing it so I thought it was the right thing, to listen now I, to put myself in their shoes because that problem was generated by me. I also took it as an exercise in working on humility.

The biggest damage I did to some is to return their words, especially when I was manipulative and arrogant people, I believed I had every right to do it because of how badly they treated others and in the end I became exactly the same, I enjoyed it. I can see the mirror in it.

Now, if those two people interpreted the fact that I contacted them again for apologizing as a sign of victimizing repentance, it was already their decision because I'm just being true to myself in that sense, I don't do it because I'm "tormented". But if the person incurs the same attitudes again for which I reacted badly, I simply will not act in the same way, I control myself, but there I have nothing to do and there the door is open anything.

That's because I spent a lot of time putting up with other people's garbage so well, I took very literally "give what you get" and "to everyone the fair".

It's tragic comical these lessons... others do it and it goes great, "Oh! cool, the bad guy/girl" But one does and all the universal laws fall on us... nice public school where we are (laughs).

Thanks again!

 

[Alejo]

That's because I spent a lot of time putting up with other people's garbage so well, I took very literally "give what you get" and "to everyone the fair".

And also because people don't deserve to be treated like garbage just because it's you who dispenses said garbage. And that's what I meant by we attract these events in our lives. Like, removing yourself from that idea, forgetting that you won't do it because you might get it, because you're still thinking about yourself.

Sometimes the lesson is very simple, you just don't treat people like that. It's childish and immature, and that is no way to get what you want. And not everyone knows this, and that is one of the reasons they can cheat and justify it after, because they don't want to consider themselves as evil or selfish.

But one has to be at peace with that fact, you could treat people badly, but you don't have to, but not everyone knows this. And by this I do not mean being a pushover, but rather placing aggression in its right place within you and becoming aware (and indeed choosing) of who you're going to (if you ever do) hurt.

 

[Alma.Innovadora]

And also because people don't deserve to be treated like garbage just because it's you who dispenses said garbage. And that's what I meant by we attract these events in our lives.

Sometimes the lesson is very simple, you just don't treat people like that. It's childish and immature

Exactly. I could see it, I avoided it, I applied it, but I just snapped. I was immature in those years, what else was I going to do that wasn't immature? I had my weak common sense, but that wasn't enough protection, not with the kind of people I was always surrounded by. The lesson was simple certainly, there certainly are some, but even the slightest provocative situation with the necessary ignorance is enough to break you.

Yes, indeed I have also received a spoonful of my own medicine in specific cases. I recognize it, I accept it and I try to contemplate it enough to learn from it. I know very well where I have failed in this aspect and swallowing the dose of karmic spoon that corresponds to me, no matter how bitter it may be, there is no problem with that.

But one has to be at peace with that fact, you could treat people badly, but you don't have to, but not everyone knows this. And by this I do not mean being a pushover, but rather placing aggression in its right place within you and becoming aware (and indeed choosing) of who you're going to (if you ever do) hurt.

It has been interesting how I have had to be like others who act like this, observe it in me, make it part of me and go through a transformation that I avoided at all costs and in the process understand why others do it, do the same to others and then become aware of it to act differently or in the appropriate way in the face of those experiences. I had to touch the extremes, do what is and is not due, so to speak.

Really thank you for the mirror Alejo, because everything you have written to me, EVERYTHING, is what I needed to read since the ego has also taken subtle forms in which they can still make me believe that I may be right, when it is not so as well as the opposite! (laughs)

Reading the reading that everyone has shared as a result of this thread, I have been putting together the messy mental puzzle that I have had, Nancy Colier's reading is wonderful. After all, I still have resentments, pessimism and bitterness that I have not been fully aware of, there are still remnants.

I must change internal dialogues that have not been favorable, such as "if I am going to be surrounded by people who are only going to bother me, I prefer to be alone" which is contradictory because at the end of the day, that chaos is necessary to move forward, in fact when I was younger that was my bubble, my escapism, isolating myself. I had not realized all that pending task.

So well, to work very hard, there is no other way. Above all because I want to recover or bring back to "surface" positive aspects that I buried about myself.

Well, as in the transcriptions:

Is there anything I need to know that I didn't ask?

Thank you so much!