Hi MataiI must confess that I have had the 1st dose of the pfizer vaccine. I held out for as long as reasonably possible, but the pressure in my work environment, which is in the field of healthcare, meant that I was receiving daily questions from my supervisors and employers about when I was getting the vaccine, and why I hadn't gotten it yet. Initially I would give a vague reply and this gave me some time. Then the questions become demands and thinly veiled threats of being removed from my position to another position which would essentially have removed me from any practical work and potentially ruined future career prospects in the field. I then used the tactic of explaining how I always have negative reactions to vaccines in general and how I was hoping to postpone/avoid the vaccine if possible to avoid these side effects This also bought me some more time until many of our elderly patients had received the vaccine and had no obvious significant adverse effects. Then the pressure came back on and I was the last person in my organisation to be non-vaccinated.
At this point I made the conscious decision to get the vaccine as the potential negative effect it may have on my health were outweighed by the negative effect of losing my job and career, which I have placed a large amount of energy into. Thankfully my health is currently at an all time high thanks to implementing the dietary and health recommendations from the forum over the years as well as recommendations from Ray peat and associated people in the health sphere. Similarly I have been re-reading Gurdjieff, Castaneda, Laura/The Cs as well as Paul and Caesar. This has fortified my spirit and will. I therefore met the vaccination head on with as full awareness as I could muster. I had no preconceived notion of how I would feel about the vaccine and focused on having love, hope and faith that I would be able to overcome what is ultimately a small amount of mRNA entering my body. My intent/will/being was bolstered by the knowledge that the PTB are not omniscient and that they may have miscalculated, not only with the manufacturing and negligence in covid being spread and consequently utilized by STO to have a positive effect on certain people, but perhaps there is also a chance that the vaccine itself may backfire as alluded to in a previous session by the Cs. Therefore as the needle went into my body I was physically completely relaxed as to avoid engendering too strong a muscle/nervous response. I was also mentally shielded and focused on the truthful knowledge of what was going into my body without harbouring false knowledge. I was also, however, non anticipatory and open with a strong faith that if there is any chance the mRNA code could be altered by myself/STO helpers in the aide of my positive intent/will/faith then I allowed this possibility to potentially manifest, without being attached to the outcome.
Unfortunately in New Zealand the pfizer vaccine is the only vaccine available or else I would have gotten another non mRNA vaccine. After having the 1st vaccine dose I made sure to openly and loudly announce this around my workplace. Following this, I have been overdue for my second vaccination which I have not gotten. I made sure to get the vaccine in full view of many staff members and made it well known how badly I suffered from it (I took days off sick and sent large email chains detailing how negatively I was affected, although I was actually well - a small white lie which Gurdjieff may have accepted, although Peterson may not be proud of). After this stalking behaviour I have had no questions about getting the 2nd dose and it is now assumed that I have already had it without me even having to directly state that I have. In this way I have avoided any possible more severe reaction which many seem to get with the second dose. Thankfully other than a slightly sore arm I have had no side effects whatsoever and have continued to improve my health and knowledge since receiving the single vaccine dose. One concern prior to getting the vaccine was that I would become some docile sheep who would follow the PTB without a second thought. The opposite has proven to be true, and it is almost as Castaneda says, that by experiencing the heat from impossible people in positions of power over me I was able to utilize the sustained pressure and increase my being, awareness and knowledge to the point that the overall process was a strengthening factor for my being.
Currently I have to deal with the pangs of conscience when patients ask what my opinion is regarding the vaccine. I walk a very fine line and have managed to subtly dissuade certain people from getting the vaccine whilst remaining circumspect and "wise as serpents and gentle as doves". Others who do not ask and disparage those who would be against the vaccine I leave to do as the want according to their own free will. I find myself continuing to fortify myself with petty tyrants at my workplace being under constant surveillance with mask wearing, contact tracing and the like whilst having to repeatedly listen and respond affirmatively to deliberations on the deadliness of the virus as well as preaching about how holy and enlightened the healthcare professionals and bureaucrats who run them are.
Hopefully this can help others in a similar situation to myself. It is still possible that a Mossad agent/Illuminate may press a button somewhere and I then turn into a zombie. However, when I am alone at night looking up to the stars, whilst looking deep into my soul, I know that such a crude tool of the PTB cannot have any hold over me, any more than I allow it to.
I am very impressed with what you have written.
Your acting is impeccable (as Don Juan taught).
Most people I know will take the vaccine just to go on vacation.
You want to grow not only professionally, but you work hard on yourself. Your thoughts are testament to that.
I respect you a lot.