MariuszJ said:Yes, I have gone to see my GP and blood test shows that everything is all right. I have changing blood pressure but it has been for years before. I sleep for 5 to 6 hours a day, which is not enough. I think I feel down due to nobody having a friendly talk with me for months! I cannot stand that loneliness so I feel like that. I have somehow managed to do without these talks for years but now I cannot any longer. I feel as if everybody hated me. Once I try to have a talk with a stranger, I feel that person is reserved, unfriendly, closed inside, which I cannot understand. Only one person among thirty is kind, open and talkative. I believe in a world without any boundaries between people, as hippies did, so when I see, it is different, I am shocked and disappointed. I do not belong to this world any more.Ruth said:MariuszJ said:I wonder what has happened to me. Since two months ago i have been so weak that I have been barely able to get up from bed to go to my workplace. Besides, I have a strange feeling that I am the only living person in the world since the rest of people are robots. Additionally, I more and more often come to the conclusion that the only hobby that most people have is sexual activity and making babies. Is this all, what I feel, related to the changes we go through?
Have you been to see your doctor for a check up?
It sounds like your loneliness and depression are causing you to turn inward, to a degree that is unhealthy. You're seeing things in very black-and-white terms: everyone is a robot, all they do is have sex. While those observations may be true to some extent, they are not the whole picture. Reality is much more complex and nuanced.
As for not belonging to this world anymore, if you're here, you belong. It may not be pleasant, but it's what we have, and it's the perfect opportunity to work on ourselves. If 1 in 30 people is kind and open, find that 1 person. There are plenty such people on this forum, for example!
Is there anything you can think that you can start doing for the good of others, for the future, and for a life worth living?