truth seeker said:
Laura said:
Session Date: September 13th 2009
Laura, Ark, PL, Joe, A***, DD, Allen, Keit, C**, Scottie, G***
A: Where is your faith in your abilities to rise to the occasion?
Q: (L) [Groans!] (Scottie) Ya know what would be awesome? Offer a CD, and then use the evil iTunes to distribute the music. (Allen) Absolutely. (Scottie) I mean, we could give it for free, too. (Joe) I think you should just start talking, ya know? And do as many tapes as you need. Just start somewhere. (A***) We could always pick a topic and we could throw questions at you. (Allen) Maybe you should just start with saying "In the beginning..." and see where it leads?
A: Try it!
Q: (L) Oooh! I don't want to do that!! (Keit) Why not? (L) I look horrible on video! (Chorus) You do NOT!! (Keit) But we'll make you pretty! (PL) You already did it! (A***) You looked beautiful! (Allen) Got a special filter that will make you look like who you want to look like. (Ark) It's fixed. (L) What's fixed? (Ark) This future is fixed. [singing] You can do it! You will do it! (L) I don't want to talk to you guys any more. (Ark) You don't want kisses? (Joe) Laura? (Allen) You never saw the last video we shot!
A: Just do it! Release the last one to see response!
Q: (Allen) We filmed one that she hasn't even seen. (DD) Well, let's see it! (Allen) And that's the one we talked about that we'd just put up for free... (A***) She's never happy with them, though. (Keit) Let others decide. (Joe) We're the viewing public. (Keit) And people will be really happy! (L) I feel like a dog and pony show.
I'm never satisfied with how I appear in pictures or sound recorded but when I ask other people about it, they genuinely don't see what I perceive. I feel the same about you. There's nothing wrong with how you look or sound. There's nothing wrong with you, period. Anyone who sees or hears you and is only concerned with those trivial matters is really missing the point.
It reminds me a bit of those of us who are shy about posting. All of us are afraid of rejection in some form. What I've found here (in this forum) however, is one of the few places in this world where I can show up as I truly am and be accepted. The same goes for you. We accept and love you.
Well said Truth Seeker. I feel that I don't have much to offer the forum besides (perhaps redundant) observations of my experiences with the program (awesome! Two thumbs way up :D), and my growing commitment to the Work as I try to integrate it, but every day, you are all in my mind and heart and I look forward to having more to share. Truth Seeker your encouraging words are a wonderful example of one of the subtler ways of serving others. Sometimes, attention and acceptance is all we can give, but a precious gift it is.
When I read Laura's comments about her feelings and apprehensions, I realized that, Laura, being a lighthouse and a caretaker for all of us, giving us the added strength of will to actively seek the truth, might need tending sometimes, too! I forget that Laura is also making this journey with us. It only seems fair and natural that someone like Laura, a living example of love in motion, a veritable Prometheus who brings not only fire, but AIR and inspiration, should know every moment how epic her beauty is...you've faced so many seemingly insurmountable challenges, many of which I have and will find easier to face because of
you. Because even when you were tired or scared or beleaguered in general,
you did it anyway and then you
shared. I want to be like you! I, too, can relate to the struggle against physical insecurities (understatement!) though I find it easier and easier lately to think "so what" at these thoughts recognizing them as the predator's booby traps along the path to freedom. Laura, you are living proof that there is a reason to care about life and the way we interact with it and each other, that "freedom" is more than a word but a possibility. Any opportunity to be in your presence is a gift and an honor. And though I know that you'll probably do the video series either way as planned (because you are who you are) I hope that you have a wonderful experience while doing it knowing that Truth Seekers words
arethe truth, we love and accept you! Thanks for your honesty and courage, Laura.
Thanks to all of the QFS group and
all of the forumites that keep the flames going. Here's a song that reminds me of you all and our voyage that perks me up and seemed appropriate...
I'm Yours by Jason Mraz, live
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYhrYHmUPn0
Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
But I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
Were just one big family
And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved
So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait I'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I'm yours
Scooch on over closer, dear
And I will nibble your ear
I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I'm yours
well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved
So please don't, there's no need
(There's no need to complicate)
There's no need to complicate
(Our time is short)
'Cause our time is short
(This is our fate)
This is, this is, this is our fate
I'm yours