Great thread. I started 5-htp yesterday, I took 100mg, 1 in the afternoon and 1 in the evening. I am very happy to report that my anxiety has disappeared, my appetite today is better than I can remember since I have been feeling nausea(no nausea since taking it) for about 5 months. I even ate 2 burgers today, they have been sitting in my freezer for many months. I could not bring myself to eating them, as I have been extremely sensitive about eating.
I have had crying bouts during my prayers at meal time, during the meal and too sometimes during evening prayer. It is always linked to eating 1d and 2d entities. And all the children who have died today. I was so amazed at getting my appetite back, and actually enjoyed them. Enjoying eating has been a challenge and a worry. Depression is easily seen after the fact. I still do not consider that I was depressed, but my mood has improved greatly in the last 24hrs.
I have seen a wide variety of doses being suggested here, the label on my bottle (Now brand, 50mg, $19.81, 90 capsules, L-5-hydroxytryptophan, Griffonia simplicifolia, graine)(I hope I spelled that right, as 5-htp has done nothing to help with elder onset near sightedness...lol) says to take 2-4 a day, 30-45 min before bedtime with food. I am not following this, as sleeping is not my issue, I sleep usually 8hrs, with no interuptions. I am thinking of taking 1 cap with every meal. Is taking it with a meal ok? I don't feel sick or anything. I plan to take this regularly, no cycling on and off, but I will take it 'one day at a time'. I will start the 1 per meal regimen tomorrow. Please share your thoughts on this dosing topic.
I had an interesting experience during my EE today.... yes I'm back to doing EE, since the anxiety has gone. So during my EE, in one of the rest periods, eyes wide open, it started out as a small pin size, grew to take up about half my vision, so I still could see around it, (the edges around it were fuzzy) and then shrunk back quickly. What I saw was my workshop, extremely clearly.....hmmmm. Very vivid. Totally real, like it was really there, not like any hallucination I can remember, it did not appear to be a hallucination, it was really there, it was so vivid. And then gone just as quickly. I don't think I should share that on the EE forum web site.
So I took one last night (50mg), I could not sleep and stayed up very late, I was in a very 'high' state of mind, laughing etc. Really good, almost manic though, but not, just awake! I played some poker, I had such a blast, I won a few hundred (play) bucks, I was chatting away with the other players, having a hoot! Not making my usual morose comments about the Queen being a soul sucking, drug dealing, Lizard Alien Hybrid. (that never went over well anyways) I really had fun last night.
Today has been an even keel day, no mood swings, no outbursts, although a guy did almost hit me with his bike as he passed me without warning me. I did say rather loudly, "Its called a bell ya tool!" Just a nice day in general.
My next couple of steps I plan to take are the Ultra Simple Diet, getting some baking utensils.... going buckwheat, and the Mercury detox. If anyone would like to make a suggestion, I am open to it and would appreciate your input. I also am going to take the Ultra Mind Quiz. I am planning to get a daily log book specifically for experiences with EE, diet, general feelings, thoughts and so fourth, again... any suggestions? I journal allot, but it is more philosophical and creative, I do not want to stop that, just add a new/old dimension to my daily writing, plus I want to be more productive to the membership here on the forum. Baby steps though, progress, not perfection. Each moment is perfect on its own anyways.
Today I thought about going to see a doctor. I want to get checked out, but on my terms. So I require the forums help here. I don't want to waste my time, I want it to be a productive visit. I want to instruct (the poor soul, who will have to put up with my attitude) , this lucky person, on what I want done regarding my blood work. But I don't know where to start. What to ask, and so fourth. I want to leave a doctors office for once feeling empowered with information, that I can actually use. So where can I go to find this info? Or who knows what I should instruct them to do. Any help would be really, really appreciated.
I just want to express my appreciation to all again for the info., help and support. This forum has really made a difference in my life.
I am getting much more organized on here, I have a focus, a number of threads, bookmarked, to read. I hope to participate with some of my own research even. I don't quite know what it will be, but, I am making progress. I look forward to that.
cheers
Harold
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