Tomek said:
Another great session, thanks for sharing ! Did the C's smashed their hands against the 6D keyboard at the end of the session ?
Also, it seems like we're several members to have noticed that something has "changed" with Joe, like a switch turned on, for the better ! I'm very happy for you, and the way you shared about what you went through is very inspiring and encouraging. Thank you very much !
Well something
has changed with me. I described it in the iodine thread, but I had no idea what was going on at that point, or since, until this session. It's strange the way it has happened. After the initial "saturday night fever" I thought that my thyroid was acting up because of the iodine (symptoms fit with hyperthyroid), so I went for blood tests and a scan, both of which showed no thyroid problems.
So then I figured it must have been mercury, so I put it down to the iodine mobilizing HMs from my brain, (pineal, pituitary hippocampus, amygdala etc.) where they like to hide. The symptoms I've been having (anxiety, doom and gloom etc) fit well with mercury toxicity, but mercury toxicity also has a bunch of other symptoms that I don't have. But it seems I do have some mercury to offload, so I'm in the middle of that DMSA protocol and I'll continue.
The strange thing is that along with the anxiety, fear, doom and gloom etc., I've had an awakening of the importance of relationships in our community of like-minded souls pursuing the aim we are pursuing and a deep awareness of the need for love to be the main ingredient in those relationships and pursuing that aim. Those two opposites dominated my waking (and apparently sleeping) life since that night and have continued for the last 7 weeks, although thankfully the anxiety and fear feelings have begun to abate.
In the weeks previous to that night, a few things had happened, and Ark had said something that awoke the realization in me that everything we do had to be motivated by love, but I understood that mostly from an intellectual perspective. But whatever happened that night seems to have turned that intellectual understanding into a visceral one.
Another way to look at it is that the process is analogous to what is called an "awakening of the emotional center" (not sure about any "higher" emotional center). It seems logical to conclude that, when such a thing happens, all of the repressed emotions (I was very good at that) both positive and negative, are suddenly dropped into your consciousness, and you have to deal with the good and bad, and then begin to acclimatize yourself to this "new reality".
The reason this fits for me is that I was recently rereading some journals from a few years ago and there was a few pages where I kind of psychoanalyzed myself and described what motivated me, what drove me in life (mostly negative things like fear of punishment, judgement, damnation) and it was more or less an intellectual description of what I have been
feeling, full on in my face, for the last 7 weeks.
:O
As Laura said in the session, it may be because I stubbornly held on to my attitudes and beliefs that I had to deal with this all at once, rather than in a more gradual way. From the experiences other forum members have been having with iodine, it seems that most are doing it the gradual way, and probably most people had already done a certain amount of that work on themselves over the years.
It's interesting to note that, whatever is going on on a non-physical level, has its reflection on the physical level and could even be attributed ONLY to that physical level (mercury for example in my case since the symptoms fit to an extent). You could even say that mercury could also have been the cause of my rigid, fearful approach to life through the effect on the brain, and getting rid of it caused both the physical symptoms and the change in my perspective. Although I think that might be a bit of a stretch, because I don't think many people have such a change in perspective from having a HM toxicity attack. So I'm very grateful that we have Laura and her work to help us see the rest of the picture, or perhaps the most important part of the picture.
Anyway, I'm still "in process" (as are we all) and I hope we can all continue to share the journey together, and in that way make the going a little easier and the burden a little lighter.
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... Moreover, his last album is not soo good as prevoious ones... (even if he speaks about psychopaths ...). Well, it remains better than Miley Cyrus... 
