The Living Force
Hi CsayeursostCsayeursost said:So, time getting short, "population reduction" getting imminent, and chances are very, very slim - unless some unexpected, nonlinear series of events occur.
I also read the SOTT article - the Connect The Dots from the day after the session - going into the nasty global situation of the present, and yet... I couldn't truly feel the horror of the situation. Nor do I feel very much for anyone - even myself.
Unless I awaken from this emotional sleep, there's no chance in getting connected to any higher centers. For some time earlier today, I felt some measure of inner agitation thinking about this whole situation, and my inability to even feel it - and it made me toasty inside for a while. But that's no lasting change. Now, what? I have to wake up, and fast. I've made success recently in significantly reducing negative emotional reactions and attitudes - which were subdued and bubbled below the surface in random reactions to things such as some people's voices (even when not directed at me), and induced contraction and mechanical behavior - and still do, though I've made it "thinner", "weaker" than it used to be (and sometimes it completely ceases to occur). But until I manage to fully break through not only these but also the mechanical controls that prevent me from feeling genuinely for more than occasional moments... And there is little time.
I've been feeling (or should I say 'not feeling'?) the same. Biomist posted some advice that I found helped me see things more objectively here