aleana said:Thank you for another information packed session! Much to ponder.
rylek said:I can related to this, something similar happened to me not too long ago. It's as if a veil lifts for a split second and you get a glimpse of your potential but it's just a fleeting impression after which it's back to "normal". Anyone else had something similar happen to them?Artemis said:T.C. said:Could you elaborate on this at all, Artemis? It's just that it stood out to me personally because I've always wished I could ask the C's an almost identical question.
I would if I could. It's very hard for me to put into words. I had this knowledge - something I just understood I could do, and it all made sense in that very moment, and I thought it was amazing. Almost as soon as it came, it was gone, but I remember knowing that I knew it. Can't get any clearer than that
It reminded me of dreams I have had where I briefly remembered having some very important insight that was crucial to my understanding of a situation I was dealing with - only to have it vanish upon awakening with only the feeling state of the dream left. Very disconcerting!
Ah, okay. My experience was quite different, then.
When I was little, around six maybe, I would have these quite bizarre 'dreams'. The entire content of them didn't really conform to a regular experiencing of being. They were accompanied by a certain 'dread' feeling, and a strange kind of 'scale' trigger... like within the experience, was enormity contained in tininess, or vice versa.
The thing was, the feeling that accompanied the 'dreams' could be triggered by something in moments when I was awake, or I could even trigger it myself. It was intriguing and tempting to do, but it was scary and uncomfortable and there was that feeling of dread. The deeper I went into the state, the worse I would feel until I reached the point where I would pull back and let it go. The older I got, the less I dared pursue the state/experience, and when I did, I wouldn't take it as far.
Eventually I lost the ability to access whatever this was - except for every now and again, in extremely mild ways that only just brush the surface. Funnily enough, the last time I experienced anything close to how it was when I was little was when I was about 18yrs old, and I contracted salmonella. I woke up in the middle of the night in a state of delirium, but it was a very familiar feeling and felt a lot like these states I used to experience when I was young.
It would be almost impossible for me to explain what I saw or perceived when I had these dreams or dreamstates. But I have wondered over the years whether it's something that I'm worse off for having lost and not pursued and developed, or whether it was better to leave it. So when you said, "I have this experience where I have this knowledge where I thought that I could do something, like I had some sort of ability, but I lost it. Do you know what I'm talking about? I can't describe it to you", I wondered if it was along the same lines.